A little background
Some weeks ago, I made a list of the most absurd things I've ever done when on tilt. I did laugh quite a bit while compiling it (writing about kicking a hole into a door after losing a $1,000 flip is so much funnier than actually doing it haha), but it was pretty depressing for the most part so I'd rather not post it. I've been playing Poker for 15 years and I'm up like $10,000 overall (losing at No Limit Holdem, specifically in tournaments, breaking even at PLO and winning big at O8), but it's fair to say that Poker cost me much, much more than that in terms of opportunity costs. Luckily, I somehow managed to turn my real life around in the last 5 years so I (literally) have a job for life now and my Poker results won't have an influence on my well being unless I suddenly start crushing (I won't).
How I tilt
What I do basically every day is tilt rage in chat, play when I'm super tired/only just stood up/haven't eaten/taken a shower yet yada yada yada. I'm super terrible when it comes to managing my sessions and my bankroll. I play whatever I want to play. I have no clue whether I'm up or down for the week (despite winning $50 from a leaderboard and winning a small tournament twice in three days
).
**** Omaha Manager
I do use Omaha Manager, but I only have the Small Stakes version which doesn't help much if you play and lose at stakes higher than PLO(8) 50. What's more, it also ****s up hands played at NLO8 tables by calculating absurd amounts of rake if you're running it twice. Anyway, this is my month so far according to my database:
Why do I create this thread?
I've been meaning to do this for quite some time now and today's horrible session finally made it inevitable. I somehow managed to get it in stone dead in two consecutive O8 pots (each worth 1/10 of my "bankroll" lol) which is basically impossible unless you're playing really, really bad. Just another "hit the tables straight out of bed and get killed" session:
As for my "bankroll", I think I started the month around $300, dropped down to $50, got up to $600 (playing stakes from PLO8 2 to PLO 8 600 haha), lost back quite a bit and this is where I am right now:
I would like to
1. create some kind of accountability by forcing myself to continually post updates in this thread and either buying a full license for Omaha Manager or only playing below PLO8 50 (which would be reasonable anyway)
2. stop being such a ****ing degenerate (like sitting at NLO8 $3/$6 when you have $300 in your account and open jamming the first hand lol)
3. insulate Poker from my real life (eg no meaningful deposits from now on, don't let Poker have an influence on my sleeping schedule)
4. fix my massive tilt leaks. I won't happen today and I won't happen tomorrow, but I might get there in the long term.
Last edited by dingdongdonkey; 07-24-2021 at 07:27 AM.