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Old 08-05-2018, 08:54 AM   #2376
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I am currently living in Frankfurt in Germany. It is a bigger city with all corresponding problems including huge number of substance abusers. Many of them pass-out in the public transportation system at the current temperatures here. I saw today one and.... I don't know.... I think it is not good to just walk by..... I stopped and tried to wake him-up. He was completely gone. I tried to call police and ambulance. And here comes big surprise for me! I couldn't reach neither of them! It is a total *I am speechless* moment. Then I tried to alarm one of the train security guys. There are so many of them that you can't walk 20 m without bumping into one of them. The dude started to threaten me, that I will get sued for "leaving another person in danger"! Instead of doing something he went for me! * I am so speechless*

Luckily I am totally doubling-up person also in RL. I told the security dude that a complaint against him at the train company he can consider already filed, if I will report him to the police for criminal extortion and neglect of his duties depends from what will be happening NOW. He started to call help and at least 10 min later some medics were there and the passed-out guy was helped.

But I am soooooo speechless! For what the hell do I pay taxes? I mean neither ambulance no police were on the phone for at least 10 min. And this security dude..... Don't start me again with him.

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Old 08-05-2018, 03:31 PM   #2377
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100% agree your comments about being honest to yourself and to other people. For me being authentic is one of the basic keys to happiness. I figured out for myself that sooner or later being not honest to myself or to someone else it does make me unhappy, even depressed, at some point of time.

And for me this is also one of the key points that say a lot about the "quality" of a relation. I mean all sort of relations like boyfriend/girlfriend, marriage, but also among friends or to siblings or parents. It is a so bonding element if you can show your real self to someone else. And so disfunctional long term if you lie to someone consistently to avoid conflict.

And hehe, thanks including me couple a weeks ago in that list of people that posted something in your blog that you consider meaningful. That means a lot to me.

And yup your pictures looking good. 100% confirmed authentic statement

Get well soon (your arm).
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Old 08-05-2018, 04:16 PM   #2378
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I told the security dude that a complaint against him at the train company he can consider already filed, if I will report him to the police for criminal extortion and neglect of his duties depends from what will be happening NOW.
Lapka, are you familiar with the phrase "ran into a buzzsaw"? That's what happened to your security dude. Good for you!
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Old 08-07-2018, 03:06 PM   #2379
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Am in a little free roll. The payout structure is completely flat. First 10 get each 400 $. Blind structure is very fast. Current level: 1k/2k. I have 80 k stack, 26 players left.

I would say my chances are not bad. But the blinds are really so fast increasing that you are basically always short stacked. On one hand it simplifies many decisions, on the other hand it is somehow meehhh.
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Old 08-07-2018, 03:12 PM   #2380
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19 left
my stack 100 k (no big hands, just blinds stealing here and there)
blinds meanwhile 2,5 k/ 5k

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Old 08-07-2018, 03:15 PM   #2381
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Now I have to do something especially dumb to not get this 400 $. I am the largest stack with only 16 left. The game is called right now "folding into the money".

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Old 08-07-2018, 03:21 PM   #2382
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So proud of me. 99 as a hole cards. Normally totally my shoving range, especially short before the bubble. But here it makes so zero sense to play even AA. I folded.

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Old 08-07-2018, 03:33 PM   #2383
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Nice.... 400 $. Result of 5 days of a lot (not really a lot, but a lot for me) of nanostakes/free roll poker is +396 $.

I am so grateful and feel so ... may be it is stupid word because of the religious connotation, but it is how I feel... I feel so blessed, that I managed to turn around this poker thing and now it really adds to my quality of life. I totally do realize that it could have went sooooooo wrong, so much worse than it did. I do have all this GA thing in me and it could have gone soooooooo soooooooo soooooo bad. See Tbabs. And I don't feel that it was solely my effort that led to me getting a grip on that. I had really luck or help from the Universe or I don't know how you can call it, but I feel blessed and am very grateful for that help.
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Old 08-08-2018, 05:41 PM   #2384
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Bruised rib cage is crap. It is more painful than fractured arm. And it takes my sleep. I got some pain medication ( ibuprophene) but ... It works a little but not really good. I asked for something stronger. The answer is no.


Meeeehhh. So how çan I do the best out of the situation? I can run and I can do various legs stuff. Running is painful but it doesn't influence the healing negatively according to few docs. So running I go. I mean... It is 11: 30 pm here and I can't sleep. If I don't go outside I will start to do nonsense like overeat or something equally dumb.
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Old 08-08-2018, 06:13 PM   #2385
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Yeah bruised ribs suck. Losing sleep is the worst.

I shouldnt have clicked over here. Now I feel bad about getting high and eating candy. Youve inspired me to exercise. Im going to go walk coyote hills since my knee is like 95%
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Old 08-09-2018, 10:01 AM   #2386
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OMG Lapka you're beautiful!! Which, btw, I knew you would be. Oh how I totally approve! You've given all of us a gift; to see the real you with our mind's eye when we read your words.

And because I am me, I will add that you look beautiful, despite the fact that the photo doesn't enhance your beauty one bit. That graffiti in the back ground distracts.

God you're so darn cute! You look younger than I imagined!
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Old 08-09-2018, 10:05 AM   #2387
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Also, you look very much like your avatar! I'm totally smiling at my PC here at work. You made my day!
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Old 08-09-2018, 10:20 AM   #2388
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You look younger than how you talk about yourself.

Also, I'm sure Josie would approve!
Nailed it!
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Old 08-09-2018, 01:29 PM   #2389
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Tx, Josie.
Amazing compliment. Like I said.... I have issues with my looks and such compliments make this issues smaller, make me more stable and less scared.

@ Yugo

you obviously understand Josie pretty well.
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Old 08-10-2018, 12:55 AM   #2390
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The question is what to do with my upcoming birthday. Should I do anything at all? What will cause some positive emotion? Right now i just feel a year closer to death.


What do you do with your birthdays?
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Old 08-10-2018, 02:28 AM   #2391
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Usually I haven't really done anything. For my last two birthdays, I've invited some friends over and have spent the night drinking and talking with them. Nothing special, and no birthday theme/no birthday gifts/etc, just an excuse to have a nice evening with friends.

My birthday is next month, and I imagine I will do the same thing again, more or less.
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Old 08-10-2018, 11:04 AM   #2392
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Usually I haven't really done anything. For my last two birthdays, I've invited some friends over and have spent the night drinking and talking with them. Nothing special, and no birthday theme/no birthday gifts/etc, just an excuse to have a nice evening with friends.

My birthday is next month, and I imagine I will do the same thing again, more or less.
That will definitely be the possible line.

So at the moment the whole thing starts to take a shape of a day in a spa with massages and such and the easy evening with just talking with few people.
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Old 08-10-2018, 11:16 AM   #2393
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It seems like a bowl of fresh berries should be involved at some point.
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Old 08-11-2018, 09:57 AM   #2394
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It seems like a bowl of fresh berries should be involved at some point.
That is definitely good idea as food after spa. And I will do 5 days fast before, because it increases senses, makes everything more sharp.
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Old 08-12-2018, 09:01 AM   #2395
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Everything is actually pretty good right now.

-my arm and ribs are significantly better
-no stress in my job
-no stress with men
-decent plan for my birthday
-even no stress with my mom. I stopped doing any moves (calling her, buying presents for her, visiting my parents) while on a guilt trip. That calmed things significantly down. She still manages to give me this guilt trips. But things don't escalate to the extent like in my last few posts on relationship with my mom.


Plan for today:
-running. Because my ribs are better and I totally have a deficit in working-out.
-chores. Because I need to keep-up certain level of order and tidiness to stay in a stress free zone.
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Old 08-12-2018, 12:15 PM   #2396
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I sometimes wonder if the world has changed so much or what is going on....

I remember me being around 8 y.o. and using public transportation system. It was completely normal. It was also normal that I kept myself busy without doing too big nonsense, warmed-up myself lunch, did homework and generally dealt with normal every day things on my own after the school until my parents came from work starting with first year in the school. I mean.... I did a little bit of nonsense. But to have constantly someone from grown-ups around me would...... I don't know.... would annoy the crap out of me, would hinder my development and would make the life of my parents a lot more difficult.

It was just absolutely clear that I don't do anything too stupid, anything what would endanger my life. ( I still did some jumping and climbing, where I shouldn't. But no grown-up would be able to prevent it from happening)
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Old 08-12-2018, 06:11 PM   #2397
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Same here Lapka. If I wasn't using public transport I was walking or biking to where I needed to go either by myself or with a friend. I have friends now with kids in their teens who have their mum drive them everywhere. I don't think they have ever caught a bus by themselves in their life. I feel like they're missing out tbh.
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Old 08-13-2018, 11:03 AM   #2398
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Had an interesting conversation with a friend few days ago that led to the realization that I live in a constant expectation of abuse. Even when things are going really well and everyone is nice and normal to me it is for me hard to trust the state. I know how to deal with abuse, I know how to double-up and go all-in. It is much harder with normal. I am constantly surprised when no one attacks me and people are even talking normal and nice to me and am scared that this will change.

That has served me on one side pretty well in life. I can deal with tough spots. But I would like to use a more differentiated approach. I think having more trust in stability of non-abusive situations would make my life better and make it easier for others to deal with me.

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Old 08-13-2018, 11:37 AM   #2399
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What if everyone abuses you?
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Old 08-13-2018, 12:14 PM   #2400
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Im more joking, dont think about it too hard.
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