I think I've just got a muse
I have a conspiracy fear
that Google has collected so much data on me that it has memorized my fetishes and delivers them in bulk even when I don't intend to search for them. I'm not sure if Google's AI is yet bold enough to analyze the speech in every YT video, esp those that don't even have automatically generated English subs.
Ironically, among her other quirks, the girl is fond of conspiracy theories, even though I'm not.
What was weird about watching her YT Q&A is that I didn't get anxious like I did when encountering my past real-life muses. I just understood somewhat rationally that she's my first 10/10 ever (
i.e. in the top 0.004% of girls by attractiveness, or 1 out of 25K). Maybe it's just my brain on coffee, and I'll reevaluate tomorrow, particularly because she did mention some traits of hers that I'd normally hate but didn't hate this time.
Also, a couple of times when I was trying to guess how she'd finish a sentence, I almost guessed the exact wording. Maybe that would occur if I played the game with any other YT narrative, though, but somehow it seemed as though I'd achieved a better rapport with her than with the general population.
One time, she brought up one of my fetishes randomly in the story even though she didn't have to and I think people normally don't mention it in Q&As. That said, she mentioned a lot of other random things that people normally don't.
I wouldn't post this if I didn't strongly suspect her of being a closeted asexual.
Anyway, the chance of us ever living together is very low because I'm too lazy to become eligible for immigration into her country. She might be into non-exclusive long-distance partnership, though.
Maybe my heavily caffeinated mind is exaggerating. I have a strange desire to be involved in some kind of a love drama like other 2+2 weirdos (N1H, MLYLT) for the sake of notoriety, even though I know it would be -EV for me.