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Originally Posted by next
to reiterate:I have a plan, basically to continue as before, just to keep going with what was working. The thing is that I'm just not comfortable with being broke, so I am just going to try to set myself apart and do what I need to do and give it a shot.
It's going to be tough, but realistically it's quite a competitive world out there, and I have my work cut out for me. I think my strategy is ok... just got to be consistent, work really hard, get comfortable, breath, don't forget sleep and rest, and I think I will be in the right direction in 6 -12 months. Let's go go go!!
I have been constantly preoccupied with my commitment to the program and financial issues. It's basically eaten away my entire month of june. I think it's ok, as long as I come out with the correct decision. I believe I do have the correct decision. Here's how I came up with it. I remembered back to when I was an undergraduate and I was doing a senior research project in astrophysics. I didn't do any work all year even though this was a yearlong credit course. In the last two weeks I wrote my thesis, a very stressful experience, it was a terrible quality, hastily written paper, and I'm surprised they passed it (in fact it would have been better for me if they rejected it). I had been playing online poker all year, and not doing my work. I don't want to relive this scenario. Money is important, but in this particular case what matters right now is that I maintain my personal integrity*. I am very easily distractable, but I refuse to allow myself to be distracted from the goal
this time. This will involve some sacrifice of time, but it seems like a correct sacrifice. Time to get to work!!
* it's not really clear to me how I would make extra money in any case other than working at McDonalds or something like that. The amount of time I would lose doing that would be much better spent towards quickly getting my Phd and then getting a higher paying job after that. So really it seems like all this deliberation was a waste of time. I choose to stop deliberating over nonsense and start working!!