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Originally Posted by suitedjustice
Thanks for the kind words, sickhuman!
I was in bad shape myself in my early 40's, physically and mentally. Then I took up writing again after a silent decade, and it saved my life. I've had several cycles of decay and renewal since then, but the writing has always been there for me. I'm glad that you took it up as well.
Thanks for the message sir.
The degenerate solitary life we have chosen or that has been thrust upon us by fate can be a little isolating writing is a good way to sort out your thoughts..
Been trying to grind my head off as promised, and had a little bit of success, got 3rd in a $55 hi lo tourney for $1200 to get this challenge and thread off to a good start and force me to keep hacking away, if I ran bad to start, I am sure I would have just abandoned this thread...
Have had absolutely abysmal mental fortitude while i am grinding, biting my arm hard enough to draw blood on a few occasions, not healthy by any means.
Its a thin line where you need to be somewhat tilted to even start playing because playing Poker on the internet is so painful and the insipid rage lurking constantly can boil to the surface so quickly..
keep trying to battle the bots at the $25 HU games and getting destroyed.. seems like the poker Gods punish you and you will run the worst when you are taking bad shots and playing games that you are not supposed to...
The Key is serenity and mental toughness and we are inching closer to that I guess but tough to defeat you inner demons and believe yourself worthy of good things.
Much Love to all my devoted readers.. sorry for the rambling disjointed thoughts...