Pretty long and terrublu day yesterday, had a 9 hours non stop requirements session which made me want to rip my eyes out of my skull. Had 5 beers and 2 spliffs (unfortunately not during).

Today my goal is to empty my work mail inbox and take care of any tasks in those mails that I didn't take care of (yet). Its a messed up job but apparently they are paying me to take care of this kind of **** so what can I say amirite ? Super busy day at work today, Ill be happy if Im done with the mail things before I go to bed for now.

I was kind of busy so I dropped the ball on the email tasks, opened the thread today to write the daily update (only real requirement at this point), reread my last post, noticed I hadn't done my email task so I booted it all up to process a ton of email in about 30 minutes, so Im done with that now. Yay.

Worked in the full sun in the garden for about an hour without a shirt on, no allergic reaction YET so Im hoping for the best. Had 4 beers and 2 spliffs today and 3 beers 2 spliffs yesterday.

I've read into the vinegar thing and I think Ill be starting that friday, looks pretty easy but Im not sure I have a 'working culture' or whatever that is.
Need to work on the tomato plants tomorrow night, also going out to dinner with the gf and a few of her friends in Amsterdam, I kind of hate using public transport but Ill give it a shot.

Day	Task
10-4	Mow/seed the lawn for summer
11-4	Clean out my top top room and tent
12-4	Measure/Saw/Install the wooden panels in top room
12-4	Take care of some work I have to do before tomorrow
15-4	Clean out work inbox

Ship the greens imo.

So Im doing terrible financially, **** me amirite. I have sick bills to pay which will be fine but just fml that I cant take care of it on my own. I really need to do better than that because being a lazy weed smoking **** can't be a thing that messes with the financial side of things because that on its turn brings lolstress which is not something I need right now so yeah. I kind of need to fix that.

So thats it for now, fml.

Ill add a floating task for next week which is paint a few pieces of fence I have laying around.

More yard work;
Free of any and all weeds.


I have done about half of this (left soil = done)


I really thought I was going to hate all this yard work but its kind of therapeutic actually. Helps me relax and I stop thinking about a lot of things because Im just focusing on some simple manual task. Also, sun does wonders for how you're feeling.

My indoor plants are looking like this;

Really have to start separating the tomato plants and getting a spot ready in the garden. Mebbeh tonight, taking the car after all because public transport is going to make me take an additional hour of traveling time. Woke up on the late side today even thought I went to bed at like 00:30.

As can be seen in the 1st picture of the previous post my currant bush is having some 'bloodblisters';


These are caused by lice hanging out on the other side of the leave as can be seen here (click for huge);

Lice are often defended by a nearby ant colony, they are regularly being 'milked' by the ants which provide them with a sugary good in exchange for defending the lice from other predators. You'll often see ants running up and down trees with lice in them and big ant colonies/lice colonies can actually be quite the spectacle.

As Im kinda 'bio' I've concocted a mix of water and garlic to spray the plant with and I've gotten rid of some of the nastier looking leaves as well.

Here is a video of a lice (aphids) colony being attacked by a lady bug while they are being milked by the ants (lolwat);


Went to dinner last night with the gf and some of her friends, was a pretty cool/hipster restaurant located in an old bank. They plated all the courses pretty much in the open which was cool for a change. Had 4 beers and 2 spliffs yesterday + today.



I know, Im posting **** loads of large pics and it sucks and yes I know this isnt the ScreaminAZNGOAT thread so nobody actually wants to see the pics but I made the mistake of embedding all the large pics all the time instead of when needed. Didn't get to do that much tasks today/yday, have been feeling kinda sick for the last few days and Im incidentally addicted to playing werewolf in POG

With blackcurrant and lice. I had that problem once. I brewed some tobacco with hot water and then spread the mix on the bushes, and what was left on tobacco solids distributed around the bushes. Worked pretty well. If it makes sense for you or not depends on how expensive tobacco is in Netherlands.

Thanks, if the garlic isn't working the tobacco thing sounds great, I found some tobacco treatment yesterday but that was a little more complicated. They got rid of the lice by tying a bag over the plant and lighting a cigarette inside to make it fill up with smoke.

Today is probably the last day of intense yard work, should be done after that for a few days. Sun is shining, door is open and the fresh air is flowing in while slowly drowning in 15 year old beats...

Missed my first day of diary yesterday, **** happens .

Saturday was a MEH day, felt pretty awful since Im not really smoking anymore weed during the day in the weekend. The weather was a bit ****ty as well which insta makes me depressed. Funny the influence a thing like that has, I should probably look up whether living in a country with better weather makes you happier. Most of these countries are quite the ****hole as well so maybe it evens out but somewhere like Australia or Southern States just sounds so awesome.

Before


After


Pic from a few years ago I found


How its looking now

Day	Task
10-4	Mow/seed the lawn for summer
11-4	Clean out my top top room and tent
12-4	Measure/Saw/Install the wooden panels in top room
12-4	Take care of some work I have to do before tomorrow
15-4	Clean out work inbox
19-4	Clean terrace, green stuff on tiles
20-4	Take care of soil and grass issues in garden (big one)
20-4	Clean house before 8pm
20-4	Take care of emails in tasks for work
21-4	Clean out the shed

Smoked less than 1 joint everyday and a few beers (yesterday 2, Saturday 4 I think). I might install some alcohol app just to keep track of how much I actually drink. I know Im not what anyone would call a problem drinker but Im quite sensitive to anything addicting so I want to keep track of it and be conscious about it. I will update this a bit more tonight. Yay us!

Do you live in a house or an apartment? I wonder because many pictures are apparently from estate around a house.

I live in a +-5br house with a front and backyard in a super cozy neighborhood. Quite boring but also quite relaxing . My yard had been a bit messy for a while so I choose that little project to kick this off with.

This is what my view is like from the front 1st floor, my house is more or less similar to the ones you see except for the 2nd floor where I have a double dormer across the whole width;

Yard is so cool. When you describe what you do there, I also totally do get the yard work itch. I am in an apartment, so that my balcony is my yard for now.

It really motivates me and even gives me the daily physical workout I sometimes crave after 8 hours of desk work , if your balcony has a good southern sunny side the possibilities are endless. Yard work officially done today, just have to paint the fence in the back but Im probably going to take 2 or 3 days off for that when the weather forecast is prime.

Yesterday - 4 beers 1 small spliff. I got some work done but not all, house was cleaned, shed was prepared to be cleaned and I got some office work done. Will have to finish most of these for the Champions League games tonight or lolme.

Im going to enroll in a Python class on Coursera which starts at the end of next month. Haven't done anything with coding for a long time but have done quite some PHP since I was 13 years old so I feel kinda confident about this. I'd love to buy a Raspberry Pi and make all kinds of useless ****. My gf will most likely be doing an internship this summer which will require some knowledge of Python so I figured we could do it together. I will probably kick her ass ( ).

Lol at me, those were some busy days and I couldn't come up with the motivation to write something.

It reminded me of when I was young. I would be late for a paper of some kind but have it finished 1 or 2 days after the deadline. I would feel so unmotivated about the whole thing that I would often carry it around with me for weeks and when the **** finally went down with the teacher I'd pull the paper out of my bag, dated only days after the actual deadline. I was often met with some kind of death glare wondering why I always mess things up for myself.

If I'd miss an appointment with my therapist of some sorts, I'd stop going altogether and start visiting a different one. Wrt this thread, after not posting for almost 2 weeks I'd probably stop posting all together. I guess being honest with yourself is pretty important in these scenario's. I stopped insta taking easy exits and started owning up to a lot more. Being honest and trustworthy really is a credit to your personality (lol, whowouldathunk).

Went out for ice karting with some friends, they change this indoor ice skating venue into an indoor ice karting venue in the last few months leading up to the summer. It was pretty cool.


Tomato's be tomatoing. I put two out in the garden and there is a very noticeable difference in growth so happy I kept them inside for now.


Pressure sprayed the pavement and got rid of all the weeds in this area. I should have made a before pic because it was pretty impressive.


I bought this rocking horse. Its very nice, well built and could probably be somewhat popular. Im trying to decide whether I should just keep it like this, give it to my mother to paint it (she paints artsy stuff) or disassemble it to use it as a mold to make multiple of these things. I wouldn't be surprised if I could sell this to all the hipsters for a hefty sum.


Insanely busy work days so Ill put some tasks on hold, I have one arch nemesis though;

Day	Task
10-4	Mow/seed the lawn for summer
11-4	Clean out my top top room and tent
12-4	Measure/Saw/Install the wooden panels in top room
12-4	Take care of some work I have to do before tomorrow
15-4	Clean out work inbox
19-4	Clean terrace, green stuff on tiles
20-4	Take care of soil and grass issues in garden (big one)
20-4	Clean house before 8pm
20-4	Take care of emails in tasks for work
21-4	Clean out the shed

Lol@shed. Its not even messy but I bought a BBQ which Ill have to pick up soon and I want there to be enough place to store it and keep it tidy.

one of my friends taped a photograph of dave coulier onto the face of a wooden rocking horse and brought it to a festival. and he also made a sign that read, "ride the dave coulier $5".

he made over a hundred dollars in one day.

Haha, someone actually told me I should use the mold to make a lifesize horse and bring it to festivals, may not be such a bad idea after all ;D.

I've been swamped with a European public tender we're doing at work, it's been quite the ride and it will probably last for a while so Ill be happy if I update here once a week. Ill try and focus on writing some more stories rather than just diarying next week.

Tomato, tomaato.

They starting to grow so I had to fixate them because they aren't strong enough to keep themselves up, especially once they will be flowering. I also bought some additives for the plant as they are in pots with soil that is deliberately low in nutrients.


Also meant it was time to 'thief' them (its a dutch translation) which means removing small starting branches in the plants 'armpits'. In English they call them 'suckers', they draw nutrients from the rest of the plant while also sometimes growing fruit on them. These branches are feeble and often useless. Removing these branches saves nutrients for other plant parts. It also concentrates growth of fruits; basically your yield will always be around the same weight, either in a small yield of heavy fruit or a large yield of lighter fruit. The smaller yield of heavy fruit is often also a tastier fruit, you could say the nutrients have been diluted less to make these fruits and thus they have more flavor. This technique can be used with pretty much any plant.


A little pic of the front yard, still have to throw out that lonely tree on the left.


And finally, the shed. Was done within an hour or so ? It wasn't that bad here is an after.


Sun allergy hit me hard today, all red and blistered, FML. Might have to schedule a doctors appointment.

Im in the metro, there is a couple with a kid in a stroller. The guy is wearing a stained soccer shirt under his track suit while his some what obese gf thought it was a good idea to slip into a tight leopard print top. The kid has a mullet and is drinking soda from his sippy cup. His face is smeared with black spots. I just cant help but judge these people while also being a bit jealous of them.

Jealous for what?

May be jealous of zero doubts, of not thinking about, is it right what I am doing. At least I would be jealous of that. I would be also jealous of the guy accepting her fat and in leopard top. But at the same time I wouldn't be able accept myself like that............Jealous of not making any effort to do anything better. ^^ Also jealous of a child and thinking that I would be 10000000 times better mom.

That would be my points for jealousy in the situation.

I doubt that you're jealous. Perhaps a little longing for the road not taken. After all, both of you could chuck it all today and make the choice to live like this. Those people, however, could never choose your lifestyle. They don't appear to possess the ability to make it happen.

I bought some tomatoes last week. Have them in pots for now as there's still a risk of frost (I had to bring them inside last night). In a week or so I'll plant them in the ground except for the biggest pot which I'll leave and see how that goes.



This is my first attempt growing veggies. I got a pack of 6 different varieties for $9. I hope at least a couple do okay.

This is pretty spot on, I think Im partly jealous of the 'easy' life. I over think everything and can be pretty anxious about anything, my relation, my health or the way I do my work. That lack of acceptance of the fat leopard girl is definitely something I'd like to change, like maybe the guy honestly loves her and this is the girl he wants to be with for the rest of his life.

Its kind of silly because I dont even know whether they are living the easy life or not. Maybe the guy has his own psychological problems that I dont know of, maybe he hates his gf and is constantly cheating on her. Maybe they have no money and are completely messed up in the head. I dont know.

While writing this I found this article, The downsides of being clever. Somewhat interesting to read.

They should but frost isn't the only thing tomato's have issue's with. Their growth is usually stagnating at temperatures under +-15 degrees (root/soil temperature). The older they get the better they can handle low temps though so you might be perfectly fine depending on how old they were when you bought them. You seem to have a really nice and spacious yard btw .

When I was writing that earlier post I was in the metro on my way to Rotterdam, a friend had asked my GF to watch her house and feed her cats while she was out of the country for a few days. She lives in a highrise in the center of Rotterdam so that was quite the treat.



Went out for some midday Vietnamese (a salad for him and a soup for her)


Tomato's growing fast as hell, there were 2 to 3 days between these photographs;
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My yard's actually pretty small. It's nicely landscaped with 2 levels, but even it if were just one level, it would be pretty small for kids to run around in.

How deep are the pots that your tomatoes will end up in?

That picture really looks like it could have at least double that size on the right and left side . I love multi level yards, wish I had enough space to make one myself...

Im currently 'hardening' my plants which means preparing them for the move to the outside by exposing them to lower temperatures bit by bit. After that Im taking them out of the pots and will be planting them in my yard, right about here;


The only thing Im slightly worried about is whether they are not too close to each other (they are) and how it will affect them but shouldn't be too much of an issue hopefully.

I've seen my life crumble down yesterday afternoon, I killed my phone. I ran into a pole at some train station and it got completely bend out of shape/shattered screen. Showing no sign of life. I felt sincerely ****ty when I saw what happened and at the same time I felt silly for feeling so shot about breaking my phone.

Everything is fine until you walk into that one thing. If I just did x or y a little different that day I probably wouldn't have done that but now I did and its all too late. I was kind of dwelling on that for a bit which really didn't make it any better. Just really surprised at how ****ty I felt and it really impressed me.

My phone is insured so I went to the shop today and got a lender for max 2 weeks, super ****ty and no fb/2+2/whatsapp/work apps, just calling and texting. It has a browser tbh but cba using that. It might be a bit freeing.