Hi y'all,

Here is my blog.

I'm a ex pro-poker player (i don't want to play for a living anymore) who get ****ed by life recently, I won't go into lot of details 'cause it too heavy I lost peoples who was so important to me and due to that I let my health get worse and worse, day after day. My mood is running very bad for 2 years now.

I got no job, never went to college and got no work experience at all.

Only things I love doing at the moment is doing drugs, partying and then forget all the things that make me depressed.

I want to change though, every night I fell asleep and I say to myself "okay, tomorrow is a whole new beginning for you" but my mind flipped before waking up in the morning and at the moment I open my eyes for the first time of the day, the only thing I can think off is how to fill my addictions as soon as possible.

I want to share with you, in this thread, the ups and downs of my life, I'm pretty sure it can be positive for me to see all the blessings I still have everyday and for you too 'cause I want to prove anybody that being in the rock bottom isn't a fatality.

I don't have no plans, but my final goal is to enjoy every damn day I'm given to live.

Almost forget, I'm a 21yo European (english isn't my native language, sorry if I make mistakes)

What are you addicted to? Have you tried to get help?

Hi, thanks for being the 1st replier, appreciate man !

I have no shame, so I'll answer you honestly : Cigs, Cocaine, Alcohol, THC for the most addictive things I got.

I sometimes do Opiates (codeine) and acid too but not on a regular basis so I don't get much that addictive feeling about those products. I'm not even sure if you really can be an acid addict though.

Poker and gambling were two massive addictions for me too but surprisedly it been really smooth for me to quit them.

Never got help, and I'm not sure if I want to... I may figure that out shortly.

I'll post tonight (UTC+1:00) how the first day went. See ya

Hello y'all,

Completely forgot about this short thread lol, but here's an update :

I feel relatively better, for the last few months I managed to quit cocaine and weed and I drink only with friends, most of the time only at parties. I still have some trouble at night because of weed cure but it get better and better everyday. I'd like to thank my mom 'cause she's the only one praying for me to get better so take care of your moms guys!

Anyway I'm still smoking a box of Marlboro a day but I think I'll be able to decrease that once every other addictions will completely disappear.

Got more energy in me and I feel better in the early mornings, eat lot more, my days are lot more productive and I'm happier in my everyday life. Started work out too since a week and that help me feeling tired at night, hopefully I'll see result on my body and my mind soon !!

I will try to keep this thread active but I'll need some help and feedback cause I'm not a big writer so feel free to ask anything about me.

Enjoy your life boyz and see you soon ya ****in' degenerates