On Monday I went to a body burn class during lunch. It really kicked my ass. It's squats, bench, curls, skull crushers, push-ups and more with light weights and several rounds. I was sore so skipped Wed. I played Softball on Thursday and hurt my leg again as soon as I ran to first base. It was completely fine when I did the weight/cardio class. I jogged about 1/4mile before the game and stretched as well.
I just really want to get back in the gym, I feel so much better.

Today is the first day of my 9 day vacation...yay! I'm just at the house by myself and I'm going to paint all day, then it's dance camp with my daughter all next week.

Thought there was skepticism of the old man stories. I was buzzed and misread a post methinks.

It's echoing what wiper said. What I've always said. You're good looking and can find a man that can make you happy that you're attracted to.

Thanks Dodger.
I think I have a lot of confidence building and self love to accomplish first. I guess I still feel insecure about being lovable and wanted in regards to guys.
There are also not a lot of good prospects in East Texas. The guys are not my type(hairy, hunting, fishing, trumpers) or they are cute and extremely weird.

Happy Thoughts:
There is no greater feeling than seeing your child happy. This week has been amazing watching my daughter be so excited doing something she loves.

With time to step away and reflect on things, I've come to the realization that I can be extremely nieve. So many things have become clearer over the past few months in regards to everything.

Anyway, currently trying to negotiate a raise at work and I've come to the conclusion that my boss is just an idiot and not really out to get me or stop from making more money. She is just scared to death of loosing her own job and is overwhelmed because she doesn't know what the hell is going on.

As most know, Boss^2 was canned but when my partner quit he took his place. Apparently his severence (if there ever was one) was less than he would make in my partners position while he job hunted. This is his last week and his position won't be filled, if at all, for another year. I asked for a raise 3 weeks ago from my boss and spoke to her again about it today. I of course made the arrangement that my workload would double, I've taken over managing some projects, and all the cost savings projects I've done. Her response was that she went and talked with her about it and they only give raises once a year. I told her that's bs and I would like her to speak with someone else. She has no power to make any decisions and she is to scared to question anything. Companies give raises to retain people and they will be screwed for a while without me.
I've put in for 3 other jobs. I'm not actively looking, but if I see a job I like I am putting in for it and will for sure accept a good offer.... anything at least 10% more than I make now with equivalent benefits.

My mental health is doing great at the moment a d I really feel like I've gained some brain power back. Things are looking up.

That's great that your mental health has improved. I take it you're back in therapy?

You should expand your criteria for a new job. A raise in salary shouldn't matter as much as getting away from a boss who is hamstringing you while piling on more work, regardless of whether she's doing it on purpose.

It's not giving a **** about the little things and having purpose giving my daughter the best childhood possible therapy. It's working.

As far as work, I don't really mind the extra work stuff and actually like it and like having more responsibility. I was just using it as an argument for more money.
There has definitely been a lot of changes for me to be happier here. The new plant manager has been working with my boss and she has done a complete 180...she has really improved in the bossing area and started doing more. I took over these set of projects and said I wanted to manage them and the plant manager put me officially in charge. I definitely enjoying being here more, I just don't know how to manage getting a raise when my boss is too scared to advocate one for me. I would be completely happy with my job now with more pay.

Glad to hear you're back in therapy.

Lol’d at having purpose. I dont know if you follow n1’s log but it’s a meme there. Gl with therapy.

Wait, I just reread this sentence a few times and it seems like you’re actually saying you’re NOT in therapy - smh.

stick to your own thread cock hungry b1tch

Project much?

So my boss and I had a long apology conversation today where we both apologized for being bitches to each other in the past .
At one point she called me a milinial and said there is a generational gap between the two of us and that milinials don't like to be micromanaged lol. I was born in '84

What happened is she basically just started doing her job and leaving me the hell alone. It was annoying transferring things over to her at first because she kept ****ing things up, didn't know how to use any of our systems, and had less of a clue of what was going on in the plant than I originally thought. Instead of just asking me for an overall status update on everything and how I got information for all the reports I generated for her she started emailing people asking questions about things done months ago, ****ing up my spreadsheets and causing mass confusion. It's all worked out now and she is handling things (all the stuff that the managers in her position are doing at all of our other locations).

So now my workday is doing my standard job and some projects I've taken on without her calling me every 5mins asking me to do stuff for her. It's pretty nice.