Hello, fellow 2+2ers, my name is Javier and I'm from Argentina. I used to play poker in the good old days and made some money from it. Now I'm 30 and my life has no apparent direction: I jump from depression into happiness randomly but most of the time I'm sad; a corrosive nostalgia chases me.
I have no superior education and I'm really struggling to find a job -it's been like this for the last... 10 years- that suits my strengths (foreign languages, I speak 5 at a good level).
I think about ending my life somedays but I know I'd never do it. I live with my parents, who support me and I really appreciate it since they're open enough to understand I have a problem of some sort.
I feel, like many others, I have a lot of potential, but so far I never lived up to it.
I choose to blindly believe I'm gonna get my life on track someday and I'll be able to exploit my abilities and be happy, but right now life's between 4To and 9Js (with 10 BB's).
My hobbies are: sports (soccer and tennis), science, philosophy, foreign languages and music.

I'm gonna leave a masterpiece by Liszt and also say I'm open to advice; I truly want to change my life.

https://youtu.be/KpOtuoHL45Y

That's a tough spot to be in. Meditation is always a good practice to reduce the stress you are in. Are you near a place that has a lot of tourists? Maybe you could be a tour guide or drive a taxi? Can you teach a foreign language? Find a support group. You'll come up with something. Good luck.

You do not need to do anything drastic or get a 9-5 job if you are going to hate it.

How about freelance for one of the translation services? If a couple of your languages are pretty good, you can make $200 or so a week working 10 hours or so. That way you are not dependent on your parents and have some spare money to travel, meet women, play some interesting poker tournaments, play tennis etc...

Alternatively if your tennis game is pretty good, perhaps you could give private tennis lessons to kids?

Thanks for taking the time to post. I'd love to work as a translator but finding clients is a difficult task. I created a profile on a well-known platform for freelancers but so far nothing came to fruition. I've thought about teaching tennis but I don't know how could I even start; I'm not bad but I'm an amateur. Teaching languages is an interesting possibility given the exchange we have here 360ARS - 1 USD, so I could give really cheap lessons and still earn more than people working with locals.
It's as if I were overwhelmed.
I didn't say it but I'm really sociable and interacting with others has never been a problem, it's just that I'm both depressed and I also have this feeling that no good will come no matter how much I try.
I could do many things, like translating or teaching but I don't know where to start.
Playing poker again is also a possibility, I played in my local casino a few weeks ago and the level was bad, not as bad as in 2011 but still bad.

People tell me speaking 5 languages I should have a really good job already, but normally I don't even have the energy to take a bus. Meditation is good, but it's so difficult to do it correctly. I feel lost.

I speak 25 languages and I am worshiped as a God all over the world and people pray to my statues that are placed in every major city on the planet.

To the surprise of no one your post is both: callous and predictable.

PD: You didn't put Jaco Pastorius in your list of "great jazz musicians"... Disappointing, yet predictable again.

Hi,
Man, I'm still a beginner to the world of gambling, as I think that you are searching for something in it. It is good to start your own blog. I had a hard time with some casinos, even though they are certified, lost some money and my journey ended very fast. So my mission now is to write more and more about gambling and search for information.
My website is still small as there is not so much time to do the right thing but I'm very optimistic about it. As I want to be a "guardian" of gambling I would advise to search for some passion in ur life Maybe it will not change the world, but make at least some sense to you.

Writing can help ... a journal. One can write themselves to self-understanding and finding meaning.

Find a hobby you somewhat enjoy. Make sure you don't enjoy it too much, just somewhat.

Start doing it. Incorporate as a business. Find a CPA or equivalent you trust.

Get a light revenue stream going.

Take advantage of all the tax breaks avaliable to business

Profit (I mean break even while paying yourself a living wage).

Enjoy your hobby you get paid for. Enjoy the ones you don't more.

Be happy.

Try reading some Dostoevsky