Maaan. Don't be so. Believe me. There is a good plan to have a happy live. REEEEELY!
In your situation. There is one. To get rid of the anxiety and depression. Yes, you can.
It doesn't include video poker. Have you tried substitute it with sex/dope/posting in various boards/writing in your blog/working-out (I mean not leasurly swiming few rounds, but working out until you can't no more. From my experience running 10 km always curbs the pressure down)?
Don't sound so hopeless! There is a realistic hope to become happy for you. (At least a lot happier than you are now)
And I don't want to be smartassy. I want you to have hope.
Care to write about your strat in this video poker and how you have there +EV? I have no idea what that is exactly. Googling delivered that that is some kind of machine where you play against a casino. Right? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Video_poker?