Hey what stake are you playing live poker? And why did you start playing online instead? I suppose you are still grinding live, right?

Looking forward

Every so often, the nearest Casino is like an hour away by car and with a young family.its hard finding (and justifying) the time

Sadly I am not playing live atm because I can't afford it (need to pay my debts off 1st). Live is where I'd like to be however, that's what "real poker" is to me fwtw.

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Whoa - congrats my man! Great stuff, that's some grade A + life EV right there

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I understand the struggles cos im struggling myself currently

Power to you mate

Thanks - and you matey!

Happy New Year all btw!

I am a slave. No matter what they tell me or how they try to spin it. I am a slave and at times it takes everything I've got just to keep it together. At least on the surface. Plaster on my "regular normal guy" face, shut my mouth and get back to work. Ignore the ridiculously packed tube ride every morning, battling all the other slaves so that I too can be uncomfortably cramped in to no space at all; mashed into each other with our stupid little cheap white shirts no one likes or wants to wear. And the 30 minute lunch break. The feeling of exhaustion I have on Friday. The sheer dread I feel. Every. Single. Sunday.

I don't know what it is inside of me that won't let me be content with having what are largely considered a good job and a relatively stable career trajectory. Best I've ever had by a mile. I try and push these thoughts away, push them down and hope they won't surge back up with such mind-shattering force that they tear me to pieces.

I am not made for this. With every second that passes I feel that I'm selling my life. My freedom. My dreams. My sanity. For some money. I have the immense opportunity to be the best obedient employee I can be and all I have to give in return is just about everything. Because it's not just most of my time (9 hours per day + 1 hour 30 minutes commute - each way); it's the mental drain of constantly pretending (to myself and everyone around me) that everything is fine and I've no higher aspirations than minimally impacting the bottom line of some ****ing soulless, colorless, passionless, humorless money making machine. I am an insignificant number on an endless spreadsheet. As easily replaceable as a worn out ol' shovel.

I just want to be free.

Then do the work. Save the money. Put in the time. Your choices led you to this. You choices can lead to something else. This can be a springboard or a prison depending on you and your choices.

You write well really well in fact. You write about what you want from poker but not what you are willing to give to it or for it.

Don’t write about the sum of your choices like it was forced upon you. Make a plan, be accountable and honest with yourself and get to work. Almost never does fortune and freedom just drop on you door step. Almost always over night success was years in the making. If you want something different then go for it. But go for it with a plan and with wide open eyes that you will have to put in the time and the work for only the chance to get what you want. Pursuit of your dreams is a human right, not the attainment of those dreams. Attainment takes work time and positive variance.

If you are waiting for change to come to you, I loathe bearing bad news but change does not come it only exists if you create it.


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Yoo, what up Icanadd!

Man, thanks so much for the feedback. As always I couldn't agree more.

To qualify my post a little bit: I'm fully aware of just how whiny and self entitled it was. "Waaa the world isn't how I want it to be and it's not fair waaa!". The reason I posted that was because that was I was carrying around in my soul and I just followed DGAF's "rule" to just let it fly, unedited - no matter how stupid/ lame/ cringy w/e.

It was really just me spewing, blowing off some steam.

But regardless, it feels really great to have you still follow this thread AND give ridiculoualy valuable feedback. Thank you.

Hope you're doing well & GL against DGAF with the next round(s) of sports betring

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