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Old 04-13-2019, 06:14 AM   #101
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I see you've been welcomed to 2K in standard ignition fashion. Gl with the grind.
hehe, pretty brutal week in sklansky bucks
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Old 04-14-2019, 03:09 PM   #102
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Thanks Ponty! I’ve run even worse since then. We actually played a bit against e/o awhile back on stars. I was switching to 6max from hu and I remember you telling me you thought I was good in chat. Appreciated it at the time bc I didn’t know much about 6m, and thought you were a good player
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Ha, that limits you to a very small list of players then! Glad things are going well in general, will be following.
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lol too true

in. GL OP!
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Old 04-17-2019, 11:42 PM   #105
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Ha, that limits you to a very small list of players then! Glad things are going well in general, will be following.
Haha, yeah I am fairly certain it was you. I remember your name and remember seeing you here in the forums. Thanks for the well wishes and hope things are going well for you as well.
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4/17/19

WEEKLY RECAP (Week’s total in parentheses)

April 8th - April 14th

Personal Admin - 120 mins/week (120)

Meditation - 7 days/week (5 days)

AA meetings - 1/week (0)

Stretching - 10 minutes/day (30 mins)

Cleaning - 60 mins/week (30)

Pio/poker study - 120 mins/week (120)

Reading - 140 mins/week (20)

POKER

The internet at my girlfriend’s mom’s house is slow and I’m having a hard time opening ignition on Parallels, so graph will have to wait, but April has been as bad as hopefully it can go from a variance perspective. I lost those bi's from last week at 2k, then dropped a bunch more at 1k, and dropped down to playing some 500 to get my confidence back. My downswing is over 20 bi’s, so I’m going to grind 10 bi’s out at 500 then get back in the 1k games.

At first, I thought I was just downswinging, and that is definitely the biggest part of things. More than just running below EV, it (seems like) every time this month that I have a value hand (that’s getting a river bet called on a blank), I get the card that either ruins my action or improves his range vs mine.

However, I know better than to rest on my haunches and I won’t (just) blame it on variance.

Looking back on it, I see that I should have taken a break sooner. I was:

- Working a full time job (one that requires 10hrs+ 5 days a week, all on my feet, working hard)
- Putting in 40 hours a week of poker on top of that
- Hitting the gym hard
- I moved from my apartment of 1.5 years on EXTREMELY short notice,
moved the entire apartment in a day, and moved into a home with my
girlfriend’s family
- Started commuting, which takes another 3 hours total of my day

I did all that and didn’t even think about adjusting my poker volume. I played a lot of tired hours, just trying to put in that volume to “get through the downswing”.

I know one reason for doing it is because I officially put in my notice, which I want to take a minute to reflect on so I can come back and read it. When I had this idea back in December, I didn’t want to get my hopes up. Now I can confidently say that I am going into this with 100% certitude that not only will I will be able to make a living from poker, but that once again I will be able to compete at a high level. Although regs are “better” because of more knowledge, once that knowledge is attained (which is fairly easy), the games are no harder to beat than they were 3 years ago. I think from an ability standpoint (in-game adjusting etc), regs are far worse because the answers are so much easier to attain. I’m really happy to be back in the mix.

However, putting in the notice definitely made me feel like I needed to grind out a bunch of volume when really it was completely unnecessary to push so hard. I have 2 whole months to sit back and grind a ton of hours.

The other reason is that I have an insatiable desire to succeed, to achieve a sense of having “made it” financially, born out of a fear from living for awhile on the other side. I spent a lot of time as a loser, surrounded by losers, that I have an irrational fear of losing what I have worked so hard over the last two years to build.

This is, like I said, completely irrational. I have only met a few people in my life who I’d say have a similar work ethic, and I say all the time that work ethic and drive are the most important aspects of being a successful poker player (or a successful anything).

I need to be able to step back when I get out of balance, take some breaths, and realize that I just don’t need to charge that hard! I’ll end up doing that just because of my nature, I don’t have to push even HARDER when things aren’t going well. It's not that I played BADLY, at all - but I could have sat it out and found my A-game mindset.

That’s pretty much it from me poker-wise. One thing I'm really stoked about is my poker circle is getting wider, I've met a couple guys through the forums I genuinely like and connect with, and it's really exciting to know that we are going to grow and get better together, developing our games and our friendship at the same time.

I've really come to value my relationships now. My whole life, I was so concerned about being this or that, and ofc part of that was always being part of the cool crowd. I wasted a lot of years being the coolest guy in the room, never giving much of myself or my time. I was content to sit there with a hot girl on my arm, getting f*cked up.

Now, I give myself completely in my relationships, without concern of what the other person thinks of me or if I get the same in return.

My relationships, all of them, are so much better because of that. Although ofc I wish I would have learned how to be myself completely at an earlier age, but I never would have. I'm just really happy to have learned at all.


LIFE

I got my knife, which is awesome. Also, I booked my place in LA! I’ll be staying in a downtown loft in LA from May 16th-Jun 10th. I will literally just be playing poker for that entire time straight, with breaks for working out, reading, and the occasional social venture or checking out something in LA. My girlfriend decided to come for only a bit at the beginning, which I am STOKED about, because as much as I love the girl, I do best in poker when I completely focus.

I’ve got one of my best friends who lives in LA, an actor who got sober around the same time I did (we used to run around in Buenos Aires together), and I have another friend who I met through these forums (and the most random of mutual connections I’ve ever had) who has fast become a lifelong friend as well. I know some other people there as well from over the years, and I am really looking forward to a change of scenery. I didn’t much care for San Francisco.

I’ll be playing the vast majority of my volume online, and then to break it up I’ll be playing in the 2k games at the Commerce. I played some of the 1k games last time I was there and it was obv the nuts game-selection wise so I’ll be excited to change up the monotony of online with some live action. I am extremely confident in my live game; I'd step into any lineup, period.

GL AT THE TABLES

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Old 04-18-2019, 12:08 AM   #107
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a weekend trip or two to the wsop?
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Old 04-18-2019, 12:24 AM   #108
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Hey Fozzy! Do you still do HEM support? You helped me out a ton back in the day; much appreciated man.

I don't think so, my roll isn't anywhere NEAR big enough for large field tourneys. I think the following year I'll start playing the big live events.

I used to play the big tourneys on stars and did alright, but I've never played live tournaments. It seems like SUCH a drag to go and play perfect poker for that period of time and have nothing to show for it. I don't know if it's for me. Furthermore, I don't really like the prospect of being around a ton of other poker players. I've met many and liked few. All that being said, though, I suppose if you can stand it the soft fields and huge payoffs make it worth it.

You going? Do you play these days? iirc you were semi or fully retired before.
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Only a matter of time before things start turning in my favor

Q9ss<A3ss on 975ss

43ss<64o on 443 6 Q runout vs mega whale. Sickest part is I thought about flatting his river donk (after I raised his turn donk) but can’t not stick it in there

QKhh, fish calls 3bet, flop A66 one heart, calls my bet, calls turn on 3h, calls river shove on 8h with A6

AK<A3 AIPF

All in on turn with 67 after i cr'd K53, hit nuts on turn....against A2bdfl and he scoops

I'm not even tilted though; actually tonight was the best I've played in April. Just not hit with the rungood yet. Soon enough!

Was very therapeutic to write today, made me reflect and realize a lot. Really thankful to have this forum for that.

Sidenote: I feel I’m seeing way less hands/he than 20% less of what we were seeing before the update, anyone else feel that way?

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Old 04-18-2019, 02:59 AM   #110
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Nice update, I wish all the good posters would indulge in wall of texts

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The internet at my girlfriend’s mom’s house is slow and I’m having a hard time opening ignition on Parallels,
Why do you choose to play on a VM, may I ask...?

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Looking back on it, I see that I should have taken a break sooner. I was:

- Working a full time job (one that requires 10hrs+ 5 days a week, all on my feet, working hard)
- Putting in 40 hours a week of poker on top of that
- Hitting the gym hard
- I moved from my apartment of 1.5 years on EXTREMELY short notice,
moved the entire apartment in a day, and moved into a home with my
girlfriend’s family
- Started commuting, which takes another 3 hours total of my day
Man, that schedule seems INTENSE af How are you handling your downswing? Or more precisely : do you still feel emotionally balanced with(in) this workload?

GL
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Old 04-18-2019, 05:05 AM   #111
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loving the mental resilience

uptick coming for sure!
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Old 04-18-2019, 08:06 AM   #112
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uptick coming for sure!
This.

Your work ethic is unbelievable! Gl man!

Vaaaamoooo
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Old 04-18-2019, 09:49 AM   #113
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We are getting less hands since the update. Rabbit cam and shipping pots to the winners take significantly longer than before, and people are also not used to the software/hotkey stuff may not be working so many people act slower
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Why do you choose to play on a VM, may I ask...?



Man, that schedule seems INTENSE af How are you handling your downswing? Or more precisely : do you still feel emotionally balanced with(in) this workload?

GL
VM: I have a Mac, which doesnít let you import hands from ignition to pt4. Right now, Iím using an old computer to upload my hands into pt4, so all my hands are on that computer. If you are Mac-savvy and have a solution I am all ears because I also tried to install boot camp, to no avail. It kept saying there wasnít enough space even though I got a new flash drive with extra memory.

How Iím handling my downswing: I wasnít handling it well for a week or so, I was getting tilted easily. I actually annoyed one of my friends because I kept complaining on WhatsApp. That really helped me when he told me it was getting to be a bit much because it made me realize I needed to refocus on the fact that I am a professional and this is part of the gig, and that all Iím responsible for is putting in good hours.

My emotional state is always relatively great because of my sobriety. Basically, I was either up or down before getting sober and I didnít know how to maintain a balance. Now the balance is part of what I need to stay sober, so I am really good at monitoring it for the most part (Iím not that way by nature, so I have to monitor it and be active in staying that way). This was my first major downswing since I started in December and I suppose it just took me by surprise after winning nonstop for awhile. Itís definitely been good for me to go through it.

Thanks man
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I play on ignition too but hate the new software - and honestly just don't trust it. I like global poker better, but it only goes up to 5/T and also tough to get games on it.

The downswings on there are so unreal - like it sets you up for failure.
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4/21/19

Just a quick update because I won’t be doing my normal weekly post until I get back from camping.

April has gone from bad to worse from a variance perspective and I’m in the midst of probably will be about a 30 buyin downer.

I didn’t even think it was possible given the games I’m in, but it is what it is and I know I’m seeing the extreme side of the variance scale. I’m very far under ev and I’m not getting any easy ones to offset it, and I’m having a mental number of underflushes, undersets, 2 pair vs better 2 pair in 3 and 4bet pots etc.

However, I am doing literally all the right things and it’s only a matter of time before I turn it around. I took some time, I watched vids, I’m sending my peers line checks, I’m staying positive, I’m instaquitting if I feel even a tinge of tilt. It’s bad timing but it will make me tougher and better.

I just left today to camp for 2 days with my girlfriend for her bd, and it couldn’t have come at a better time. I just wanted to get this post up before signing off completely.

This is April, I am missing a week in hands which was actually probably my worst week (Speaking of which, does anyone know if you can get hands emailed to you older than 7 days or are they gone forever?). I’d love to get them because I think it’s probably smthg nutty like -25k (or quite possibly a good bit more) below ev in April.

Anyways here are my April results outside of that week:



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WEEKLY RECAP (Week’s total in parentheses)

April 15th - April 21st

Personal Admin - 120 mins/week (120)

Meditation - 7 days/week (5 days)

AA meetings - 1/week (0)

Stretching - 10 minutes/day (30 mins)

Cleaning - 60 mins/week (30)

Pio/poker study - 120 mins/week (120)

Reading - 140 mins/week (60)


POKER

After camping, I decided I was going to put in massive volume. I sat down yesterday morning determined to have a positive day, or at least get a bunch of hands trying. I literally sat there and decided not to stop playing until I turn things around. Obviously it’s not always going to work out like this, but I ended up putting in a bunch of hours the last two days and am up 16 bi’s. Not having enough time to play this month really made this downswing hard for me, usually I just grind through it, and I just couldn’t do that this month with my work. It was nice to finally get some reps in.

I always rise up to overcome challenges, this is my single greatest source of pride. April was really challenging for me poker wise. I went from being up over 60 bi’s in two months to only being up 20 - I didn’t even think it was possible in my games.

But I’ve been playing this game for a long time and I know that things turn around. I know that resilience and hard work pay off more than anything else in poker.

Growing up I was naturally good at a lot of things, and I never really had to work for anything. That was a curse, because I never knew the deep reservoir of strength that lied within me. I never knew what I was capable of. Over the years, I’ve had to really work at some things, and it is in the overcoming of obstacles and challenges that I find the most satisfaction.

The great champions always get back off the mat.

LIFE

Camping was perfect, I just absolutely love reconnecting with nature and can’t wait until I can do it more often.

In some crazy news, my executive chef at the hotel got FIRED last week, and I got offered the position. This completely came out of nowhere for me, and I still don’t think I have the whole story, but it was definitely one of the crazier days I’ve had emotionally. We put in a lot of positive change at the hotel and he came to the Bay Area with a wife and a kid, and bought a house and had another kid in the time he was here. I really feel for him. I know that he was not GREAT in a lot of areas, but I also don’t think he really deserved to get fired. Then again I don’t know the details, maybe something happened I don’t know about. It will probably get out eventually.

I didn’t even hesitate, though, thanked them for the offer and will stay the course. Trust me it was a little enticing after 3 straight weeks of losing!!

That’s it from me, just wanted to get a post up. Really excited for some time off to do some PIO studying, I’m doing more and more and feel like I get better after each session.

**side note, I lost that second week of April because I didn't download the hands in time. So, I'll never get to see how far under EV I was in the month. I'll ask again, does anyone know if Ignition will send you hands older than the 7 day window?

In any case I'll start putting up graphs again next week (starting in April), I just don't want to put up cumulative ones now because it will look like I'm doing better than I am.

GL at the tables girls
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WEEKLY RECAP (Weekís total in parentheses)

April 15th - April 21st

Personal Admin - 120 mins/week (120)

Meditation - 7 days/week (5 days)

AA meetings - 1/week (0)

Stretching - 10 minutes/day (30 mins)

Cleaning - 60 mins/week (30)

Pio/poker study - 120 mins/week (120)

Reading - 140 mins/week (60)


POKER

After camping, I decided I was going to put in massive volume. I sat down yesterday morning determined to have a positive day, or at least get a bunch of hands trying. I literally sat there and decided not to stop playing until I turn things around. Obviously itís not always going to work out like this, but I ended up putting in a bunch of hours the last two days and am up 16 biís. Not having enough time to play this month really made this downswing hard for me, usually I just grind through it, and I just couldnít do that this month with my work. It was nice to finally get some reps in.

I always rise up to overcome challenges, this is my single greatest source of pride. April was really challenging for me poker wise. I went from being up over 60 biís in two months to only being up 20 - I didnít even think it was possible in my games.

But Iíve been playing this game for a long time and I know that things turn around. I know that resilience and hard work pay off more than anything else in poker.

Growing up I was naturally good at a lot of things, and I never really had to work for anything. That was a curse, because I never knew the deep reservoir of strength that lied within me. I never knew what I was capable of. Over the years, Iíve had to really work at some things, and it is in the overcoming of obstacles and challenges that I find the most satisfaction.

The great champions always get back off the mat.

LIFE

Camping was perfect, I just absolutely love reconnecting with nature and canít wait until I can do it more often.

In some crazy news, my executive chef at the hotel got FIRED last week, and I got offered the position. This completely came out of nowhere for me, and I still donít think I have the whole story, but it was definitely one of the crazier days Iíve had emotionally. We put in a lot of positive change at the hotel and he came to the Bay Area with a wife and a kid, and bought a house and had another kid in the time he was here. I really feel for him. I know that he was not GREAT in a lot of areas, but I also donít think he really deserved to get fired. Then again I donít know the details, maybe something happened I donít know about. It will probably get out eventually.

I didnít even hesitate, though, thanked them for the offer and will stay the course. Trust me it was a little enticing after 3 straight weeks of losing!!

Thatís it from me, just wanted to get a post up. Really excited for some time off to do some PIO studying, Iím doing more and more and feel like I get better after each session.

**side note, I lost that second week of April because I didn't download the hands in time. So, I'll never get to see how far under EV I was in the month. I'll ask again, does anyone know if Ignition will send you hands older than the 7 day window?

In any case I'll start putting up graphs again next week (starting in April), I just don't want to put up cumulative ones now because it will look like I'm doing better than I am.

GL at the tables girls
ggz man, good work ethic and grind. Ignition doesn't keep the files older than 7 days so I think it is impossible. You can request support to reset your hands within the 7 day period though if files corrupt of download incorrectly.
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Old 04-28-2019, 01:40 AM   #120
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4/27/19

+5k live

Stopped by my old card room to close my account there, maybe catch the Warriors game, and then decided to play for a bit with some of the regs I made friends with during my time there. The games were fantastic. I have a lot of emotion for the place as I went there with just a couple paychecks to my name to try a hand at it after years in the abyss. It gave me a lot of extra $ in my pocket over the year I played there, helped me to completely clear up terrible credit and some debts in a short period of time and gave me the confidence to try online again, and here we are now.

I ended up having one of my best sessions ever there, +5k at 2/3/5. Ran great, played great. It’s amazing seeing how far my game has come in the months since starting back online.

Not sure if people are into live hh’s but I’ll try it out here and will keep it up for my sessions at the commerce as live hands are always unique and infinitely more interesting imo.

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(Buyin for this game is 1k max so it plays big)

Fish opens utg to 25 one caller I call A9cc in mp 1100eff, 2 more ppl call. flop QT8hhc, fish bets 60, I call, one more guy calls. turn 7c, fish bets 225...I am obv in a weird spot with guy behind me but I call and pray to not get raised, 3rd guy folds...river Tc imo, fish checks to us....we think and stick it in and he calls and says he had AQ

Next hand is lol, 2 fish limp and I make it 35 with QTss, both call and we see Q97hhc, checks to us I make it 75, first fish announces all in for 277. I plan on snapping but then second fish starts to think; I’m like “f*ck” in my head and he then goes in for 330 total. I think this might be a fold but the 2nd guy is a MASSIVE fish. One thing that is important in spots like this is that even tho he’s is a huge fish, it doesn’t necessarily mean he’s the type of fish that gets it in light as there are many kinds of fish in the sea. Anyways I think and think and say f*ck it and call. Turn Ah I know it’s over. River A and I get ready to muck and the first guy starts shaking his head and says “I missed” (in my head I’m like wtf did you miss) and he shows KJo. Then it’s on second guy and he starts shaking his head and I’m on the verge of busting out laughing, he shows 8To and I remind myself never to consider folding tpgk to live fish for <50bbs again.

Next was my fav hand of the night, everyone’s deep now and it’s a rollicking proper game with everyone having a good time, straddling etc. Good reg makes it 20 in mp, fish flats, 2nd fish flats and I flat in sb with k4cc. Flop A49cc (Ac), reg bets 1/3, fish calls (I am 1400 eff with fish) I c/r to 170, reg calls, fish calls. Turn 7c bzzt and I know fish has it and I bet 380, reg snap folds and fish calls. River Kh and I think and ship and fish agonizes forever and flicks in the call.

I go ask for tbl change after raising a bunch of times and getting no action, plus a couple nits are getting deep with me and I’m not looking to dump off the profits from what is ending up being a nice little bankroll boost, esp considering I hadn’t even gone with the intention of playing. Couple orbits in I raise in mp with A4dd, massive fish id never seen before calls on btn, bb calls. Flop A97 rainbow i bet 1/3 fish calls, turn K and backdoor clubs I check and fish quickly announces “150” which is a fairly large bet and I call thinking he will either give up a good amount, or I can get away easy. River is a K and I check and he quickly goes “400” .....you know these live spots are so many times just educated guesses, but he seemed splashy (he ended up being VERY splashy), and the quick way he announced his bet made me think that maybe he was bluffing. I hardly pay attention to live reads at all as I think they are mostly bullsh*t, but it did seem as if he was a bit nervous with his bet. More than that tho, The K is better for me more often that it is for him as he only has K9. Anyways I don’t beat anything but I think and call and he has T8o and is visibly embarrassed.

This hand I should have probably gotten away from, idk, it’s a weird spot. 5 limpers and I look down at pocket fourteens in the BB and make it 50. 4 calls lol and we go to TT3 rainbow. I check, other guys check, and the fish from the T8 hand just above (by now he’s lost 1k more and is playing and losing every hand) shoves for 170. I hit the call button and then hear the bad news as a kind-of-regfish-but-I-can’t-really-tell guy announces call behind me. Now, I’ve played this guy before, but I can’t really get much of a read on him as sometimes he plays differently than others. I’ve seen him play terribly and I’ve seen him play reasonably tight, and i KNOW he limps big pairs pre. Anyways turn is a K which probably means that if he bets I should fold (thinking that he thinks I have a lot of AK). Anyways he thinks and shoves for 470 into like 900ish and I just can’t find a fold. It’s my night tho as river is obv an A, he slams down his beautiful T9o and berates me until he storms off.

Couple others but this is a wall of text already. The game was absolutely amazing when I left and I would have loved to stay but it was getting late. Was back to work today, had a huge dinner party tonight. Next two days off and will be grinding a lot, then my LAST 4 DAYS as an employee of Marriott Int’l as my final day is May 3rd. Super excited to get on the full time grind and if all goes as planned will be swimming in cash by the time I leave for Europe in June! ;(

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WEEKLY RECAP (Week’s total in parentheses)

April 22nd- April 28th

Personal Admin - 120 mins/week (120)

Meditation - 7 days/week (4 days)

AA meetings - 1/week (0)

Stretching - 70 minutes/week (10)

Cleaning - 60 mins/week (15)

Pio/poker study - 120 mins/week (120)

Reading - 140 mins/week (10)


POKER

It feels good to get a positive week in the books after 3 straight losing ones. I ran a bunch below ev again today but it’s not getting to me in the slightest. The off the table work I am doing is making me more confident all the time and I am improving literally daily. I’m familiar now with pio and am implementing new info from it into my game constantly. It was really cool to see how far I have come when I went back to play live this week after just 3 months of playing online. The 5k from that session + these hands @ 500nl have helped that 30 buyin slide feel a lot more manageable.

It’s my last week at work and I’m just excited to be done with it. I will finally be able to ramp up the volume and live the kind of productive life I want to be living. A lot of the areas I’m slacking in (poker volume, AA meetings, meditation, stretching, time with my girlfriend) I will be able to immediately fix with another 60 hours a week freed up.

I’m seeing really nice progress at the gym due to a workout regiment I am on.

Not much else to report. I will be grinding hard from Friday until the morning of May 16th, when I drive to LA....then I’ll REALLY hit it hard, 8-14 hours/day almost every day I’m there

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Old 05-07-2019, 02:03 AM   #122
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WEEKLY RECAP (Week’s total in parentheses)

April 29th - May 5th

Personal Admin - 120 mins/week (120)

Meditation - 7 days/week (4 days)

AA meetings - 1/week (1)

Stretching - 70 minutes/week (30)

Cleaning - 60 mins/week (15)

Pio/poker study - 120 mins/week (120)

Reading - 140 mins/week (0)


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I will bring in a graph tomorrow, too tired right now.

Down heaps in EV again this week, honestly not much else to report besides that. I imagine smthg like 35k under EV since start of April, rly crazy stuff. It might even be more, today was my craziest day yet, just lost every all in regardless of how far I was ahead.

I ran 40-50ish buyins below ev in 2014, but I don’t really think I’ve ever had the added setups I've had in the last month on top of not winning all-ins. I was getting overflushed and oversetted in 3bet pots so often I really tightened up my 3bet calling ranges as well as my RFI range, trying to just play solid ABC and turn things around. It’s the first time that I’ve literally felt as if the RNG is rigged against me - it feels like I haven't gotten a runout go my way in forever.

What makes this downswing so unique is that I am improving so much as a player on a daily basis. I run sims every single day (it’s the only one of my weekly goals I am WAY over),learning from mistakes I wasn’t even aware I was making before, and I’ve learned so much in the way I think about how ranges are constructed and what to do with them, and I play my range SO much better than I did before - during my sample when I was beating 500 and 1k for 10bb+. Games are great, I am just not winning any pots.

I’m also dealing with variance better than I ever have in my poker career - by far. If there’s any consolation prize in this, that is it. I completely trust and have confidence in my game right now. I hit small patches of frustration when I lost a couple buyins in a row getting it in good, but I immediately take a break, immediately feel better, and come back. I also bring a positive attitude to the tables for every session. I definitely believe in the importance of this, and I am proud that I am doing this every session. It’s just not going my way, I am literally losing every single flip, every single pot as a favorite.

This is the life I want, though, and I am not going to sit here and make more than I should out of the hardest part of my job.

LIFE

I’m so, so damn happy to be playing poker full time, regardless of the variance I am experiencing.

I bought an awesome laptop i am v excited about, then I don’t have to do this stupid back-and-forth with PT4.

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Nice update.

I think you're ability to separate how well your playing regardless of your results is a good characteristic to have; too many players have their results determine whether they are playing well or not in the short term.

Good luck, I'll be rooting for your luck to change!
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Happy to see that you are taking SO WELL the negative variance That is also the part of my game/emotional evolution where I am the most pride. Nonetheless, I do hope your luck turns soon... GL
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Nice update.

I think you're ability to separate how well your playing regardless of your results is a good characteristic to have; too many players have their results determine whether they are playing well or not in the short term.

Good luck, I'll be rooting for your luck to change!
Thanks man. Yeah I think those skills are easily the biggest determining factor in our winrates in the end, since the game is relatively ez to learn

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Happy to see that you are taking SO WELL the negative variance That is also the part of my game/emotional evolution where I am the most pride. Nonetheless, I do hope your luck turns soon... GL

Thanks man! It has been going better the last week.





I bought a brand new laptop that is @ the absolute top of the heap for my price range (I did a LOT of research) and it should be coming any day. I'll be switching over to a new database. This ended up being all the hands I have since April 1st (minus the last couple days which have gone well). It's been awhile since I had a 25k hand stretch this grim, and it doesn't even include the worst of it.

Anyways, it was a really effective test considering the circumstances, and I've never felt better about how I'm playing, the games I'm in, and how I handled the stretch in general.

My mom came and visited, met the gf's family. Also, my gf got accepted and is going to start getting a dual degree (MBA & Public Health) at Emory in ATL in the fall. So, we are looking at apartments there now as I'll be meeting her there when I'm finished in Europe in September.

The more I look at how my life is playing out, the more I realize I'll probably be married and have kids within 3 years. I think that's what I want, I'm turning 37 this year and I do want a family. I guess I still feel that pull of wanting one last period of freedom in my life. That's kind of ridiculous on one hand because of my lifestyle for most of my life, but also, I never enjoyed it in the ways I should have because I was f*cked up all the time.



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