Progress Report:
Health:
Workouts Completed this week: (2/4)
Times leaving diet guidelines: 3
20 Minute Meditation Session: 6/7
Books Read: 0/1
Body Weight +/-: -11 lbs. (since beginning of year)
Wealth:
Training Videos Watched: 1/1
Hours in the lab: 2/2
Sessions played: 3/4
Hours put into researching new avenues of revenue generation: 0
Weekly Proft: +3344
Yearly Profit: +11247
Live Poker Profit This Year: +5918
Book Review: Didn't get around to reading this week. I want to read "Tools of Titans" by Tim Ferriss this week.
Story of Leaving Comfort Zone: This isn't really a huge deal or anything but volunteered myself to be captain of intramural soccer team. I usually just avoid these types of roles because they involve needless hassle and organization etc but I thought **** it why not take on the responsibility.
Hands:
https://www.boomplayer.com/23602121_09ECFF2FEE
villain is russian fish. had like the nut worst sunday but still feel like i have to jam river. afterall, a correct value betting strategy involves value owning yourself sometimes imo. felt gross haha
https://www.boomplayer.com/23598868_3FDA3B6374
disaster
https://www.boomplayer.com/23596230_218E5219DA
another disaster vs poker duffy. kinda owned myslef here.
Random Rant of the Week:
Bleh, just looking back at those hands gives me nightmares from my Sunday session. Ironically, the session before that I had a huge day getting 2nd in the big 33 BB and ft'd the BB 55, so I was feeling pretty motivated leading up to sunday.
Took a responsible line of not going out drinking Saturday night. Went to dinner with a couple friends and then just came home and did some lab work. Woke early as I usually do on Sundays, and really didn't feel great. Had some resemblance of the beginning of a cold w/ sore throat and foggy mind etc. Regretfully, I pushed through it and just couldn't pull it together. Got medicated af before the grind w/ advil, vitamin c, copious amounts of coffee etc but ran HORRID. literally cashed like 2-3 tourneys all day
Still feel pretty "off" so I think it's best to take time off until I feel motivated again.
As for everything else, I've sort of fell off the rails the last few weeks. Feeling so indifferent about everything but I think my vacation out to Alberta next week should really help me regain my perspective. Gonna go on some nature hikes this week and start the intramural season which I think will also help me get back on track!
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“Don't let the expectations and opinions of other people affect your decisions. It's your life, not theirs. Do what matters most to you; do what makes you feel alive and happy. Don't let the expectations and ideas of others limit who you are. If you let others tell you who you are, you are living their reality — not yours. There is more to life than pleasing people. There is much more to life than following others' prescribed path. There is so much more to life than what you experience right now. You need to decide who you are for yourself. Become a whole being. Adventure.”
― Roy T. Bennett
This week I want to talk about authenticity. Why? I've come to believe that we as humans, CRAVE this. We crave others who are authentic and they can be real with us. We want to get to our default of acting authentic...our true selves. Finding and being our true selves is our baseline...so where do we go wrong?
Warning:
Over thousands of years humans have traveled in tribes of ~100 people. What happens if your tribe abandons you?
-You starve and die
-You get eaten by a sabre tooth tiger
-You live by your lonesome and are deprived of the social experiences you need for survival.
Let's put it this way: being accepted by your tribe was imperative for survival.
We are hard wired to conform to the norms of a group because survival is the most primal instinct of all beings and conformity meant survival.
Fast forward a few thousand years to 2017...The world's population has now succeeded 7 Billion people and our instincts are still the same as they were when sabre tooth tigers and wooly mammoths roamed the earth.
Somewhere along our live's paths we stop acting authentic because if our family's abandon us, we die. If our family scrutinizes us for liking girls/guys, sports/cars/barbies/pokemon, pink/blue/yellow/black/brown, or whatever else...we learn to suppress that.
If we get scrutinized for being loud in public, or talking to a stranger, or having "cooties" etc we suppress that. Sadly, this subconscious suppression follows us into adult life. This constant desire to conform ensues. To conform, we learn to put on a "front". Moreover, some type of "facade" that masks what we repress, because we crave acceptance.
Everyone puts on these "fronts" that make them socially acceptable. I'm sure we've all met the "overly fake and friendly person", "the class clown", "the tough guy", etc etc
We've also probably met (and appreciated) the guy or girl who we connected with on a deep level because they could be completely comfortable with themselves. They didn't hide anything and were just real people.
It's my belief that most of us resonate deeply with this type of "real/authentic" energy and people are deeply attracted to this type of stuff. It shows that they've been accepted for their true selves and can make/lead with our own decisions. So many people are just sheep wanting to be led (I've definitely fallen under that category in the past).
Afterall, who was leading these tribes and empowering some of the great developments we've made as a race? Martin Luther King didn't conform to social norms and propelled a movement that bettered the lives of millions of people (and that's just one example).
Rejection ****ing sucks and we hate it so much as a species. We could have 99 great experiences with one behaviour, and one bad one...and we would probably repress that behaviour.
Sorry for the huge rant (bravo if you got through it all). I feel I should maybe start making a better effort to organize these rants and map my thoughts before randomly spewing onto the page as I go. But thats half the fun of ranting isnt it
GL this week my bros may the power of the poker gods be with you