I guess this is my blog. I've never had a blog before, but here goes.

Hi, I'm LirvA. I'm pretty well known around some of these parts, I guess. Lots of different people have lots of different opinions of me, but pretty much none of them matter. There are few exceptions.

I used to have a lot of friends here, but I became an Anarchist, and lost basically all of them one by one.

I used to think twoplustwo mattered a whole lot in life, and it was a huge part of who I was, and what my life was about. But now I realize that it's largely toxic, especially certain sections, and especially certain people.

I'm a musician, and I've been playing guitar and writing music for over fifteen years, since I was a kid. Recently, I've been going through lots of old stuff I wrote, and it's very interesting finding little pieces of ideas that turned into songs that are now my standards. I also think it's interesting trying to date old **** that I come across, and I try to identify periods in my life when I wrote the stuff.

I used to **** around with drawing **** some, and I came up with this back in the acid days, I wrote it probably around 2001 or 2002. The pictures go along with the poem.

in

Lirva


You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
When the road looks rough ahead
And you're miles and miles
From your nice warm bed
Just remember what your old pal said
Boy, you've got a friend in me

You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
You've got troubles, well I've got 'em too
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you
We stick together and we see it through
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

Some other folks might be
A little bit smarter than I am
Bigger and stronger too
Maybe
But none of them will ever love you the way I do
It's me and you
And as the years go by
Boys, our friendship will never die
You're gonna see
It's our destiny
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me
You've got a friend in me

you've always been one of the good ones db

I'm going through something of a crisis musically. I think one of the most tragic things that can happen is forgetting a song that you wrote, and there are songs that I've been looking for recordings of, and I fear they might be lost.

I had a nightmare last night about this very subject. My friend/bass player works with a guy and he's a pretty toxic fellow, and he's been wanting to play music with us and I'm just not interested in playing music with him. We aren't in to the same style of music, don't play the same style of music, and on a personal note, I don't care for him much. He's a wanna be neo nazi with nazi tattoos. I'm not a big fan of nazis. They're ****ing scum, matter of fact. **** nazis.

So anyway, in this nightmare, we (being the band, and the people we usually hang out with) were at MTD's house (Mike the drummer) and we were having a party there or something. I had all my tapes with me that I've recorded everything I've written on throughout the years, and I was listening through them and ****, like I've been doing lately. Well, flash forward, and somehow, and for some reason, that wanna be neo nazi guy stole all my tapes, and I was ****ing devastated. These tapes are priceless to me.

It was a bad dream.

And on the subject of forgotten songs, I have no idea how to play this, and I don't think I ever recorded it. I think the music is gone. It's ****ing tragic.







I do know apx. when it was written. I wrote it around 2005-2006.

Hey Lirva, why do you care so much about politics?

Here's a poem I wrote sometime between like .... 2004-2006 maybe. It's about a bullet.

I don't care about politics. I care about individual rights and freedom, and happiness, and prosperity. The existence of politics is a violation of all of the aforementioned. I am constantly frustrated because so many people are manipulated and gamed and brainwashed and skinned, and they don't realize they are being exploited, and they don't realize that we do not live in a free world, but we in fact live in a very very brutal world, ruled by elite sociopaths who care nothing about life, other than how much they can take out of it. The really ****ed up thing is when I find people that do realize the way the world is, but they just don't care.

The people that make the world the terrible place that is, the sick and twisted exploiters of the world should all be hung, and their genes should be removed from the gene pool.

I've had quite a few friends throw me away. It's kind of a constant theme in my life.

I wrote this song when I was watching the south park episode where Butters becomes Professor Chaos. In the original recording I made when I was writing it, you can hear the episode playing in the background. It's called chaos.





I wrote this around 2005-2006, but I find it to be relevant now in my life as well.

This is something I wrote after I realized I was a feg, around 2005. It was not a happy time in my life. .... well, from 2001 to 2008 was extremely turbulent, and I was severely depressed, especially around 2005-2007. It's something from a very dark time in my life. I fear the music my be lost to this as well.






I used to get so depressed and angry and hate myself so much, I screamed at myself in the mirror, screaming I hate you ******, **** you, and spitting at myself.

True, absolute self loathing, in the deepest sense of the word, I am no stranger to.

oh god damn

god ****ing damnit

I forgot all about this, this really ****ing sucks. In high school I had a friend named Stephanie, and not long after she graduated, she died in a car crash. I wrote this about her. I'm like 90% sure I never recorded this. I don't remember how to play it

Listening to all over the world by the Pixies, I think I'm in a similar ... atmospheric mood ... or something, as I was around 2005-2006. idk, I've just been staying up a lot and I've felt very isolated and alienated lately, much like back then. I've thought about suicide a couple times casually, but it's a common casual thought.

The verses in this come from stuff I wrote on the walls in my room, hence the name, room song. The verse lyrics are phrased weird, as is the verse music.





2006-2007

Chaos and Room Song are being worked on with the band, and I'll post audio of them at some point, once I get a recording I like. The recording technique we use, namely, none, just playing live and recording it, comes with variance you have to deal with. Sometimes you'll play the song, and the energy will be really great, and certain things might happen randomly and be amazingly cool, like a random feedback note or sequence of notes or something, and sometimes you'll play a song and it will just seem dead, and dull. That variance can be minimized greatly by tons and tons of rehearsal, but the random element still matters significantly. Jim Hendrix for example would record like 30 takes of a song before they found a take they really liked, and put on the album. It's just the nature of the beast with live recording. But the benefit is the great takes feel a lot more lively and .... human, than click track, record a single track at a time type ****.

We've been playing since December of last year (but with MTD only around five months), and this is one of the better things we've recorded. It's completely improvised, and after we finished playing I knew it would turn out to be a good recording, because the energy was so great, and the randomness all worked out and sounded great together, almost planned out.

I like this one

Why music?

Why not get into something you can make money at?

Why have sex when you don't make money doing it?

thx peli. There's a chance I'll come across a recording of it, but I kinda doubt it.

prob the only good blog on the internet. ty for sharing.

thx

LOL, good point.

Hi LirvA! Just stopping in to say that I like your music. I hope all is well.