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Originally Posted by daChimp
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On February 25, at 2am my older sister Jasmine was hit by a speeding driver who ran a red light, stuck the passenger side of the car which sent it into a tree and a pole. They were dead on the scene, my sister 25 years old, and her friend 26.
Today is her birthday. I love you Jasmine, and I know you'll always watch over me.
https://www.google.com/amp/baltimore...-co-crash/amp/
The week prior to this I had found out my grandmother has lung cancer, after having to work with my dad to get my little sisters away from my mom so they can have a better life, because my mom chose her abuser over my sisters, I had no choice but to put them in the system.
By the grace of God, I have been able to stay sober through these last 2 years, as July 29th 2017 will be 2 years free of alcoholism.
I went to a therapist for 8 weeks, once a week. He kept trying to put me on antipsychotics but by the last session it was determined that my only psychological deficiency is that I have been through a lot of stuff that has traumatized me.
PTSD and Social Anxiety disorder. These things I've learned can be healed, and I am healing every day.
The day after my sister passed I had my last night terror for these 2 months past. I dreamt of an Orange sunset over a black backdrop staring across the harbor while smoking a blunt with my Aunt, the one we grew up with.
I moved out to California with a friend in March, he was going through his own struggle with alcoholism while I was grieving the loss of my sister, this created a world of misery that I was able to get myself out of by remaining faithful to my higher powers purpose in my life.
I did get my medicinal marijuana card after also attending several doctors appointments that only were leading to a bunch of negative test results and more specialists. The doctor thinks it might be joint hypermobility syndrome, but I have to see a neurologist and rheumatologist. I figure that perhaps before I let Big Pharma sink their claws into my brain via prescription medication, I'm trying the CBD/THC therapy.
I've got to tell you guys, I was never that big a fan of weed. Sure, I smoked it.. got banned from Venetian for a joint, but I had never thought it could help me the way it has. I've been able to get my body to build stamina because of the pain relief from my peripheral neuropathy, and the calming of my anxiety.
This has allowed me to learn how to stop my panic attacks without medication, as well as to be able to function Day to day with overall better health. Emotional/and physical.
I still consider myself sober, but if I was on the benzos and neurotin they want me on, I'd be a drugged up zombie.
I am with an amazing guy named Iggy. He's a little younger than me, and for once it is with someone who can read me like a book without me having to say anything.
I am planning another move back to Vegas for this week
Heading out there with some friends and a load of sobriety and mindset love this time for the series. I'll probably gonna stick around after for once too. ❤️