Yes really no friends. I sued the only friend group I had out of existence in my life cause they kept really doing me very wrong. Now I have no friends.

Bryyyyyce!!! I've thought about texting you so many damned times over the years. I've always kept your number

I'm worried that you "sued your friends out of existence" ? Why don't you just get new friends?

It's exceptionally hard for me to meet people. I kinda don't know how to do that. I might be autistic or something.

Well, small town oklahoma isn't the best, but why don't you just like... meet people, you know?
I think you like people who don't like you and don't care about the kinds of people who would.

I tried to meet this one person I delivered food to through doordash. She lived at an apartment, and we talked for a couple minutes when I met her to give her the food. I thought she liked me .... so doordash is dumb, the app is really dumb, it sometimes will allow you to text the customers you accept orders for, well after the delivery is completed. ...

So I completed the delivery, and then hours went by and I got home and was thinking about her, and texted her my number. It did not go well. It did not go well at all :/

Oh! I had a date last year! I went to see Cat Power with a girl I went to high school with. It went pretty damn well, until the end when I completely blew it

How did you blow it?

We had been talking online for about a month and then on the phone for a week or two, and we went to the concert together and were really kind of hitting it off.

At the end of the night we were discussing things like sex, and she told me what she liked, and she said she doesn't "shun yum." I was like wat????? She said she didn't kink shame .... and then she shunned my yum

what is your kink that she shunned?

She reacted not super great, but she said she thinks I'm just a lonely guy. But she made me feel ashamed and humiliated, and I reacted very poorly and over the course of the next week or two I just completely fell apart and blew it by really over sharing and really getting yum shunned.

I'll text you!

As a friend, I find that to be disturbing and would say you definitely should get some mental help. It's not normal to not have any friends, OR a therapist, OR have a job. I have all 3 of those things and go to college. You need to get one of those three like this week.

I have passive income and work on doordash and uber eats and amazon flex on the side.

What is your diet like? I know I used to drink too much. I didnt really think much about it because I'm from a czech family and I'm not a true alcoholic, like I wasn't getting fired or getting into fights or ending up naked on the streets.
But then I realized I had a real problem when I got arrested for a dui.long story but it got dismissed eventually. And I quit drinking. And I noticed that days became much longer. I magically had sooo much more time. Then with my more time I started eating better. It can make a huge difference. I also noticed that I had been doing things incredibly stupidly, I had been having one night stands with weird guys and not building real relationships. Don't underestimate the power of good diet. Because I don't think you sound good and I think you could be.

does your passive income involve talking to people?

I've checked in on you here from time to time over the years and saw your posts about quitting drinking. That's one of the things I'm very proud of you for! I just didn't want to bring it up first in case it was still a sensitive subject or still a trouble for you.

No I don't have to talk to people regarding the majority of my income. I do for the side hustle gig apps tho.

My diet is bad!

How did you begin to develop real relationships with people?

It's not a sensitive issue because it was never a glaring and obvious problem in real life. I like to have fun and I was having fun.
The thing is, it was a problem . I was drinking too much. Not like crazy alcoholic i'm gonna die too much. But too much for me. I got arrested for a dui and although the case got dismissed the incident made me realize I spend too much time partying and drinking and also too much time drinking when I was partying. It was a problem. And once I realized that I cut back dramatically. I basically quit- i'm not like an genuine alcoholic so I can cut back instead of quit. I sometimes enjoy a non alcoholic beer something in the past I would've made fun of someone for, also not recommended for real alcoholics as non alcoholic beer has 0.5 % alcohol.

So this wasn't a huge huge earth shattering change but it was a real one and it changed my life and the way I view things hugely. You should eat some watercress, it's recently been declared the worlds healthiest food.

I've always had real relationships with people. What I meant was I didn't have a real boyfriend.

I just don't buy this is a serious question from you.

What are your pronouns, LirvA?

No offense is intended by the question and ofc you don't have to answer (duh). Am asking bc of the pronouns in the replies directed to you, and didn't want to misgender you (or anyone) in any reply.

He/him/his/it/that/thing/werewolf/crazy

I'm pretty sure I have a she/her/hers in there somewhere though and she comes out sometimes.

idk what to say Bryce


I'd honestly just have to say watch Taxi Driver and Mr. Robot. I'm a lot like Travis Bickle and Elliot Alderson.