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Originally Posted by mendicant loafer
Omission. Seductively effective wall. Sit down with your woman and rip that one to shreds.
I will get to this in my next post. Let's just say it didn't yield the results most would expect.
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Originally Posted by scottp4braves
Subbed, really enjoying your writing, thanks so much for sharing
Thanks scott! Lifelong Braves fan here, looking forward to the upcoming season, beginning of an era my friend!
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Originally Posted by biggerboat
Great answer/read max. Thanks.
I hope you continue to post about your therapy.
One more question if you don't mind. Maybe not so much a question but a comment. I'm interested in your response though.
I've been around 2p2 for a while and it sure seems like a significant number of poker players suffer from depression. I could be wrong about this, but that's not my question anyways. I really wonder why they keep playing poker. To me that seems like the worst thing you could do if you are fighting depression. Any thoughts on how playing affects you? I think you've sort of addressed it but maybe you can expand on it?
I may post little tidbits here and there about my therapy, I don't know yet, we'll see what happens.
I have to agree that a certain breed of people are attracted to life as a professional poker player. I would venture to say about 30% of the players I have met suffer from a chronic mental illness (depression, alcohol/drug abuse). Yes, I view alcohol/drug abuse as a chronic illness. Even if someone is sober, their drug of choice is always in the back of their mind, poking at their subconscious. I'd say another 30% have a serious gambling addiction and an additional 20% have financial management issues. In general what attracts people to poker is the freedom of it. Most have convinced themselves that they wouldn't be happy doing anything else and I am one of those. I have had normal jobs, done the college thing, tried to be what society would deem a "normal citizen." It just doesn't work. One day it may, but not anytime soon.
Poker makes me happy, when I am on the tables I may as well be in a different dimension. Most of my negative thoughts, depressive feelings and anxiety about my life is put on hold. I used to be a serious theatrical actor from high school until I joined the service and the feeling of being up onstage is the same I get at the tables. A feeling of being "in the zone", where nothing else matters. It is a beautiful thing. Success and failure are very quick to show themselves at the poker table, there is no waiting for results, that expedition of reality is very gratifying.
Is poker bad for people who are depressed? It can be, anything can be bad for depression. A mundane 9-5 behind a desk can wreak havoc on someone's emotional state. If used properly, poker can become a very positive outlet for someone with emotional problems. It can also give you the freedom to pursue hobbies and things outside of poker that can make you happy.
So, does playing affect me in a negative way? Sure,sometimes, but not like it used to. I don't think about bad beats or money lost for near as long as I used to. I don't beat myself up for weeks over a missed value bet or bad beat. I may give myself hell for a day or so, but I have learned to move on.
Why do I keep playing? My passion for the game drives me, the freedom it provides me in my life keeps me around, the psychological aspect as well as the physiological. Chemicals are released in your brain when you gamble, making you high, that is a proven. Those chemicals have a positive effect on my daily life. Am I a gambling addict? Maybe. I have become significantly better at controlling impulses, you won't see me dumping my winnings at a Blackjack table anymore. Self-control is something that every poker player needs to improve on, I have come a long ways but still have very far to go.
Hope I answered your question Boat, this was like a stream of consciousness, I just started hammering away