Day 23 - The Power of Quitting
No, not quitting the challenge... quitting the session. An important skill to have, and a difficult one when doing a challenge such as this.
3,000 hands in, and my head is all over the place. Emotional responses to everything, thought processes missing, judgement way off. A fuzz in my head with a foul mood to go along with it. I shut down the tables and went to find my copy of the Mental Game of Poker, by Jared Tendler, which I highly recommend to anyone that isn't a robot.. and there was the answer...
Malfunctioning mind..
When the emotional system becomes overactive, it shuts down higher brain functions
It talks about how the brain is organised in a hierarchy. The first being basic functions, such as breathing, the second is emotional system, and the third is the higher level thinking, creativity, emotional control etc.
When the second function, the emotional control, shuts down, it stops the third from functioning properly, and there is nothing you can do about it. In other words, recognise when it happens and do it fast, because there is no coming back from it without resolving the problem first.
I went away, still feeling the fuzz, the emotion in my mind, and watched TV for an hour. When I started to feel a bit more normal, I watched a couple of poker videos with similar level and styles of play to me, and would pause before each decision and talk about what I would do and why. Gradually everything came back, and not long after I fired up 4 zoom tables, ignoring the overload of further ring games, and continued my day, fully aware that I would finish a couple of thousand VPP's below what I needed. Every hour I would sit out for a couple of minutes and reflect on how I'm performing mentally, which also acts as a further reminded if I get tempted by any distractions.
It was the difference between having a -$3-4,000 day, and a profitable day. Lesson learned.