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Old 06-20-2019, 05:59 PM   #151
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This guy from copenhagen has like the sickest brand ever. Every time people talk about top notch restaurants NOMA comes up. What they do is fascinating, so it's probably justified.

Oladipo, I really enjoyed reading this, you come off like a great guy. As a fellow addict, whose life is somewhat falling apart, I'm intrigued by your willpower. Having your life balance in check with an addictive personality while making it in this competitive/toxic poker-environment is more than impressive. Kudos to you!

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Which restaurant are you talking about? Is it Noma?

Love the vlog idea. You should totally do it. I think a large audience would find it interesting if you presented it in the right way.
I appreciate it, I will follow through with it I think (I'm even bringing my chef's coat for the vlog's haha).

I still haven't named the restaurant in here - I'll let the cat out of the bag my first day at the restaurant! (July 7th).

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This guy from copenhagen has like the sickest brand ever. Every time people talk about top notch restaurants NOMA comes up. What they do is fascinating, so it's probably justified.

Oladipo, I really enjoyed reading this, you come off like a great guy. As a fellow addict, whose life is somewhat falling apart, I'm intrigued by your willpower. Having your life balance in check with an addictive personality while making it in this competitive/toxic poker-environment is more than impressive. Kudos to you!

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Thanks man, sorry to hear your life is falling apart, I certainly know the drill. My willpower is solely a product of its necessity in my life. It was that or die for me.

And thanks, I am a "great guy" these days. I actually just hit another year sober on the 21st, and I look around and am just really proud of who I've become since getting sober.

Anyways........

6/25/19






WEEKLY RECAP (Week’s total in parentheses):

June 17th - June 23rd

Meditation - 7 days/week (4 days)

AA meetings
- 1/week (3)

Stretching - 70 minutes/week (30)

Pio/poker study - 80 mins/week (80)

Reading - 140 mins/week (0)

Yoga/Core Routine - 3 days (3 days)

POKER

Here are all Ignition hands in my new computer, I got the computer about a month and a half ago iirc so I’m pretty happy with this kind of volume (38 days played). It’s a complete joke how bad I’ve run on that site this year, I’m well above 50k below ev on the year. I don’t really care about that as I know I’ll get my due but it’s made it really tough to play my A game for stretches, losing every flip, every 70/30, and every week looking back to see yet again my equity graph go steadily up with my $ earned only a fraction of what it should be. In any case, Chico is going well also and it gives me a lot of confidence going forward with poker. The best regs are better than on ignition, so had to adjust a good amount.


LIFE

The day has come! Tonight we fly out to Copenhagen and then to Bergen, Norway, where we will spend a week checking out the fjords. I’m beyond excited. I’ve really worked to get to the point where I can take some time off of work without being stressed about it. I’ve wanted to visit Scandinavia since I was a kid, and here we are, to this point I have succeeded, I am proud of that.

I picked up the engagement ring, it’s so perfect, I am not a jewelry guy by any stretch of the imagination and my jaw absolutely hit the floor when I saw it.

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Old 07-02-2019, 08:55 AM   #153
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Hello from Stockholm!

Sorry no proper update this last week, was bouncing around Western Norway for the last week and will get to it soon.

Norway was amazing. What a place. We spent 6 days in Bergen and took two separate trips into the fjords. I’ve had Norway at the top of my list since I was a kid and it blew every expectation I had for it out of the water. I will write a proper write-up post vacation if people are interested.

Because I’ve said I was going to finally tell the thread where I am working once I got here, I can say it now - I am working at Faviken for the next 3 months. Those familiar with the food industry will know why I was so excited to come here.

Anyways, quick 3 days in Stockholm then to Are, which is the closest town to Faviken. I’ll be working there Tuesday-Saturday during my time there (my last day is Sept 30th, where I get to eat dinner in the restaurant). I’ve rented an airbnb for my time there in the city center, close to everything, including a gym (but of course).

In my free time I will be checking out the area, doing foraging/sourcing for the restaurant, and ofc I’ll on the grind, which is going well! No more ignition, but on one new site and getting on some others too. I’ve played some, but really don’t like to push that too much as I see the definite difference in the quality of my output from when I play at my proper professional setup (monitor, nice chair, good posture) vs laptop travel grinding from a couch or whatever.

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Old 07-02-2019, 09:07 AM   #154
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So sick, man!!! Wp
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Old 07-02-2019, 09:31 AM   #155
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Dude that's amazing!! What role will you be working? Will you be working with Magnus directly?

As a forager myself, I'm super jealous.
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Old 07-02-2019, 04:44 PM   #156
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All great news bro, happy to hear it What position will you hold in the Faviken kitchen?
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Old 07-05-2019, 07:36 PM   #157
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^^^ will answer these in next 2 days

Last day in Stockholm was today, flying to Are tomorrow, where I will be able to set up with a proper grind setup. I’ve been playing some on my trip but not too much, just wanted to get an update in. The vacation has been the absolute best, but I’m ready to have a routine again. Im starting to get reads on the regs on the new site and ofc my win rate will improve because of that, especially at 2k when there are drastically different styles between regs and better players obv. I would give most of my hours since leaving a B and not an A, but have easily paid for my vacation in this time, which is a nice feeling.



Gl at the tables everybody
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That winrate at those stakes is absurd. I just can’t imagine wtf you are doing at the tables to crush so hard. I’m stuck at 400 with a bunch of nits!
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I mean, thatís a rly small sample, my real winrate is somewhere btwn 5-11
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Old 07-06-2019, 01:12 AM   #160
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Keep crushing it bro, happy to see you with your shyt together in just about every area of life Not that I have an idea where you were at during your degen days, but having had a (somewhat) similar path, I fathom, I can picture it... Peace
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Yeah it’s a small kitchen, so everyone works with everyone. I can’t wait to learn foraging, it’s what I want to focus on the most

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All great news bro, happy to hear it What position will you hold in the Faviken kitchen?
I didnt apply for any specific position; when I emailed them I just sent my resume and a letter stating why I want to work there, which is:

It’s the only restaurant that places this much emphasis on locality and sustainability while maintaining this standard - they only import the salt, and produce everything else - and that I am from a similar climate and would like to open a restaurant that employs the same practices.

So I am there just to work and learn, it’s basically what I think every restaurant should strive to be, as we pass nature on a downward slope to what I see as our species’ almost-inevitable demise. I will work as much as they let me while there, basically do whatever it takes to maximize my learning during my time. On their end they get an experienced set of hands. I don’t care and never asked about a position or anything like that.

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Thanks man! The bad years consisted of the usual stuff that goes along with late stage addiction - homelessness, jails, seizures, rehabs, doing whatever to feed the beast. I drank and used drugs recreationally (but always heavily) until my late 20’s, when my addictions progressed and I basically went into complete denial, refusing to recognize my life was falling apart and going out every night for years in a row under the guise of being a party animal. Then, one day I woke and up and thought of trying to just keep going in the morning to try to stop the shakes. I started drinking and doing lines after waking up, full throttle around the clock, and things got really bad really fast.

Appreciate the well wishes, though. It wasn’t that long ago that I had literally nothing and was living day to day. I actually just hit another year sober on the 21st, which makes me reflective. I’m a long ways from being “good” - i turn 37 in November and came into sobriety with nothing - but I am a hard ass worker, and I think I can stay competitive for years to come, until I have some capital and can start to transition out. I only started playing online in December after years of not playing, so yeah just goes to show you how many people in poker DON’T know how to work hard!

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Old 07-08-2019, 06:45 AM   #162
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damn, congrats on Faviken opportunity. Remember watching Chef's table @netflix and thought that Faviken must be on every chefs to go list
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7/23/19

Work has been busier than expected, they had said that I would be working 2pm-10pm, but I end up working around 13 hours a day all in all. That being said, am learning a lot, and more than anything just f*cking love living back in the mountains where everyone is outside and being active. God I am tired of living in cities. Didn't play any poker for a week, excited to get back in the mix. Running poorly over last stretch, stoked to get some real volume in.

I proposed to my gf in a little nook close to the top of the highest mountain here (Areskutan). I didn't think it would really change anything, but I feel an even deeper bond than before, which is a great feeling.

I'm working out like a madman, that is literally all I have time to do in the morning before work, so I am getting in good shape. Would be even better if I didn’t have to eat what we do at the restaurant for family meal. My girlfriend leaves this Friday so I will ask to get transferred to a morning shift at some point soon so I can start getting back on a normal routine. Once I feel like I have learned everything I can learn, anyways. I'll end up doing that video series (basically, how to get in really good shape in 2 months) where I dispel a lot of common myths, etc. I want to start creating content for whatever I end up doing down the road.

Have done some really cool sh*t, today borrowed a co-workers car and ended up baking traditional swedish tunnbrod in a centuries-old little bakers shop next to a mine here in Are. A guy who opened up Faviken with Magnus runs it now.

The property that Faviken is on (a 20,000 acre property owned by Patrik Brummer, much of it a working farm) - and the restaurant itself - is amazing, almost fairy-tale like. I don't imagine there is a restaurant that provides anything close to the experience that it provides. There's a ton that goes into it that you wouldn't expect. Magnus is a really interesting person, I don't ever want to spill the beans on what he is like ofc but I do want to say it's soooo great to watch our guests approach and talk to him - he is basically worshipped.

The food is good, some of it amazing. The beef is completely changing the game for me, you’ve just never had good beef until you’ve had an 8-9 year old cow raised well, then aged. (For those that don’t know, virtually no one eats beef like this). All this nonsense about marbling is just that - nonsense. Real flavor takes time to develop.

The kitchen is choreographed down to the minute, I've never seen anything this fine-tuned, nothing even close, and I've worked and staged in a number of 2 and 3 star places.

As always, the experience ends up being about the people, and the people here have been awesome. The Faviken crew are just a good group of people, I would say the restaurant for sure draws a certain type.

Sweden is interesting for sure, there are really crazy benefits to living here - the AM sous here is an Aussie who is with a Swedish gal and is getting his citizenship, we've talked a lot and he basically enjoys:

- free healthcare
- free child care after 1 year of age
- 14 mo's maternity leave for mom, 6 for dad
- if you buy property and build a house, govt subsidizes 50% of the labor
- retirement benefits that make ours look laughable in comparison
- free schooling

...and all that at around 33% income taxation, which makes me feel like wtf was I paying 34% for in San Francisco?

I'm loving the experience, am soaking up every minute, but I do miss my (self-imposed) routine, and I am excited to get back to making money.

I came to some really astute realizations about poker during my break that make me more confident than ever, I literally am just so excited to get back on it.

GL at the tables

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Old 07-22-2019, 11:50 PM   #164
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Great update, you seem happy bro 33% for all those benefits We have similar in Quebec, but but the largest tax bracket pays 54%, if I am not mistaken... We were also called Cuba of North America for a reason back in the 60-70s
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POKER/LIFE


I came to some realizations regarding my mental game. I have had a rough year variance-wise, enough to where if I was any weaker mentally I'd have broken by now.

However, I'm as happy as a clam. This is how I've gladly chosen to live my life, and instead of dwelling on how hard it's been, I'm focused on changing what I can, in my case getting back to being more vigilant of my daily routine. I've been really busy and because of that slacked on the stuff I do every day to make sure I play my A game. Although a lot of my struggles have been due to variance, I have exacerbated them by forcing it, playing too much B game, getting annoyed, basically having weak mental game all around. That inevitably results in in-game mistakes. I don't tilt off buyins and I obv never do any degen sh*t, but now that I'm back into having a full time poker slate, it's time to get back to my routines.

Every night, I will be writing in my journal, which is a way to recap my day. I will be checking off the "musts" for me - meditation, my yoga routine, and one pre-session routine, either watching a strategy video or going over my hands from the day before.

I won't be posting in here as often, as it feels more masturbatory than anything - look at me, I'm living abroad, look at the money I'm making, etc. I'll use it more as a public journal than anything and to keep in touch with people from the forums, and down the road it will be cool to look back and reflect. I've realized through talking to friends that it was pretty stupid to post graphs in the first place as all it does is wake up other players to the fact that the games I'm playing in are beatable.

Other than that, life is good. Sweden is amazing, I'm done with my time at Faviken. I was planning on a trip to Lofoten but I am ready to get back to my work/life balance I enjoy so much. Plus, the euro time zone is the nut low for poker - if you want to play in good games you basically have to go on a vampire schedule.

Everything else is good, fiancee (still feels weird to call her that) is great and just started school in ATL, so I'll ship it out of here soon to go be with her.

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I honestly highly doubt you are waking any additional people up to games, but since there's no positives that can come from it they are prob right that you'd be better off not doing it. The only reason to really have a pgc at all is if you find it valuable for you in some way that obv will most likely not be monetary, for example if you feel it gives you some motivation. Good luck in Atlanta!
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I really like this thread, so sad that you won't update as much. But do what you gotta do.
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I honestly highly doubt you are waking any additional people up to games, but since there's no positives that can come from it they are prob right that you'd be better off not doing it. The only reason to really have a pgc at all is if you find it valuable for you in some way that obv will most likely not be monetary, for example if you feel it gives you some motivation. Good luck in Atlanta!
Hey, thanks. Yeah, at first I used it for accountability and motivation, but I also know that coming in here and showing my results was making me feel good about myself, and I really try to avoid that kind of stuff in general, because ego-based thinking is a big issue for me and runs basically parallel to my chemical addictions. I basicallly avoid anything that strokes my ego (not that my results of late would be stroking my ego, anyways...)

Thanks man! Are you hitting up that new Boston cardroom?

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8/13/19

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Alright, found some good news. I did a deep dive into my database today. Turns out I'm not as good at HU as I thought I was. Basically, on the site I have been playing, good games don't run unless they go around fish. The level of bumhunting is pretty unreal and pretty damn aggravating (4 regs insta-sitting out if the fish busts, even if he's still at the table). Only a select few of the regs will try to get a game going, which is pretty pathetic considering fish will ALWAYS join if there's a game running.

But, I found out early on that because I don't have a script, if I just played HU or 3handed, eventually a fish sits, and oftentimes I'd see a fish popping on my different tables, looking for a "good one" to play in - proof that my strategy of sitting and playing was +ev. On top of it, there's a very profitable rake race (AND I receive rakeback) so I figured it would be really plus ev because since basically no one else plays shorthanded at high stakes, it's fairly easy to take the rake race down every week.

At first, I was winning heaps HU, because I was new on the site and the regs would play me. Then, one at a time, all but a handful of them stopped playing me. I still thought I had an edge on a couple of the few who remained, but it doesn't look like it (and there's a lot of speculation that 3 of them use HU software). Ofc sometimes it's really hard to tell who has the edge between reg battles when the distribution matters so much, but I think I probably told myself that was the reason when really it was a combination of that AND the fact that I didn't have an edge at all. On top of it, my mental game really takes a hit when someone is running well against me, and I can go from A game to B or C game a lot faster than when I'm playing with a full table. Even more than all of that, up until recently I was trying to balance work at the restaurant with poker, and I was just too overloaded.

Over my entire database on this site, 70k hands, I'm losing, and it's been a long, brutal stretch. I have been on the short end of the distribution stick the entire time, and of late the EV has really swung in the other direction.

But, if I filter by 6 players or more (I've been playing some full ring), I'm actually a 3bb/100 winner in the sample.

One thing I really take to heart is that when things are not going well, you aren't stuck there - you can go and do something about it. I'm really happy to find this information out as it gives me confidence (much-needed after this stretch). I am proud that these days I'm the kind of person that makes positive change when I am having problems, and the answer going forward is clear - no more shorthanded or HU.

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Nope haven't checked out the new boston casino yet unfortunately. I prob will sometime in the next few weeks. I know a couple people who have been playing there and it doesn't seem like the quality of the bigger games has been that great and it's not really worth the travel/expense hassle unless there's decent biggish stuff going.
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but I also know that coming in here and showing my results was making me feel good about myself, and I really try to avoid that kind of stuff in general, because ego-based thinking is a big issue for me and runs basically parallel to my chemical addictions. I basicallly avoid anything that strokes my ego (not that my results of late would be stroking my ego, anyways...)
This is super interesting and i was hoping you could elaborate more on; 'ego-based thinking is a big issue for me and runs basically parallel to my chemical addictions'

I thought that a large part of recovery was to do with having your ego validated by external sources (a sponsor, a group etc), so as to remain abstinent.

I wonder if having your results validated here (or your ego stroked as you put it) would actually be of benefit to your psychological well-being. That said, perhaps the crux is that you then feel that positive affirmation only comes from winning results and you don't wanna post negative results cus of the perceived damage to your ego

I have a feeling that I'm missing something and there is waaaay more to this. I think my understanding of ego:abstinence if likely off too.
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This is super interesting and i was hoping you could elaborate more on; 'ego-based thinking is a big issue for me and runs basically parallel to my chemical addictions'

I thought that a large part of recovery was to do with having your ego validated by external sources (a sponsor, a group etc), so as to remain abstinent.

I wonder if having your results validated here (or your ego stroked as you put it) would actually be of benefit to your psychological well-being. That said, perhaps the crux is that you then feel that positive affirmation only comes from winning results and you don't wanna post negative results cus of the perceived damage to your ego

I have a feeling that I'm missing something and there is waaaay more to this. I think my understanding of ego:abstinence if likely off too.
Hey Bena -

This is a complicated and multifaceted question, and since everyone has a different relationship wrt to their ego, it's largely dependent on that I suppose.

Everything affects people's ego, so you are right in saying that one gets their ego validated by support groups - but I would say that's missing the mark. Support groups, while having a positive effect on one's ego because of the validation one receives, have other, more important benefits - accountability, sense of community, unconditional support and understanding. However, one can get a healthy ego boost from attending and being a positive member of a community, I definitely agree with that.

When I talk about my ego, I refer to the fact that I never liked myself growing up, and have a "hole" resulting from that. No matter what I did in my life - I was good at sports, school, popular, and got any girl I wanted - my insecurity in myself always remained, and does to this day (although, through positive behavior, it's getting much better).

Because of the inherent insecurity, I've always done unhealthy things to make me feel better:

- being judgemental and condescending
- acting arrogant
- starting fights, either verbally or physically
- sleeping with women
- bragging

I know a lot of people have problems like this to varying degrees, but mine are woven really deeply into my personality because I spent my entire adult life trying to overcompensate for my issues rather than deal with them. When I developed this persona through partying - popular, got girls, "crazy", etc - the two fed off each other, and developed into this monster. Because my addiction is so progressed, when I relapse now, I immediately go into this bezerker hyper-agro mode where my brain doesn't even really function normally, solely as an expression of my ego, and I just try to satisfy my ego any way I can.

So, I avoid anything that trends towards that kind of behavior. At first it was really hard, I would do it automatically (especially because at 34 with nothing to my name I felt I had to qualify myself). Now I am doing really well with it, but it requires constant vigilance.

It made me feel "good" to post my results, but I could feel that it was because I received positive affirmation from people in this thread, not out of accountability - I have other ways I do that. If you look around, none of the top players post their results. Since I will always be a winning player, I'm only doing it to satisfy my ego, which is silly at this point.

It makes me feel so guilty to talk about this stuff in a public forum, because the way I lived my life was really shameful and embarrassing. I suppose that's healthy, though. Plus it feels good to look around and see that - the vast majority of the time - I am happy just being myself.

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really great post as always. if you wanted to post your thoughts on life or your experiences w/out graphs or much poker discussion I think most of us would stick around to hear them. obviously a lot of people do shameful/embarrassing/shitty things - but few people are able to fully recognize the source of their behavior and work to address it successfully - your story and perspective is really interesting and valuable. your posts always give me a lot to think about, so whether you keep going or not I appreciate what you've shared so far
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Solid post friend. 2 + 2 needs more of these introspective and mature reflections. Thx for sharing
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Wow.

This is a story full of emotion.

Keep sharing your journey.

gr8 job mate.
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