So I've prayed about my anger and resentment.
I may have been caused immeasurable amounts of pain, and may feel jaded because there is seemingly no justice served. Yet, I've come to understand that in a way there has been.
I have been given the opportunity to make a better life for myself.
Over the years I have had a lot of pain, have suffered indignities and self delusion. I have felt the need to run from all fear, and had come to fear most everything. For the first time in my life, I don't feel the need to suffer anymore. I know I don't deserve the life I have been given, nor the chance to change that, but I have it all the same.
There is something to be said about fairness, and that is that our understanding of it is finite.
What we perceive as fair and just is only what we have come to believe as fair, so not necessarily true fairness. That is not our ruling to make.
It is so frustrating when things don't go my way, and this frustration breeds numerous resentments. These resentments only ever cause suffering of self and, furthermore, it will make no difference in the lives of those who have caused me harm.
I believe that I am on the way to having more than I ever thought possible, and for that reason I must move on from anger.