Jan 1994

Lori "I can't believe we are ****ing in the community indoor hot tub!"

Dec 1995

Lori "I'm moving to Germany"

Lover959 "I can't believe you are moving. Your the only one I have shared my deepest dark fears. I need you"

Review - 1st Chapter

Newday "Ok let me get this straight, you drop out of med school and regarded as a complete failure by your friends and family. They had the compassion to take you in when you were basically homeless. You pull yourself from your bootstraps and make millions in pharmaceuticals after being a minimum wage lab tech.

I don't think there is second chapter. You were in your 20s. You had time to recover. You are in your 40s now, late 40s! You are over half a million in debt. It's nice you reestablished Tuesday but you are going to need a freaking miracle!"

2nd Chapter

3 Days Clean

You need something to do on weekends. You always get yourself in trouble on weekends. Don't you have some kind of crafting hobby? I don't know..... I read this and I get a feeling that you consist of ga, eating, ****ing, driving some kind of environmental monstroeusity with rare glimpses of interesting stuff like actual pharmaceutical stuff, cleaning, swimming. I don't know..... don't you have more non -materialistic stuff that gives you an erection? I mean I have zero clue in pharmaceutic things, but I am reading-up on mushrooms( my little hobby) and I find it totally fascinating. Things like what exactly is in which mushroom and how it interacts with human body.

2nd Chapter

5 days clean

Lover959 "It was nice meet you at the AA meeting last night. Am I allowed to go those closed meeting? I just say I am an addict

John "Listen man your addiction is life threatening. If you need to find an emergency meeting just say your alcoholic

2nd Chapter

6 days clean.

Newday "You still want to run don't you?

Lover959 "Yeah"

Newday "How far will you get with 3K?"

Lover959 "I don't know"

Newday "Those AA meeting helped. Maybe you should go to those

Lover959 "But I'm not an alcoholic"

Newday "John said to go if is helping you to stop and just say you are. Why don't you try that for 90 days before you run"

Newday "You should cancel those reservations next weekend. Your not going to win those drawings."

Lover959 "I'm due. Hang at the bar. Meet seem girls. Drink some rum. I got the Spa Tower."

Newday "That sucks your boss denies most of your vacation"

Lover959 "*****. I hope she reads this. I have 5 weeks of vacation.

Newday "Yeah. Everybody else is approved."

Lover959 "I'm too broke to go anywhere but comped rooms"

Newday "You changed everybody's life in that building"

Lover959 "Yeah. I went from hero to zero"

Newday "I think that's what's killing you. Just start calling in sick. It's illegal for them to deny your benefits

Lover959 "I should start calling lawyers"

Newday "Maybe you should. Maybe you should get a sponsor"

Newday "Some of your colleagues are millionaires and your asking your mom for money. How does that make you feel at 47?"

Lover959 "Great!!!"

Newday "The only way you will be able to forgive yourself and get through this life is with other people. You can't do this alone anymore. "

John "Hello"

Lover959 "Hey John"

John "You going to that AA meeting?"

Lover959 "I'm in OK, I blew it all"

John "Can you get home?"

Lover959 "I think so"

John "You may have to go to the food pantry in Irving"

Lover959 "They are going to shut off my electricity. Should I call my sister?"

John "I don't man. I don't know what kind of relationship you have"

Durant, OK

Big Hot Mess

Lover959 "Car seems to be running"

Newday "Your battery was acting weird. 200 plus for a new Jeep battery"

Lover959 "I have half a tank. I have line of credit on those 2 payday loans. Maybe I should pull $100 for groceries and $225 for electric bill until next payday?"

Newday "You defaulted on IRS with empty account. That ach is going to be returned back to them. I hope they don't immediately levy your account"

Lover959 "I read on Internet they allow I miss payment and send notice. I'm going to owe them another 5k in October"

Lover959 "Look. I don't want to kill myself. Maybe I should start packing"

Newday "You got one more free night, $50 free play tomorrow and comped buffet. You leaving?"

Lover959 "Yes. I want to get the **** out. I don't want see another casino in my lifetime"

September 17, 2017

Sam Rayburn Tollway

Click
Lover959 "****ing *******"

Newday "Man... Call..Danny.. Danny is a good guy. Ask him to be your sponsor"

Lover959 "They are going to shut off my electricity"

Danny "Are they going to shut if off today?"

Lover959 "No. Like Thursday or Friday"

Danny "Listen..You are in the middle of this crises. The first thing you need to do is go home and get some rest. Is thinking and obsessing going solve anything?"

Steps 1 and 2

Lover959 "Thanks Danny, everything you say puts me at ease. Man I need someone to get me through this crises"

Danny "I'll be happy to work with you. I have no doubt you can get through this"

Tears rolling down
Lover959 "Thanks man"

Danny "Look I need to ask you first do you feel you are powerless over this addiction?"

Lover959 "Oh hell yeah..."

Danny "Ok .. You got the first step down. Now do you feel that greater power than you can restore you to a normal way of thinking and living be it God, GA"

Lover959 "I don't know man.. Sometimes I am very atheistic"

Danny "Ok.. We need to work on that. That's your homework"

Lover959 "Man you saved my life."

AA - Open Meeting Sept 17

Lobby

Lover959 "What the ****. That old timer is ripping into that kid for saying he was and addict and that he should go to another meeting"

Lola "No way.."

Lover959 "Yeah.. I know you say your and addict and I do to. I guess we gotta start saying alcoholic"

Lola "I'm not changing ****. **** him"

Parking lot

Kid comes out balling

Lola "Hey don't feel bad.. We are drug addicts to!!"

Newday "Your not a drug addict... Loool"

Lover959 "shut up"

Balling his eyes out
Kid "I don't know what I did wrong!!"

Lola "Come here I want to hug you"

Lover959 "Hey you should not feel bad. This is an open meeting. If it's going to save your life, you should go. Lola and I say we are addicts. This is the foundation. This is what started all the programs"

Just read thread. Everything seems totally normally except one thing. Stop eating at chipotle. Wtf.

Saturday
Las Colinas, TX
NYLO Boutique Hotel Bar

Sunny



Lover959 "I can have just one drink"

Newday "Why do you go to A and A? You going to roll the 2k payday loan next week?"

Lover959 "I don't know. I need something!!"

Newday "Danny is pulling for you. If you go back out that would ****ty of you"

Lover959 sigh

Newday "You are not going win the 10k or 50k."

I got like 500 entries!!

Sunday

Sprititual Center parking lot

Lover959 "You are a bankruptcy lawyer?!"

Lawyer "Yes"

Lover959 "Girrrrl... This one big payday loan is kicking my ass. Can I retain you just get them off my back"

Lawyer "Here is my card. Call me Tuesday"

Addiction is a *****

Yanni's Story

Be inspired.. Make the next right decision.. I'm trying to everyday

Thursday night

GA parking lot

Sobbing
Lover959 "I want to pay her back"

Standing by a his new Beamer
Bobby "The best thing you can do for your mom is go to that meeting Saturday"