I just feel empty, like I've wasted the last eleven hours of my life

What am I supposed to do there? I shouldn't have to spend my whole time losing value because I'm terrified about someone turning a flush, but it seems like it happens every frigging time.


All I have left is the 3r, and that's still miles from the bubble, and I only have 14bb

ITM of 3r, approx 170th of 380 remaining, but only about 17bb left, cos it's not exactly a deep structure.

All over for another day


Poker Stars $3.00+$0.30 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t2000/t4000 Blinds + t400 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

MP2: t131326 M = 13.68
CO: t28683 M = 2.99
BTN: t189910 M = 19.78
Hero (SB): t33078 M = 3.45
BB: t42437 M = 4.42
UTG: t83869 M = 8.74
UTG+1: t88689 M = 9.24
UTG+2: t26087 M = 2.72
MP1: t232696 M = 24.24

Pre Flop: (t9600) Hero is SB with 8 A
7 folds, Hero raises to t32678 all in, BB calls t28678

Flop: (t68956) 9 2 2 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Turn: (t68956) 8 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t68956) 4 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t68956

Hero shows 8 A (two pair, Eights and Deuces)
BB shows 8 8 (a full house, Eights full of Deuces)

BB wins t68956



185th for $25



don't really want to check how much further down the roll has gone

Today's summary


Utter vomit all day long. Somehow I managed to avoid cashing a single freezeout, and only one KO tourney. All the other money cashes today came from rebuys. Not a lot I would have changed about how I played, just some of the outcomes could have been kinder.

Tourneys played		56
Total buyin		$ 773.15
Total cashes		$ 411.88
Net result		-$ 361.27

Cashes

Tourney		position		prize
5.50+r 2x-turbo		97/1456		63.25
11r		68/702		61.15
27 TKO		17/239		52.58
2.20+r		44/500		18.75
8.80+r		123/983		43.65
2.20+r		49/500		15.20
8.80 1r1a		58/882		50.15
11 1r1a		44/526		60.93
3.30+r		185/2554		25.22
five KO bounties				21.00

Current balance of roll is $ 1,338.52


Overall stats

Tourneys played		172
Total buyin		$ 2,805.31
Total cashes		$ 1,643.83
Net result		-$ 1,161.48

So far not had a single big score in this pack, just far too many cashes in the $40-$70 region, so I think I'm going to readjust the buyin strategy downwards a little from here for a bit and see how it goes; I don't want to be utterly reckless, and $1,338 is still a decent roll to grind with. That's why I skipped the Big 55 today — one decent score and it's back in business, but another day maxing out buyins and bricking, and it's all over.

TT

If you cant win flips or AA vs KK you cant reach the FT. Maybe youre tired. Take couple days free and then come back

^^ and this is why you have investors backing you time and time again! Solid approach.

Take a few hours off and come back with a positive mind. You KNOW you shouldn't be playing when jamming AA pre makes you nervous. You're the one who told ME that whenever I was whining about taking a bunch of beats. You KNOW you crush these levels and you KNOW short term variance is the motherload of "#%"#¤%# when it doesn't go your way! Keep your head levelled now ! and return to the fish-tank whenever your feeling good about being dealt a monster.

Yeah, thanks guys. I'm not going to be playing today anyway now; g/f woke up at like 1am and was properly ill last night, and between us we barely slept at all after that, so I'm far too tired to start a long session. I'm gonna have a nap, then I might play a couple of turbos later, maybe the Hot 11 and 16.50 as they're such good value, idk, but it depends how I feel, and it won't actually count as a day if I do; the fourth day is going to be tomorrow now, then Sunday will be day five, because I'm busy elsewhere on Saturday. The plan for next week will then be Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday for days six, seven and eight.

Alex, doubt I get to the point where I don't stick it in pre with AA if the opportunity presents, but I know what you mean.

TT

Hi guys

Real life not going my way this week - nothing major, just little things, but they add up. Not started today yet, and afraid I'm still not yet sure if I will be able start early enough to make it worthwhile either, but I will keep you posted. Sorry about this.

TT

there is a life outside of poker

Fair play mate do what you need to do and come back firing gl gl gl

Am I abnormal?
Thanks. What I've decided is that I'm going to try and achieve at least something on this today, so I'm going to reg a few turbos available from around the time of Hot 11 to about the time of Hot 55 (about three hours worth of regging, although obviously I'm not actually playing Hot 55 unless I satty). It's not really going to be a full day, so I'll try and wedge in another half day somewhere else to try and make it up.

TT

btw, that means I started a little while ago.

Here's a glimpse of what's already happened

Hot 11


Poker Stars $10+$1 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t20/t40 Blinds - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

UTG+1: t3120 78 BBs
UTG+2: t2930 73.25 BBs
MP1: t4340 108.50 BBs
Hero (MP2): t2950 73.75 BBs
CO: t3437 85.92 BBs
BTN: t2680 67 BBs
SB: t3010 75.25 BBs
BB: t2910 72.75 BBs
UTG: t2640 66 BBs

Pre Flop: (t60) Hero is MP2 with K K
UTG calls t40, 2 folds, MP1 calls t40, Hero raises to t200, 4 folds, UTG calls t160, MP1 calls t160

Flop: (t660) 4 J 6 (3 players)
UTG checks, MP1 bets t560, Hero raises to t2750 all in, UTG folds, MP1 calls t2190

Turn: (t6160) 4 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t6160) 2 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t6160

MP1 shows 6 A (two pair, Sixes and Fours)
Hero shows K K (two pair, Kings and Fours)

Hero wins t6160

2r 2x turbo


Poker Stars $2.00+$0.20 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t250/t500 Blinds + t50 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BTN: t2000 M = 1.67
Hero (SB): t3290 M = 2.74
BB: t7650 M = 6.38
UTG: t22481 M = 18.73
UTG+1: t4000 M = 3.33
UTG+2: t7455 M = 6.21
MP1: t19799 M = 16.50
MP2: t10700 M = 8.92
CO: t32521 M = 27.10

Pre Flop: (t1200) Hero is SB with Q Q
1 fold, UTG+1 raises to t1000, 1 fold, MP1 calls t1000, 1 fold, CO calls t1000, 1 fold, Hero raises to t3240 all in, 2 folds, MP1 calls t2240, CO raises to t32471 all in, 1 fold

Flop: (t11670) A 3 A (2 players - 2 are all in)

Turn: (t11670) 3 (2 players - 2 are all in)

River: (t11670) Q (2 players - 2 are all in)

Final Pot: t11670

Hero shows Q Q (a full house, Queens full of Aces)
CO shows J J (two pair, Aces and Jacks)

Hero wins t11670

2.20 turbo


Poker Stars $2.00+$0.20 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t300/t600 Blinds + t70 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

UTG+1: t11089 M = 7.25
UTG+2: t37238 M = 24.34
MP1: t3359 M = 2.20
MP2: t19304 M = 12.62
Hero (CO): t5150 M = 3.37
BTN: t11435 M = 7.47
SB: t14816 M = 9.68
BB: t27034 M = 17.67
UTG: t7065 M = 4.62

Pre Flop: (t1530) Hero is CO with K K
5 folds, Hero raises to t1200, BTN calls t1200, 1 fold, BB calls t600

Flop: (t4530) 3 K Q (3 players)
BB checks, Hero checks, BTN bets t2500, BB raises to t9600, Hero calls t3880 all in, BTN folds

Turn: (t14790) 7 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t14790) 7 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t14790

Hero shows K K (a full house, Kings full of Sevens)
BB shows J T (a pair of Sevens)

Hero wins t14790

Hot 11


Poker Stars $10+$1 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t40/t80 Blinds - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

UTG+2: t3000 37.50 BBs
MP1: t4966 62.08 BBs
MP2: t3395 42.44 BBs
Hero (CO): t5835 72.94 BBs
BTN: t2303 28.79 BBs
SB: t3297 41.21 BBs
BB: t2549 31.86 BBs
UTG: t5869 73.36 BBs
UTG+1: t3424 42.80 BBs

Pre Flop: (t120) Hero is CO with K K
2 folds, UTG+2 calls t80, MP1 calls t80, 1 fold, Hero raises to t480, 2 folds, BB raises to t2549 all in, 2 folds, Hero calls t2069

Flop: (t5298) 7 5 J (2 players - 1 is all in)

Turn: (t5298) 9 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t5298) 4 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t5298

Hero shows K K (a pair of Kings)
BB shows A J (a pair of Jacks)

Hero wins t5298

2.20 turbo


Poker Stars $2.00+$0.20 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t400/t800 Blinds + t100 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

MP1: t14533 M = 6.92
MP2: t60256 M = 28.69
CO: t16180 M = 7.70
BTN: t5856 M = 2.79
Hero (SB): t14745 M = 7.02
BB: t24290 M = 11.57
UTG: t14536 M = 6.92
UTG+1: t3511 M = 1.67
UTG+2: t9747 M = 4.64

Pre Flop: (t2100) Hero is SB with A J
3 folds, MP1 raises to t2350, 3 folds, Hero raises to t14645 all in, 1 fold, MP1 calls t12083 all in

Flop: (t30566) K 5 8 (2 players - 2 are all in)

Turn: (t30566) T (2 players - 2 are all in)

River: (t30566) Q (2 players - 2 are all in)

Final Pot: t30566

MP1 shows A 8 (a pair of Eights)
Hero shows A J (a straight, Ten to Ace)

Hero wins t30566

2r 2x turbo


Poker Stars $2.00+$0.20 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t600/t1200 Blinds + t120 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

UTG+2: t6420 M = 2.23
Hero (MP1): t25510 M = 8.86
MP2: t12380 M = 4.30
CO: t33001 M = 11.46
BTN: t10160 M = 3.53
SB: t12895 M = 4.48
BB: t25020 M = 8.69
UTG: t15310 M = 5.32
UTG+1: t23641 M = 8.21

Pre Flop: (t2880) Hero is MP1 with Q Q
3 folds, Hero raises to t2400, 1 fold, CO raises to t32881 all in, 3 folds, Hero calls t22990 all in

Flop: (t53660) 6 7 8 (2 players - 2 are all in)

Turn: (t53660) J (2 players - 2 are all in)

River: (t53660) 2 (2 players - 2 are all in)

Final Pot: t53660

Hero shows Q Q (a pair of Queens)
CO shows T A (high card Ace)

Hero wins t53660

Hot 11


Poker Stars $10+$1 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t100/t200 Blinds + t25 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BB: t8771 M = 16.71
UTG: t8610 M = 16.40
UTG+1: t9938 M = 18.93
UTG+2: t2799 M = 5.33
MP1: t2075 M = 3.95
MP2: t4752 M = 9.05
CO: t2430 M = 4.63
Hero (BTN): t8144 M = 15.51
SB: t4530 M = 8.63

Pre Flop: (t525) Hero is BTN with K K
2 folds, UTG+2 raises to t2774 all in, 3 folds, Hero calls t2774, 2 folds

Flop: (t6073) K 5 6 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Turn: (t6073) 3 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t6073) 2 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t6073

UTG+2 shows K J (a pair of Kings)
Hero shows K K (three of a kind, Kings)

Hero wins t6073

Everything holding at the moment

5.10 hyper


Poker Stars $5.00+$0.10 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t20/t40 Blinds + t10 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

MP2: t2980 M = 19.87
CO: t2960 M = 19.73
BTN: t2800 M = 18.67
Hero (SB): t3360 M = 22.40
BB: t2980 M = 19.87
UTG: t2980 M = 19.87
UTG+1: t2980 M = 19.87
UTG+2: t2980 M = 19.87
MP1: t2980 M = 19.87

Pre Flop: (t150) Hero is SB with K A
6 folds, BTN raises to t100, Hero raises to t400, 1 fold, BTN raises to t700, Hero raises to t3350 all in, BTN calls t2090 all in

Flop: (t5710) T 7 4 (2 players - 2 are all in)

Turn: (t5710) 2 (2 players - 2 are all in)

River: (t5710) 6 (2 players - 2 are all in)

Final Pot: t5710

BTN shows A Q (high card Ace - lower kicker)
Hero shows K A (high card Ace)

Hero wins t5710

2r 2xturbo

Poker Stars $2.00+$0.20 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t1000/t2000 Blinds + t200 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

MP1: t49100 M = 10.23
Hero (MP2): t50780 M = 10.58
CO: t30360 M = 6.33
BTN: t57135 M = 11.90
SB: t12932 M = 2.69
BB: t20070 M = 4.18
UTG: t12747 M = 2.66
UTG+1: t159393 M = 33.21
UTG+2: t32401 M = 6.75

Pre Flop: (t4800) Hero is MP2 with A Q
UTG raises to t12547 all in, 3 folds, Hero raises to t50580 all in, 2 folds, SB calls t11732 all in, 1 fold

Flop: (t41811) 9 K 3 (3 players - 3 are all in)

Turn: (t41811) 3 (3 players - 3 are all in)

River: (t41811) 4 (3 players - 3 are all in)

Final Pot: t41811

Hero shows A Q (a pair of Threes - Ace+King+Queen kicker)
SB shows A T (a pair of Threes)
UTG shows J 5 (a pair of Threes - lower kicker)

Hero wins t370
Hero wins t41441

pretty much the first one that hasn't gone my way


2.20 turbo


Poker Stars $2.00+$0.20 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t1250/t2500 Blinds + t310 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

UTG+1: t14057 M = 2.15
UTG+2: t52499 M = 8.03
MP1: t59562 M = 9.11
MP2: t78130 M = 11.95
CO: t41186 M = 6.30
Hero (BTN): t28958 M = 4.43
SB: t19031 M = 2.91
BB: t50666 M = 7.75
UTG: t66497 M = 10.17

Pre Flop: (t6540) Hero is BTN with Q A
2 folds, UTG+2 raises to t5000, 3 folds, Hero raises to t28648 all in, 2 folds, UTG+2 calls t23648

Flop: (t63836) 2 5 6 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Turn: (t63836) 3 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t63836) 3 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t63836

UTG+2 shows 5 5 (a full house, Fives full of Threes)
Hero shows Q A (a pair of Threes)

UTG+2 wins t63836


already ITM tho, so not the end of the world

First real setback

2r


Poker Stars $2.00+$0.20 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t1250/t2500 Blinds + t250 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

UTG+2: t52550 M = 8.76
Hero (MP1): t75309 M = 12.55
MP2: t25560 M = 4.26
CO: t82065 M = 13.68
BTN: t103808 M = 17.30
SB: t39040 M = 6.51
BB: t19266 M = 3.21
UTG: t178674 M = 29.78
UTG+1: t37918 M = 6.32

Pre Flop: (t6000) Hero is MP1 with Q A
3 folds, Hero raises to t5000, MP2 raises to t25310 all in, 4 folds, Hero calls t20310

Flop: (t56620) 2 8 7 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Turn: (t56620) 6 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t56620) 4 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t56620

Hero shows Q A (high card Ace)
MP2 shows A K (high card Ace - King kicker)

MP2 wins t56620

and this was not so nice in hot 11


Poker Stars $10+$1 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t200/t400 Blinds + t50 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

MP2: t6221 M = 5.92
CO: t4431 M = 4.22
BTN: t7793 M = 7.42
SB: t4806 M = 4.58
BB: t7618 M = 7.26
UTG: t2510 M = 2.39
UTG+1: t9948 M = 9.47
Hero (UTG+2): t10938 M = 10.42
MP1: t8960 M = 8.53

Pre Flop: (t1050) Hero is UTG+2 with 9 9
2 folds, Hero raises to t800, 2 folds, CO raises to t4381 all in, 3 folds, Hero calls t3581

Flop: (t9812) A 2 2 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Turn: (t9812) 4 (2 players - 1 is all in)

River: (t9812) 6 (2 players - 1 is all in)

Final Pot: t9812

CO shows 5 5 (a flush, Ace high)
Hero shows 9 9 (two pair, Nines and Deuces)

CO wins t9812

shipped a small satty, only T$16.50, but better than nothing

still handing on in hot 11

also still doing just about OK in 2r