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Originally Posted by Joe Pulaski
anyone go through sick stretches where they cant win no matter what? i went through a downswing and i just cant get out and i hate playing now, i get tilted literally every single time i play, even winning sessions, thing is i need it for money. anyone ever go through this and come out fine on the other side?
like im seriously lifetilted because of cards and i just took a two week vacation from it when i went on a trip
That happened to me HARDCORE a few months ago. I went through a 10k downswing during it, running about 8k below allin EV over a relatively small number of games, playing no higher than 200s, and moving down as I dropped towards the end (but definitely not quickly enough, which is probably my absolute biggest flaw in poker).
My beat tolerance was so ridiculously low for months after that I'd have sessions where I'd post a 40% ROI over the session and still be tilted because of a few absurd hands or games.
This is the first month since then that I've been able to bring myself to put in any sort of even remotely significant volume, and not totally freak out when somebody 4bet shoves A7o for 50bbs into my AA and wins.
I honestly don't know what to tell you as far as getting over it though. I've had soul-crushing downswings before, and I've even had downswings for comparable $ amounts, but that one, and the after-effects that lingered months after the fact, very nearly made me give up poker altogether.
The strange thing about that one is that it didn't really put my confidence level in the dumps, like all the previous huge downswings had done. Of course, having my tilt level go through the roof is at least as bad, and maybe worse, than having my confidence level destroyed. I dunno.
Sucks that you depend on poker (at least in part) for living, I didn't have that extra weight fortunately. But stick it out, play good poker when you can, quit ASAP when the tiltmonkey jumps on your shoulder, and hopefully you can recover a lot more quickly than I did.