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Originally Posted by BustedTurdCutrr
You seem very bored in life.
As good a jumping off point as any. Yes, I'm pretty ****ing bored and disappointed with life in general. The way I see it, there are three options:
1. Accept things as they are. "You're 40, you don't like your life very much, and maybe at one time you could have done something with it. But if you were going to do something, you would have done it by now. So relax. Try to enjoy yourself as much as you can. You'll never have a girlfriend or a wife, sorry you missed out, but that ship has sailed and there's no need to torture yourself trying to make it happen now. Put in some quality time with the latest video games. You've got money, buy some fancy ****. Drink a lot and get fat and experiment with drugs if you feel like it. Take luxury cruises and visit prostitutes and when you're feeling lonely buy things for attractive young women who will pretend to like you if they're shallow enough to play that game. Do what you can to put a smile on your face while you run out the clock. You'll never remotely meet the standards you used to have for yourself, but we're all going to die someday and nothing will matter then so **** it." This might even be the most reasonable approach, and it's not like I'm standing on some moral highground now. The only difference is that I'm angry at myself for doing nothing with my life, rather than accepting that that's how it's going to be and trying to make the best of it. But nothing in the preceding vision appeals to me at all.
2. Suicide. No I'm not planning to commit suicide (I wouldn't post about it if I was), but it's got to be considered as one of the options. I don't think suicide is immoral. It's my life to live or not live, as I choose, and I don't owe it to anyone to continue living. Nor does anyone owe it to me to continue living if they don't want to. So anyway, yes, this is a real option for me and maybe that's how I'll end it someday. I just haven't reached that point yet, and since there's no taking it back, I'd have to be sure of myself.
3. Self-improvement. I mean, this is completely obvious. There's not much to say about this in the abstract and I feel stupid even writing it out. If I don't find the life I'm living now to be acceptable, and I'm not going to kill myself, then I have to do better. Which is pretty much the same thing I've been telling myself for over a decade. So if I was looking at a similar situation externally, I'd have to bet against that guy ever really getting things together. Doesn't matter though, there's nothing to do but make the attempt.
Lots of generalities there, oh well.