I have to go home. I can't tell if I'm manic. I just lost a night of sleep and I feel great. I just gave the rest of my weed to some construction workers. Vegas doesn't feel smart. If this is a manic adventure I want a stop loss.

I have to figure out why all these amazing women wanted to give me a chance. I need to figure out so I can stop the self sabatoge. If I wasn't crazy I would have been a catch.

That was weird trip. I shouldnt have gone but then I wouldnt have seen Chris Rock and he wouldnt have dropped science. I actually have to be very careful dating again. Once I trust a woman its going to be sad how fast I let her domesticate me. Partly because I have been in the wild so long but also for my survival. 3 months in a gym and a trip to the dentist I look like a catch again. Then a trip to the therapist and a working studio and I am a catch again.

There was this cynical vibe at the show. A lot of complaining about how ****ty people are in LA and how they cant find love. It threw me off. Maybe not moving there was a good idea.

I had to shave my head. Add long hair to the list of **** women have to put up with. I dont know how they do it. If the other days were mania then the down has started. I cant let this get too bad.

I think Im starting to have the slightest clue of who was in that pool. I dont want to believe it because you dont want to get your hopes up. Its really fun to have the crush though. I just assure myself that how I came to this conclusion is flawed in some way.

I was about to order everything I thought I needed to build a studio but I decided I should probably at least go talk to some young person at guitar center first. See the new ****.

My knee still hurts. I feel like if I really kept off it it would have gotten better by now. I really want to exercise more and my knee is slowing that down. Movies and Gorilla Glue lined up for tonight since I cant go out. Im so stir crazy I cleaned my backyard. Watching jmakin gamble makes me want to go the casino.

Im not doing **** so I got nothing to blog about. I gave in and bought an ounce of Gorilla Glue. Its too good not to enjoy. I am watching Pootie Tang high as **** trying to hard boil eggs for ramen. Wah da tah

I also had weed called Wedding Cake and Skittlez. They both really did taste like confectioneries. These strains cost more than the Gorilla Glue but they werent as potent. They were picked for taste and had better cures on them though. Ill stick with the glue.

I am not limping anymore. I can feel which muscle I strained. If I walk for a long time it starts hurting. I figure I just got to chill a few more days. The sandwich thread got me craving banh mi. I will be getting banh mi tommorow at 7am at the secret spot son.

There definitely was some famine thinking going on when I was buying quarter ounces. I would smoke the quarter in two days. Taking bong rips by the hour trying to smoke through the weed. Now that I have an ounce and I just accept Im smoking for a bit, I am smoking every few hours.

Banh Mi mission semi completed. Theres this Vietnamese coffee and sandwich place in this strip mall thats been there for at least 20 years. I check yelp to make sure they are still there. Yelp says they open at 7am. I thought thats weird but they serve coffee. I show up at like 8 they are closed. I ended up going to a place closer to my house. Got a ham and pate and a grilled pork sandwich. The ham and pate was okay. The grilled pork was good. They marinated the **** out of it. Still I know why the place thats been open 20 years is there. Its just better.

I was going to post this in the gardening thread but I couldnt find the link on amazon. I bought this indestructible fern on amazon. They werent lying. I had it in a 3 gallon pot and didnt water it for 3 years. I just watered it again a few days ago its starting to come right back.

On deck I need to clean my balcony. I broke a mirror and I can see little specks and its freaking me out. Plus my neighbors would appreciate it. It was last left it a manic state.

There definitely was a plan in the way I arranged the furniture on the balcony. Just who's plan Im not really sure.

It comes down to the way they dice the carrots and ****. Do they really give a ****.

I need to renew my passport. Then I might dip to some vacation spot. That way at least there will be a language barrier if they want to **** with me. I changed my mind. I need to just have a fling. Just have fun. You dont have to trust people for fun.

My indestructible fern. It's hard to see but there is new growth. I didn't even flush it or feed it. Just water.

One time I was in San Diego and my flip flop broke. I went to ross and bought the dopest pair of Nike flip flops ever made. Now I always check ross for flip flops. I feel like people just mess with slides and they all suck. I got two new warrior hats though. I wanted the black one and they hit me with buy one get one half off. The red one got waves on it.

Im thinking about starting a sex cult.

Spent the day cleaning. Still resting my knee. Digging through old cds. I have two dope but useless cd turntables and a broken mixer. If I go all the way over to CH2 it starts picking up CH1 for no reason. I got probably a thousand dollars worth of useless cables now. I bet I could get a decent amount of money scrapping them for gold.

Im watching Man on Fire and smoking weed. In a few days Im going somewhere. I dont know where but Im going.

Halo halo from jollibee and the last of the zip. Who am I kidding I'm flying back to L.A. when the weed is done.

Dark on the balcony

I am in the bay so I could have got a halo halo from a real spot but Jollibee has a drive thru and is open 24 hours. You cant get halo halo at 3 in the morning though. They tell you to **** off. I dont know why I am always trying to eat **** at 3 in the morning.

I am looking at hotels in other spots but if theres room at the standard im checking in.

What is halo halo?

The bottom has like sweetened red beans, jellies, tapioca balls and other stuff. Then theres shaved ice and sweetened condensed milk. Then on top of that a scoop of mango and some purple ice cream. By the end it just all melts together and you drink it. I want to say its a Filipino desert but I dont really know. Lots of different versions across asia.

Flight and room booked.

They ran out of Jack herer so this is Jack crossed with some secret agent ****. Secret guest at the comedy store. Forgot scissors so 9 bucks for the mustache trimmer...its a time investment.

Joe's pizza and pre Rollin joints. The programming feels strategic. Nothing has changed. Guess who just ran into the mushroom connect.

Jesus that was cryptic. I don't know how to say it. It just started to hurt too much and I have to protect myself. It doesnt go away either. Reeses. I had to stop believing.

This is the lobby of my hotel. That mother****er is reading in a box. Just saw the kill Tony show. I really like the format. I'm signing up next time.

Time to blast off.

Making a shake because there is a lot of dust. The key to making a shake is no vitamin c. That's what I learned in Amsterdam I think. I'm taking them at midnight.

Dude said they made him very emotional. I should probably break my phone right now. It has started.