I've always had bad habit of complaining , speaking, and thinking negative. All of my other threads are just pure negativity and I want to fix that. I want to try to focus on positive things happening in my life, show more gratitude instead of complaining, and just eventually fill my mind with happy thoughts. I have a lot of good going on in my life and I need to focus on that and work on being happy everyday.

First good thing: my amazing sister stopped by and cleaned my kitchen yesterday. She is such a wonderful, giving, helpful person, and I'm so thankful to have her in my life.

good luck!

Thank you!

I had my second therapy appointment today with my ghetto therapist lol.

I was talking about something and asked, "do you think this is the right thing to do?" And he replied, "Girl, you know that's wrong" lol

I feel absolutely comfortable talking about anything with him and my guard is completely down more than with any other therapist before.

The session went great. We talked a lot about quiting smoking and changing my mindset and motivations.
Good progress and good day today.

Does anything make him ghetto other than the fact he is black? Because that's pretty ****ed up.

He speaks really ghetto. Like he will talk professional and then he slips up and blurts out something ghetto. I love it.

For example:
"Yes, mmhmm. I see. Girl, oh no you didn't!"

M, I have happy thoughts sometimes. Do you permiss me to share them in your blog?

Btw, I think this is a cool idea.

Share away....I'd love to hear your happy thoughts

So I just pulled my hair out of the usual messy Bunn and a guy comes into my office and tells me i look so pretty with my hair down and around my face like that. 😊 Made my day.

Awwww!

I was just about to reply to some haters post in an effort to defend myself. I wrote out this long post and realized how rediculous it is to waste my time and respond to someone like that; even reading negative comments about me is a complete waste of time. I switched my mind over to think about something positive.

I started thinking about my bestie. He and I met about 6 years ago I think. We lived in the same appartment complex and met the day I moved in...he helped me. What I love the most about him is how he gets so passionate about things; his excitement is just so contagious. He just finished up his math degree a couple of years ago, and when he was in school, he couldn't wait to run by my appartment to show me his math proofs. He's so passionate about math and should be a teacher. Hes also very passionate about different shows and books and ideas and Everytime I get to see him I know I'll learn something new. He is also such a great friend to me. A couple of weeks ago, he was willing to cancel a date so that we could hand and I could crash with him. Happy thoughts!

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Nice thread!! gl gl!!

Okay, sure. The next time I'm feeling optimistic I'll share some lame poetry about shapes and stuff. You and your engineering buds will at least have a laugh.

Also, about the haters ^^: I know what it's like to have the whole world pointing and miming. It sucks, but they don't matter one bit.

Happy Mother's Day MLYLT.

Thanks Dodger!

I've been feeling really great for about a week now. I don't feel like I'm in a manic high state, but I'm skeptical because of my lack of sleep. I haven't slept more than 6hrs straight since last Tues night and I don't feel tired or lack energy. It's been a really long time since I haven't needed a ton of sleep from depression. I'm just feeling really good and I hope it means my depression is lifting and I'm not manic and going to crash hard next week.

A lot of happy thoughts today. Spent a lot of time with my daughter and we cooked dinner together. Got lots of kindergarten mother's day crafts and pure sweetness from my baby.

My boyfriend offered to come to me next weekend and I know he will mow for me and do my laundry and help with everything else I need to get done before moving the following weekend. I'm so thankful for all the many things he does for me. When I moved into this house it was just he and I doing all the moving and he did most of the work. He will also move me the weekend after next. I don't know what I would do without him. He is really working hard to show me he cares.

I've got a lot to do at work next week and I'm actually looking forward to going to work and being busy. I'm so incredibly lucky to have this job and work with the people I do. Everyone is caring and the company culture is amazing. They are letting me leave work whenever I need to go to therapy and I've been able to leave work early a few times when I was manic and they don't make me use my vacation time. I get to set my own schedule within reason that allows me to go to the gym before I have to get my daughter from daycare as well. The work is incredibly boaring, but I couldn't get this work life balance anywhere else....it's just awesome.

I can't wait to read your poetry. No one will be having a laugh; bring on the positivity!

So I've been super busy at work, and all I could think about was complaining about what a ***** my boss was today but I'm not going to do it.

I just had a two hour conversation with a dear friend who told me "we connect at the heart". I'm so thankful for the great friends I have had and have now. I've had a lot of guy friends that have opened up to me about everything they are going through; their relationships, fears, heartbreaks, addictions, etc and everyone of my guy friends have come to me to cry on my shoulder and I'm so thankful for that. They have without a doubt made me a better person and made me look at things from different perspectives. Their heartbreaks and experiences have really taught me to be more compassionate, more forgiving, more understanding, more loving, and them sharing things so personal with me gives me a sense of fulfillment and purpose.

I love more than anything feeling connected with other people and learning new things from their experiences.

optimism, not positivity.
one draws negative charge to it.

Happy thoughts today...
A guy grabbed me at the last minute to jump on a conference call and talk about some things. The call was with the CEO, CFO, and all of our corporate Management group for North and South America; I had no idea lol. I walk in and he says here's MLYLT to talk about X. Anyway, I killed it and and everyone was impressed. The CEO even texted the guy to tell him to tell me good job. It feels really good to do well at work, and being thrown into different situations has made me realize how well I can handle just about anything on the fly. I'm really good in tense or stressful situations, my brain goes straight into logic mode and I get it done.

that's great. it feels good to knock one out of the park.

The plant managers boss(not sure what his title is, but he's way up in the company) invited me to be on that conference weekly today. That feels awesome! They mostly discussed the companies finances and projections, so it's cool to get to be privy to all that info.

Last night I got to spend a lot of time with my daughter doing science experiments. It's so much fun teaching her about acids and bases and reactions and just watching her face light up.

Today I was on the road for work and I stopped at a dinner in a small town. This nice old man (85) ask if he could join me. It was such a treat. We talked about the Vietnam war and my industry and it's advancements through the years and about his son that he lost. He has no family left and just spends his days driving around Texas. The way he spoke of his son just really hit home for me that the time I have with my daughter is precious. He told me to "always stay sweet" as I was leaving. I'm thankful for random encounters with strangers that lead to life reflection today.

Kinda weird,but I took this photo of him.