That would be a good stake to get through the temporary little mess to clean up the big mess. You know what I'm saying. If you are a gambler, you know.
That's in the normal world. He has made close to 7k in vig off me or more... You don't understand. This is a different world. He has no right to turn me down.
your thinking is a little muddled. you're saying "this is a different world" but you're talking to people on a poker forum. we might be the only people who could understand your situation.
Lawyer "you honor! My client was the victim of variance"
Judge "what the **** you talking about, is this kid going to stop gambling. How many times can we delay this ****. Well he is no ****ing kid anymore"
Lawyer "your honor, my client actually has a positive ev. He just was betting above his bankroll and he busted out"
Judge "get the **** out my courtroom. Case dismissed. Your client can keep trying to do it on his own"
Dude,
As long as you don't get, not only rationally, but on a deep deep emotional level, that what you are doing is -EV and will never be +EV, no matter how often you repeat it, nothing gonna change.
Cuz you know time is the most valuable commodity in the world ... If I don't have to work anymore , I would not care. Just hang it up. Watch the sunset everyday without having to deal with rat race
Maaan. Don't be so. Believe me. There is a good plan to have a happy live. REEEEELY!
In your situation. There is one. To get rid of the anxiety and depression. Yes, you can.
COMEONCOMEONCOMEON. REEEEEELY!
It doesn't include video poker. Have you tried substitute it with sex/dope/posting in various boards/writing in your blog/working-out (I mean not leasurly swiming few rounds, but working out until you can't no more. From my experience running 10 km always curbs the pressure down)?
Don't sound so hopeless! There is a realistic hope to become happy for you. (At least a lot happier than you are now)
And I don't want to be smartassy. I want you to have hope.
Care to write about your strat in this video poker and how you have there +EV? I have no idea what that is exactly. Googling delivered that that is some kind of machine where you play against a casino. Right? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Video_poker?
Last Sept, Oct, December I hit a 20k Royal .. 3x20k royals. I hit a bunch 4k Royals to but lost count before I went up to higher stakes
My best night was when I hit quad deuces, a royal and another quad deuce in the same night. I went home with 36k.. Well actually cashed out 36k but went home with like 22
But today I'm broke... I just don't know how to gamble.
I know when I'm playing in a negative ev situation but I go all out ... That can **** up your stats bad.
For example, if a casino gives me 1000 dollar match , I should only play accordingly where I'm over 100 percent edge. However, I play 1000s of hands beyond the match