i didn't even log my last 2 sessions because it's ****ing pointless, i'm done. this is stupid, motorcycles are stupid. they're dangerous. so now i can never buy a motorcycle because now it'll cost me more than twice as much as it would cost a normal person, all because i jinxed myself but MORE LIKELY because somebody read about it who wasn't supposed to. but **** it, i'm over it. the roads are ****in ****ty here for a motorcycle plus it's just a stupid purchase, and i'd have to get like insurance, now it's a.. no, no, i'm gonna toss this whole experiment up to the universe, take the experience and embrace it fully, just let the shooting glass cut into my face and arms while the mercury flows over me, into my eyes nose and mouth and i become molten metal mario, extra tough, basically invincible mario, like a terminator-destroying future robot come to ruin everybody's day through masterful holdem playing,
without setting specific short term goals.
and i can just pretend i got it and crashed it and realized how precious life is and vowed to never ride a motorcycle again. that's a good lesson.