The idea is for this thread to be a kind of a journal/diary, I had tried to journal before but I ended up pushing it to the side, which probably is what is going to happen again, but let's enjoy it while it lasts.

I'm almost entering my 30s and I'm at a point in my life where, I look back and wonder about the things that I could have done differently, but also I don't regret the choices that I made, because they made the person that I'm today.

But there's i question that I found online I think it's by Charles Bukowski and goes like "Can you remember who you were before the world told you who you should be?"
and recently I've been wondering on this. Funny enough I had a talk with my parents about when I was a little kid, and we were talking about how I didn't care about anything else but toys and playing video games, I remember being so immersed in my world, it was like I was living in two worlds at the same time.

Fast forward a couple of years I got into science and I loved to learn about how things work, my TV was always on the Discovery channel. I was so ecstatic when they told me that I was getting my first Chemistry and Physics class at school, but then the classes were boring nothing as I had imagined. I had thought that we'll be doing so much more experiments instead we were just memorizing a much of formulas and we didn't know why we need them in the first place.

Just in my mid-20s, I realize that you don't need school to educate yourself, you have the internet and now more than ever we have access to books and lectures from all over the world, and from people that love to teach that's an important part.

I like to learn about a fast array of topics and I feel that's my life purpose

PS. The title for this blog is from Marcus Aurelius's book, it was the first thing that come up to my mind, and I think it couldn't be a better suitable name.

Yesterday when I was getting home with a friend, we saw a dead cat in the middle of the street, she wanted to remove him, so I stopped the car and we got close to him.
We asked a man who lives close to that road if he could give us a bag, since we had none, and proceeded to pick him up and put him in the bag.

That made me wonder about some things:

1- These things happen even with people, and in this case, it was in a middle of a curve so most probably it was an accident, but why hit and run? Because it's the easiest way out you can act like it never happened, weak people do that. You have a responsibility to attend to the consequences of your actions, may they be deliberate or not. This makes it even sicker when it happens with people, what kind of person do you have to be?


2- Death is something that is always present in our lives, but in my perspective, it's sad when it happens in helpless situations like being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Something that reassures me when I think about death is that I see death like those nights we fell asleep and hadn't had any dreams, we just woke up the next morning. We don't exist when death is present and death doesn't exist when we are present.

"Death smiles at us all, all a man can do is smile back" - Marcus Aurelius

Today I saw the news about an artist that started to insult a politician in one of his concerts, and one of his excuses was "freedom of speech".

That wasn't freedom of speech, it was verbal aggression.

Too many people think that can say whatever they want and have no consequences, everything that you do has consequences good or bad.

Freedom of speech is the freedom to share your ideas and thoughts without being put in prison for it or even being killed and is the freedom to disagree with another person, but somewhere along the way people thought that it was okay to say whatever comes to mind and without any type of filter. So they expect to be respected but they never show respect to the other person. To me seems that only one person has freedom, quite contrary to what they defend.

Not to mention that most mainstream artists say whatever the public wants to hear just to keep the sales rolling.

The next time that you have thoughts of doubt about yourself realize that those thoughts aren't yours.

You can't control what comes to your mind, if I say to you, imagine a red elephant. I'm almost sure that you imagined a red elephant, but you didn't have that idea, I did.
The same applies to negative talks that come to our minds, they're the seeds of other people, and if you give enough attention to those seeds you'll end up with a mind full of weeds.

Treat your mind like a garden, because you become what you give your attention to

Let us enjoy while we're living, for the moments that we cherish the most it's the only thing that we take with us, and with that, we take a piece of everyone we shared those moments with.

We are never truly alone, and never truly gone for we live inside everyone we most care about, as they live inside us.

Thank you for sharing this. I look forward to reading more of your thoughts.

I'm glad to read that, thank you for your time

Relationships are a curious thing, you can love a person to death and despite that, the same person can evoke deep in you some of the worst feelings.

There're some things that your partner should never know, and I'm not talking about cheating, I'm talking about the thoughts that come to your mind when you're in the middle of an argument.

Anger truly is blind, you can't see reason, the only thing that you can see is the injustice done to you, and how the other person is a terrible human being for committing that crime.

At least we never committed that crime, did we?

Words spoken by the right person can hurt more than broken bones, the unfortunate difference is that bones heal, and something that has been said can't be unheard.

The best thing to do when you are angry is nothing at all.

“Anger and the sorrow it produces are far more harmful than the things which make us angry.” — Marcus Aurelius