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Originally Posted by Robin Agrees
I already do eat healthly and get all those things you mention. Everytime I go to the gym and have fruit I laugh at myself. I laugh at myself I'm taking great care and upkeep of a body and life I don't want. To prolong life in tip-top condition for no reason to go living. Which find absurd and all rather depressing. But I don't think anybody understands that which is frustrating.
It may be a logical realization, that you intelligently realize that motivation for things is fake. And the emptiness in that realization may make you uneasy. There would be few people to relate to in this, and a great feeling of confusion and periods of darkness are likely to result.
Because the realization of the falseness of desire and motivation is not the same as depression or suicide. Even tho they might seem the same. The determining factor would be if you realize you have no motivation or reason to expend the energy for suicide as well.
You might argue you could stop eating and naturally you would die, from lack of motivation to eat. But you naturally are already feeding yourself, you would need motivation to stop.
If you have chemical problems or PTS etc. thats one thing, but if you are having issues because you can't relate to people that fail to admit to themselves they have false motivations, then there are people that know about this kind of darkness.