5/2/2016 7:00 pm phone goes off. I see Id .. It's Stacy! .. I love this dude.

Stacey is an attorney great friend of mine. He was a wild child. Always going nuts and partying when he was young. In his 20s he really got drunk and got into a crazy accident while skiing that left him paraplegic. He looks younger than his age. I think of Axyl Rose when I see him. He still has that fire in him and has sandy red blond hair. He still looks like a party college kid. He used to bet 10k a hand at the black jack table.

Stacey "hey man .. What's up.. Just checking if you going to meeting tonight"

Lover959 "0h man I'm beat.. I usually like going to meetings on weekends"

Stacey "ok man... Try to make if you can. I'm going to get in shower and get ready"

Lover959 "ok man .. Thanks for checking on me .. I'll talk to you soon."

Stacey is really a big inspiration and keeps the little will and fire I have inside me flickering

5/2/2016 7:42 pm

I think I would be devastated if something ever happened to Stacey. He had a serious GI infection 2 weeks ago.

I'm such a lazy ass.

I know .. This **** makes no sense.

5/3/2016 5:00 pm

Trigger Tuesday

I feel like a piece of **** today after being humiliated in a meeting by a director with my boss sitting there smiling.

I hurry home and sign on to the illegal sports site to punish myself. I got 500 dollars left on my credit card. If I cancel my 120 dollar withdrawal from yesterday and use this bull**** 50 percent Bitcoin deposit I'll have close to 900 dollars to go crazy. I quickly sign off. I made it two weeks. Can't quit now.

Beautiful day with sun beaming. Got to get outside quick.

These meetings you go to, is it AA/NA/GA?

GA

Glad I stopped by for the first time. What an enlightening experience, I will have to visit more often.

Gogogogo.
Well done! It will become easier, if you try not to give in to the urge . But triggers are just there. And mysteries just start to reveal itself. We know now that sports betting was involved.

5/04/2016 7:00 pm. Panic attack and Panda Express

My truck sounds like it's about to break down. My ac is whirling. Call my sponsor and he walks me off the ledge.

12 dollars in my wallet for dinner and half bottle of white wine diluted in frig..

Ahhh the simple things

5/04/2016 7:05 Pm

Pay Day loans... Pay Day loans ....

Damn it! I just remembered that 150 dollar withdrawal going to hit my checking account in morning for pay day loan#1. Gotta get off my lazy ass and do cash advance on my credit card. I enjoyed my cheap frills dinner for 5 minutes. I'll take whatever little happiness comes my way.

Thanks Lapka. Are you from the Ukraine?

My first love was Ukranian. She was beautiful. She had blond golden hair, a ballerina physique, and blue green eyes.

Will post pic of ballerina physique soon....

Similar english mistakes? ^^
From former UdSSR, so same first language, but not Ukraine.

Why don't you cook yourself? Is healthier: you have complete control over what is going into your meal. Cheaper: for 12 $ you can get a bunch of chicken breasts, some rice, broccoli, carrots and make at least two dinners out of it. Pretty easy and not very time consuming and actually a fun thing to do.

I'm all over this Ukrainian I've been seeing for 2 months.
I swear I prob need a thread like this in two more months.

If she is somehow the reason of your complete burial save me.

Nah.. That was a while back.. I love Ukranian women. They are keepers.

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5/07/2016 9:32 am

Refund on my 50k please

I'm not going to meeting today. Since I have starting going to these meetings in the end of February, I have lost $50,000. I am happy I have met some wonderful people and they will probably be friends for life, but still I thought they would give me the magic recipe to quit. I think I have quit the last 2 weeks because I am pretty much flat broke.

Some older wise Asian lady always says "this is the tuition I paid to learn"

I think it's kind of bull ****. The money is gone. We live in a capitalist society where money is the blood and life force of the body.

Or maybe she has some valid point.... I don't know

How old are you?

You should go to the meetings if you want respect.

cant wait for the backstory Lover959. great blog.

5/09/2016 6:00 pm

The Heat is On

I can stop the avalanche of bills heading my way. My accounts are all getting drained while the summer heat is starting to make hints of its soon arrival. It's almost 90 degrees and my truck is barely running. The ac in my truck and home are on their last leg. I'm trying to rush to the bank to make an ATM before the bills hit. ATM is down. I'm not going to drive another 20 mins for the nearest ATM. f it... f it all.

Thank you for sharing.

Potentially great thread needs more updates..

5/11/2016 2:00 pm

I have been trying to locate this movie for years on streaming and could not even find on Amazon. Low and behold it has been posted on YouTube. Check it out before they take this down


"I don't have a gambling problem, I have a financial problem

One of the best gambling movies of all-time.

"I'll take all the home teams in the American League and all the road teams in the National League"..