I'm home now. Going to watch Cops on Spike. That's my Saturday night ritual. I brought home some bacon wrapped steak skewers. Going eat that with some home made spaghetti. I ordered the stuffed bread at bar and shared with everbody.

Newday "Now you got $170 to your name"

Lover959 "Yeah.. Yeah Newday."

Newday "You should cancel your cable"

Lover959 "Yeah .. Yeah .. I'll get to that"

Newday "Listen to classical music and KERA"

Lover959 "Not a bad idea. "

Newday "Cable is the biggest waste of money. In the last 18 months there has been a complete revolt by the mellenials. The cable companies are very aware that the mellenials refuse to pay for that ****. In fact they have set up an entire separate process if you want to cancel your cable. They make you jump through hoops like Choctaw does with excluding yourself. Cable will be dead in 20 years or they will be forced to bundle deep discount multi channel line ups with high speed internet. I see $5 or $10 dollar 100 channel cable bundles in next 5 years. They won't even have cable. They will market it as high speed internet with media. Satellite is a pain in the ass. Not worth the effort."

Lover959 "How about the NFL or NBA?"

Newday "Mellenials don't care that much about sports where they will pay for $140 cable bill. They will say f uuuuuu. Unfortunately some of them are brainwashed by their culture to perpetuate the sports tradition. I hope most well reject this culture. It well take some time tho. Athletes will starting seeing their salaries drop in 20 years"

Newday "Professional Mellenials are overburdened with student loans. They are not interested in spending their little disposable income on cable or even gambling"

Lover959 "are you saying I should of been born in 1990"

Newday "You got other issues. Deep seated emotional issues. You graduated with two professional degrees with only 4K in student loans and squandered every opportunity imaginable. It's a a damn shame!"

Lover959 "What do I do?"

Newday "Get in recovery biatch!"

Lover959 "I'm in a viscous cycle. The more I dwell on what I squandered, the more I get deeper in it. I'm so deep so that I'm looking for light on the other side"

Newday "Horse ****! You have to crawl through all this **** and come back up to the light where you came from. There is no other side. It's a dead end!"

Lover959 "I will create my own reality and I will find light on the other side"

Newday "Loool. Like that 20k you hustled this year and quickly blew. That was a flickering false light. You gotta start digging through the ****. The sooner you accept that, the less painful it will be. There is no easy way out. Here is your shovel. Hold your nose and start digging back up

HWY 75 N
McKinney, TX

Lover959 "Exit 41 Hooters! I'm hungry!"

Newday "Wow... I like this one!"

Lover959 "Heavenly. Blows away the Addison one"

Lover959 "It's hot out. I should sit here all day"

Newday "You should of gone to that 11:00 am meeting. You did 4 uturns on Marsh"

Lover959 "Yeah. This obsession is nuts. I wish Choctaw would ban me"

Newday "Well you are like 45 min away now"

Lover959 (sipping rum and coke) "Yeah. I hope this burger is decent."

Newday "Bat tender is smoking and lunch crew just walked in"

Lover959 "Seven flat screens. I love this country"

Lover959 "Lool. I feel like a perv. It's me, 3 other Spanish dudes and 12 white women"

Newday "Mehhhh you are good tippers"

Lover959 "I heard girls saying Hooters is worst than strip club"

Newday "I believe it. You going home after this?"

Lover959 "This 75 year old couple that just sit next to me is tilting me"

Newday "*******. Now you have an excuse to go gamble"

Lover959 "Yeah!"

Newday "Your ****ed in the head"

Newday "If you could see your goofy ass walk in a Texas bar"

Lover959 "No ****. **** you. My generosity compensates for my bizarre creepiness"

Newday "so you going up there?"

Lover959 "you know it's so ****ing hard to get weekend comps!"

Newday "Your not answering my question. You better save enough to pay those defaulted HOA dues"

Lover959 "That lawyer letter was hostile!"

Newday "and the IRS tax lien you got last week"

Lover959 "I'm stuck in the Big D for awhile or I could just walk awAy from everything and let the Sharks have their share"

Newday "More logical thinking. Your degenerate deadbeat bottom feeder"

Lover959 "**** this negative talk! Let's hit the road!"

Walking Dead machine
Lover959 "****!"

Newday "That was a quickie. You better call that HOA lawyer Monday"

Dragon ***** "See you in 2 weeks"

Lover959 "I can slay anytime I want *****. I just need to get those exclusion forms notarized and send them in!"

Dragon *****

Lover959 "You are not going to see me up in here anymore *****!"

Dragon ***** "I don't care. I got all your money"

Lover959 "You will starve once you don't get anymore!"

Dragon ***** "Your life is ruined"

Lover959 "My life has just begun!"

Dragon ***** "Good luck with that credit report. Tony Soprano has a better one"

Newday "Stop entertaining her! Let's go home"

Lover959 "I'm heading for parking garage! I'm not going to the ATM!"

Screaming down the parking tunnel exit
Dragon ***** "You can't handle my ***** You are a big loser in life!!! Looool!!! Run back away with your tail between your legs. It's all over for you! Game Over!!"

Newday "Ignore her. Don't look back."

Lover959 "I am. I never want come back here again"

Newday "Game is Over in this hellhole but not in your Life."

Home

Lover959 "Where is that exclusion form?! I'm going to get that **** notarized!"

Newday "Gogogogo"

Lover959 "Damn nightmares. Where am I going to get the $800"

Newday "Send them half now?"

Lover959 "Don't know where to send. They locked me out of the account"

Newday "Maybe cuz it's in legal?"

Lover959 "Maybe I should get that online payday loan?"

Newday "you already have 2. One for 2k that balance isn't going down"

Lover959 "I can't call mom? She will stress out. She thinks I'm stable"

Newday "Who you going to call?"

Lover959 "Ghostbusters?"

Lover959 "That lady at legal office said its going get a lot more expensive if I don't send ASAP

Newday "Maybe you can do bankruptcy #2 and throw those HOAs in there."

Lover959 "I'm going to make some coffee and weigh my options"

Newday "What options?"

Newday "This is serious. You can lose your home. You got get your head out of your ass and wake up"

Lover959 "I know! Coffee is brewing"

Newday "Have you had enough?"

Lover959 "Yes"

Newday "Is today is your first day of recovery?"

Lover959 "Yes"

Day 1 Recovery

If people give me odd looks why should I gaze back at them in anger. I need to look away and carry on with my day. Anger is a silent killer.

My temporary discomfort is just that. Temporary. Why should I impose on others for my own selfish relief.

The mountain of destruction was in another life. Today I will paint a new life on this fresh canvas

Generosity will be rewarded not for Karma's sake but for your wellingness to give for your own selfless sacrifice