I've had decent amounts of energy today and I've actually been somewhat productive. I met with my study group (we have to prepare the oral presentation for in a week) and it went alright.
Went home and could chill for a bit before going to meet up with some friends in the terrific weather. We played soccer and volley and my skin is the same colour as that of a boiled lobster.
Got home, made delicious risotto, read some of the text we need to have finished by tomorrow (and it turns out I'm a genius, unfortunately my great theory about free will already exists and has done so for about 30 years. Luckily I suppose that means I'm as smart as a professor (or was when I figured it out, years ago)), and I even cleaned the toilet in my appartment (it's shared, and my neighbor did it just when I moved in so I figured it was my turn.

I feel like I've been quite productive, and that's good for a change.

pc

Finished exam with an A, great note to end the semester on. I think things are going alright, I realized my life is pretty good and I should cherish things more, I just hope that feeling lasts.

Good summer yall

I've gotten a lot of thinking done recently. I have also done a lot of drugs recently, and I think that have caused a lot of thinking, which is actually nice.

I'm headed to Rome tomorrow with my family, then the Italian coast for a few days which will hopefully be nice as well. I usually "hate" travelling (I need a few days (at least) to adapt to new surroundings), but I got a somewhat good feeling this time, I think it's gonna be good, and honestly a week+ without drugs and a lot of alcohol (presumably) is going to be healthy.

I'll try to enjoy myself, you guys do yours and HF

The length of this holiday is basically making me a hermit except for when I go outside and consume alcohol. I'm not quite sure whether or not it's a good thing.

Feel like things are going alright, not bad, not particularly well, but it's moving forward. Biggest personal goal this month is showing myself that I am capable of maintaining a positive economy because recently it's been pretty bad.

I'm doing a lot of thinking etc., but I'm also getting kinda bored of having nothing to do all the time, luckily Pokemon GO and working out makes my physical appearance pretty good and fit. I feel like that's a necessity considering the fact that my body is _probably_ dying on the inside.

Date for re-exam is supposed to be announced tomorrow IIRC, then planning commenses.

Exam in 11 days. Am reading up will try to maintain good reading habits so I can get this done in style. Semester starts only a couple of days after anyways so it's not like I'd "waste" a good habit if I can actually keep it up.

First of all, though, I just have to pass this **** and then I'll worry about everything else later.

Currently reading and preparing for the re-exam. It's actually not as bad as I thought it would be, and I learned a lot of it anyways when we did our semester project so I feel like it'll be fine.

Financial situation is no longer a full-blown wildfire, now it's a bit more house-on-fireish, not terrific, but certainly further from falling into an abyss I could never get out of than last month.

ATM I spend most days just reading up, playing CS:GO/a lil doto and just relaxing and smoking joints in the evenings. I feel like it's a relatively good rhythm to have just before sem start, at least certainly better than the one I had a week ago or so.

I r hopeful, I r cheerful, but I R ALZO not those things. Things are things, things are relative, relative is relative.

pizza is done, woo

I love JD, there are very few people I admire as much as Ian Curtis

I'm not sure I'll ever forgive YUNG NEIL for removing his music from Spotify

Insanely beautiful song all the way through.

My love for Joy Division has been reinvigorated and just kept increasing for the past month or so. I can't listen to New Dawn Fades without feeling like I am Ian Curtis on the brink of suicide, but in a good way. I can hear his desperation and despair in every word, I feel shivers down my spine from the instruments alone. I sing along and scream along whenever I hear it, and it's like everything else is on standby and I just live as Ian when I listen to it. Some of the best lyrics ever in a song and one of the few songs I consider a masterpiece in every aspect.

"I know what I'm doing..."

"What are you doing?"

"I don't know."

"You just said you knew what you were doing?.."

"Exactly. I know that I don't know what I'm doing!"

I drank so much yesterday I feel like I can faintly remember anything. I met my cousin randomly when I was out (he lives 100 miles away) and we just drank 'til 6 in the morning when I ended up doing a line of Ket and immediately becoming too ****ed to do anything where we walked home and I ended up throwing up several times. Still good times.

The reason was I got finished the exam I had to do over and that called for celebration (I don't know if I passed, and I know for a fact that I completely mistook qualitative research methods for research analysises and thus 50% of what I wrote is invalidated). Within a couple of hours I had drank 3 beers and a litre of wine before going out where I drank for 6 more hours, and a lot during this period. Actually now that I think about it it's not so weird my hangover today is severely worse than they usually are... hmm causality.

I knew I had to get more as soon as I tasted the "new goodie" from my dealer friend and I ended up buying 0.5 today (so I can forgive myself). I wasn't planning on doing it in the foreseeable future but it happeend and I'm not gonna regret it. It is what it is.

To the (by miles) most beautiful girl I've ever met (who studies psych aswell) I let her know I though she was extremely beautiful today. It didn't really result in anything, but for me it was a huge step towards doing/saying what I feel like (at least in certain circumstances). I met her later in the night and we chatted up for a bit so I don't think she hates me so there's that.

Just wanted to let whoever know, I'm obviously on cocaine right now, but in case anyone was actually reading along it would bne super interesting to hear from whoever, and I know I have far from lived up to the title of my blog (I was trying to change it but can't be allowed). Whatever (the first professor of 3rd semester we met seemed to have the catchphrase whatever (he also had a moment of "oh, yeah, we're not gonna talk about this. (moron*).
*We heard him whisper to himself in the middle of class. Extremely sympathetic and very nice kinda guy.

Have a good life.

I spent my Saturday with my good friend, he was on acid, I had a bit of coke leftover so we had a good time and smoked some joints and walked around town, good times.

Ride on, brothers, ride on.

The Golden Boy

When I made the #2 post in this blog I had just finished an exam that I ended up failing. Did the reexam about a month ago, today I got the results - I passed, so praise the lord for that.

WRT #2 I haven't really made a lot of the changes that I asked for, but I'm making it work. I do drink a lot less and do a lot less drugs, though.

This is a Danish dude whom I stumbled upon 5-6 hours ago, have listened to his 3 albums since. Really soothing.