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Old 10-02-2017, 09:59 AM   #2876
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We all have to learn this lesson the hard way at least once tho.
This. My first BF was male equivalent to BPD chicks. And I was young and dumb. Significantly dumber than HT. I remember few times I sacrificed my sleep in such situations to be "supportive". It took time to learn that it is not supportive but just crazy to play along in that. Tx god I learned and my experience with BPD-crazy is limited to the one.

JM I also wonder if it is worth it for you? I mean everyone is different and may be for you it is worth it.

And I also wondered when you wrote something like "it is first time that I feel alive in two years" if that is true? You have posted somewhere picture of you playing this hearthstone. You have GREAT smile there. Judging by this picture you felt alive and had fun in this moment.
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Old 10-02-2017, 11:13 AM   #2877
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I don't claim any particular wisdom with this anecdote. I was just damn tired and not in any mood to deal with a raft of crap.

Nor did I intend to suggest, j, that you didn't foresee this. I was just reminded of an amusing event by your post and decided to reply.
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Old 10-02-2017, 12:34 PM   #2878
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Was it worth it? O/U on how long until you have sex with her again?
yes, 2 days probably
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Old 10-02-2017, 03:38 PM   #2879
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Well if you can manage to not fall in love with her, and be amused by her tantrums, it seems like an okay arrangement unless she starts trying to ruin your life of kill you.
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Old 10-02-2017, 03:50 PM   #2880
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Yeah but who doesn't fall in love with girls who try to ruin their lives or kill them?
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Old 10-02-2017, 06:02 PM   #2881
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She legit pisses me off. She's spoiled and always angry. Kate was moody AF, but she never took it out on me (that I can remember). This girl is just mean, through and through. It used to not be directed at me til the last few days. She's pissed at something I did - Or didn't do - and it's never reasonable and it's always, always my fault.

Right now she's in "alright ill leave you alone forever" mode, then texts me an hour later. This has happened about 5 times already today. It's no longer amusing, but I do like having sex with her.

She is perceptive though. If she feels at any point I'm just sticking around for sex she'll disappear quick or get mean. I dont think i really want to go through the motions just to get some sex; i feel much more attractive lately and think i can find something better.
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Old 10-03-2017, 11:33 AM   #2882
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This. My first BF was male equivalent to BPD chicks. And I was young and dumb. Significantly dumber than HT. I remember few times I sacrificed my sleep in such situations to be "supportive". It took time to learn that it is not supportive but just crazy to play along in that. Tx god I learned and my experience with BPD-crazy is limited to the one.

JM I also wonder if it is worth it for you? I mean everyone is different and may be for you it is worth it.

And I also wondered when you wrote something like "it is first time that I feel alive in two years" if that is true? You have posted somewhere picture of you playing this hearthstone. You have GREAT smile there. Judging by this picture you felt alive and had fun in this moment.
I missed this post somehow. Yea hearthstone brings me a lot of joy but also a lot of frustration and angst. I'm not sure it's super healthy how deep into the game i've gotten.

I basically went from barely being able to hit legend rank, to playing at the highest levels against pros that I really look up to. All in a period of about 4-5 months. Not only that I've been winning against these pros quite often. It's been surreal. Last month I finished 248th in NA, which wasn't quite the top 200 I was going for but still very respectable. I can feel myself getting better every day and it's a cool feeling but I'm not sure it's something that has a future or if I should keep trying to improve. The pro circuit resets in December after the championship in BlizzCon, and after that I need to decide if I want to grind really hard next year and try to qualify for a big tournament. If i am still playing at this level by next year and enjoying the game like I have been, I may go for it.

At this point I still have some leaks in my game but I am almost positive that I can become a top player if I keep working at it. I guess it does make me feel alive on some level.
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Old 10-16-2017, 07:10 AM   #2883
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Hope everything is going well and not too much drama in your life
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Old 10-17-2017, 12:29 AM   #2884
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I've been meaning to post, just been putting it off.

I broke things off with BPD last weekend. I had been waiting for her to go off on me for something completely inane and stupid like always and I got the perfect chance. I went outside for a cigarette, and she said she wanted to come out with me. I said sure, i'll be right outside. She had to put on pants so i thought she'd be right behind me.

A few minutes go past and I lit up. Nothing. Oh boy, what did i do now? I go back inside and she is absolutely livid. Says I didn't wait for her, goes on about how selfish I am (keep in mind I'm the guy that wakes up early every morning to get her coffee and a bagel, pay for all her food, and drive her around). I'm like yea, ok, whatever. She storms off and leaves.

I decide to go play poker with some friends. Not even 20 minutes after she stormed out she starts calling my phone off the hook. I told her talking on the phone gives me anxiety, and I didn't feel like talking. Keeps ringing til i finally pick up.

I dont remember the details of what she wanted but basically I said I deserved to be treated better, and that I thought we weren't compatible and i didn't want to hang out anymore, that I was out with friends and to please let me be.

Nope. Had to turn the phone off that night. I didt get to bed til 4, and was woken at 5 by the phone ringing off the hook again. When i woke up at 9 i had over 50 missed calls.

That whole weekend was a mess, with her threatening suicide and me considering whether to call the police, but her threats were very vague and I didn't take them very seriously. I put a lot of thought and effort into it, asking whether she was suicidal multiple times, no answer. I encouraged her to go to the hospital multiple times. Just more of that til I finally told her I couldnt do it anymore and again said please get help.

That week also I had my car broken into and all my **** stolen, including my captain's license. My dad's anniversary was that week. School's stressing me out. It was a really awful few days but I feel a little better now.
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Old 10-17-2017, 07:18 AM   #2885
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In the hospital ER right now with horrific upper abdomen pain, kind of in my chest. Obviously not my heart or lungs, i heard the word gallbladder a few times and honestly that makes the most sense.

I just want to find out what's wrong so this can never happen again. I started smoking again because the GI doc said nothing's wrong with my stomach and i dont have acid reflux. This isnt normal though, its been two hours and they gave me liquid lidocaine and that only made it bearable enough to take my hands off my chest to make this post.

**** everything sucks lately. I got off work at midnight, fell asleep and was promptly woken by this pain. Havent slept in almost 24 hours. I just want to go home and sleep this off but they wont let me now
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Old 10-17-2017, 07:52 AM   #2886
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Gallbladder can be hugely painful from what I hear. Have they discussed taking it out with you?
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Old 10-17-2017, 08:26 AM   #2887
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These ****ing idiots arent listening to me. The doctor thinks its acid reflux. I told him i got ****ing tested for acid reflux all ****ing summer and everything came back normal.

It absolutely cannot be acid reflux. I was poked prodded and had **** stuck inside me for the last 3 months.

My stomach doctor takes months to see. I'm not going back to him, he's a ****ing ****. My therapist said she would find someone for me on my plan, i'm going to ask her again.

The only common link i can find with this pain is smoking and eating kinda crappy. But i mean, not that crappy - yesterday i wasnt very hungry and all i had was a bagel for breakfast and an italian sub for dinner. I did smoke an entire pack of cigarettes though. Smoking and eating crappy can lead to gallbladder issues. I'm going to stop smoking again.


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Old 10-17-2017, 08:28 AM   #2888
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I guess all the ER doc is really concerned with is making sure I'm not going to die rather than diagnosing but good **** this is irritating. This whole system is irritating. How the **** can these people not know what theyre doing?


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Old 10-17-2017, 09:28 AM   #2889
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Yikes, sorry to hear it. Too high to be a kidney stone? Those damn things are ****ing painful. Could the crazy gal have poisoned you?
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Old 10-17-2017, 11:23 AM   #2890
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Autsch! Get well soon!
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Old 10-17-2017, 02:14 PM   #2891
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I think it might have to be acid after looking at the results of my blood test, they gave me a copy. If it was my gallbladder id have elevated bilirubin levels and i dont. The doctor said my blood test looked perfect. My blood pressure was extremely high when I was in there, but it went down finally when the pain subsided.

Guess i have to stop smoking again. Last night was ****ing awful. I havent even been drinking so that can't be the culprit. It sucks, because I really enjoy cigarettes
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Old 10-17-2017, 02:36 PM   #2892
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Being in severe pain sucks more.

Glad that nothing horribly wrong was found. Hope that it stays this way.
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Old 10-17-2017, 07:49 PM   #2893
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J,

Good to hear you're feeling better. Sucks that you had to go through that, but maybe it was worth it to get to see lapka write "Autsch!"
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Old 10-19-2017, 03:44 AM   #2894
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I'd say that is pretty standard BPD behavior from her except for the part where she broke in your car, stole your captain's license, and poisoned you.

Breaking in the car and stealing the license is still pretty standard, I suppose. The poisoning you is certainly an outlier behavior, tho.


Try lowering your fat intake if you think it's gallbladder related and see what happens. They've likely already ruled out gallbladder stones at this point.


Also, don't die.
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Old 10-19-2017, 05:18 AM   #2895
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She didnt break into my car
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Old 10-19-2017, 11:51 AM   #2896
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She didnt break into my car
Oh, well I guess she's a keeper then.
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Old 10-19-2017, 10:46 PM   #2897
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I went to a career fair at my school today. Caused me considerable anxiety and claustrophobia because it was hot and crowded but I worked up the courage to talk to a recruiter from the department of defense for a research position, who took my resume and encouraged me to go for a full time position.

I was surprised at how interested I was in the position, my resume isnt super amazing or anything but I hope I luck out and at least get a phone call.
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