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Old 08-21-2018, 02:16 AM   #3951
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Dids would have some boomerangs. Get revenge on the guy who ****ed up his uncle norm
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Old 09-07-2018, 09:10 PM   #3952
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I think i’m in a fairly severe funk, my therapist is concerned. If i dont update a lot its really cuz idk what to say. I’m in a bad spot mentally and physically by just about every imaginable metric.

Think i’m doing good at work, but could be better.
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Old 09-07-2018, 10:13 PM   #3953
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well, not "good"
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Old 09-08-2018, 09:44 AM   #3954
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Ach JM...

Obviously stress doesn't make things better. Can you distance yourself inwardly from what is going on in your job? It is not a cool state but better than a burn-out. Something like: you are trying really hard for 8 hours, but the second after the job leaves your head and you leave the job.
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Old 09-08-2018, 10:09 AM   #3955
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My job is just a symptom not the real problem. I think of all areas of my life right now I am doing best in my job, because I am focusing on it.

The stress/anxiety/depression is just a root issue. I’d be stressed or depressed about anything I decide to devote my effort to, I know it now.

I thought when school was over it would end but it didnt. My therapist thought so too, a little bit actually. She thought school was a really unhealthy environment for my personality.

She encouraged me this week to try to have fun with my job and desperately implored me to stop drinking and to find things outside the house to do. I haven’t had sex in over two months And i got invited to some party tonight by a girl who i know has been interested so i’ll probably go, but that involves alcohol and sex, which i dont think i should be doing much of. It does involve forced social interaction with people ive never met so of course i will drink too much, its the only way i can be sociable.

I think sex might give me a confidence boost though, i feel very fat and unconfident and unwanted and I never do well when I’m in that state. When I feel like this I will overdrink and over eat and just think who cares? No one wants to be around me anyway.
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Old 09-08-2018, 11:22 AM   #3956
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JM,

You are a lot more self aware than I was at your age. That is a HUGE advantage. I believe that you see a lot of things exactly right, like that you will get stress/problems in every area you try to really do your best. It is somehow connected in the brain. For me it is the same way.

My solution was at some point to consciously decide: I don't want to do best in my job, I don't want to make a ton of money. I want to be when not happy then at least not depressed, not suicidal, not desperate. I need for that: good sleep and good food, regular not too obsessive work outs, not too little and not too much social interaction, some attention from male part of humanity, regular sex, some money. For money and some social recognition I need to do only good enough at my job. My life got better with this attitude.

And about you being fat....

I mean ... you know that i think that you are so not fat. You are good looking, smart, interesting and self aware. A lot of girls are thinking that you are totally a catch.

And on forced social interaction: don't do that. I don't know .... one big step for me was to learn to say nothing if I have nothing to say. And another big step was to learn to leave the party if I get the feeling that i am deathly bored. It made me more willing to go to a lot of parties at all. I mean... you have to be able to go through certain social rituals. It is a necessary tool to become happy. But you sooo don't have to participate in anything you don't really want.

On alc...

Have you tried to emulate your drunk behaviour in a sober state? That did many many years ago the trick for me. I understood that I can be as silly and as straight forward with men sober as I was drunk. Was big deal for me.


Good luck and at least some fun tonight!
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Old 09-08-2018, 01:18 PM   #3957
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She... desperately implored me to stop drinking
So, why not give it a real try? At this point based upon everything youíve said, what do you have to lose?
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Old 09-08-2018, 01:21 PM   #3958
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Newport Beach is probably the least forgiving place in the world to have like 10 or 15 pounds beyond being ripped. Make some friends more than 5 miles from the beach and you'll stop thinking you're fat.
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Old 09-12-2018, 11:10 AM   #3959
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I haven’t drank since saturday

Saturday sucked, I blew it with three girls in the course of like 4 hours. And they were virtually slam dunks. I’m not just saying that either.

And i broke my toe. Golf clubs come tomorrow though. Not drinking during the week is pretty easy, the weekend will be tougher.
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Old 09-14-2018, 02:06 PM   #3960
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well...that last post kinda steals my thunder, bc now I canít find a reason to post the picture that made me think of you without admitting that I was about to start doing some day drinking Jmakinmeangry's debauchery and general idiocy blog

anyway, this made me think of you. and nah, didnít buy it. lol

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Old 09-14-2018, 03:43 PM   #3961
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Sobrietys been broken, me and my coworkers did shots at 10:30 at work for some reason
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Old 09-14-2018, 03:53 PM   #3962
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Sore throat?
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Old 09-14-2018, 04:03 PM   #3963
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It was with my coworkers
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Old 09-14-2018, 04:27 PM   #3964
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It would be rude to decline
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Old 09-14-2018, 06:27 PM   #3965
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No I’m not making that excuse, I’m just saying I didn’t do shots alone for the sake of it. Things have been a little tense at work as well so I’m glad it happened.
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