A Strong Desire to Escape
05-30-2017
, 07:03 PM
30, european, grind for a living small stakes, for a very long time and never moved up.
Some years ago I imagined today completely different from what actually is. Right now I'm not satisfied with my life, and frankly it is all my fault. Yes, I wasn't lucky for sure, but I have 99% responsibily of where I am now.
As stated in the title, I feel a huge urge to escape from my city, from my country and obv from my entire situation, which is, so to speak, awful at best. Not many friends, no girls (I don't get laid since months), family issues, the living cost is astonishing high, really no reason to stay here. Unfortunately, I have to stay, for a few months then fly away, and never return again. I thought these were my personal feeling but I was wrong, my view is shared pretty much by everyone, this makes me more sad. If it was my fault, I could blame myself, but this isn't the case. Everyday I wake up and I feel constantly anxious about my future and I cannot see any solution but escape.
What this blog will be about
I'll post about poker for sure but it won't be my focus, instead I want to document my journey toward a new life, a life I've always long to have but I didn't struggle to achieve it. I'll post about my climbing through the stakes, my reflections and any ideas that come into my mind.
Ah yeah sure, last 3 months
Best of luck
Some years ago I imagined today completely different from what actually is. Right now I'm not satisfied with my life, and frankly it is all my fault. Yes, I wasn't lucky for sure, but I have 99% responsibily of where I am now.
As stated in the title, I feel a huge urge to escape from my city, from my country and obv from my entire situation, which is, so to speak, awful at best. Not many friends, no girls (I don't get laid since months), family issues, the living cost is astonishing high, really no reason to stay here. Unfortunately, I have to stay, for a few months then fly away, and never return again. I thought these were my personal feeling but I was wrong, my view is shared pretty much by everyone, this makes me more sad. If it was my fault, I could blame myself, but this isn't the case. Everyday I wake up and I feel constantly anxious about my future and I cannot see any solution but escape.
What this blog will be about
I'll post about poker for sure but it won't be my focus, instead I want to document my journey toward a new life, a life I've always long to have but I didn't struggle to achieve it. I'll post about my climbing through the stakes, my reflections and any ideas that come into my mind.
Ah yeah sure, last 3 months
Best of luck
05-30-2017
, 07:08 PM
05-31-2017
, 08:18 AM
05-31-2017
, 11:08 AM
mixing NL25-50
Right now in the east part of Italy. I don't hope to go, I'll move as soon as I can, the only question is where
. Some options are Mexico, Thailand, Spain and Canary Islands. Probably I'm going to spend a few weeks in Thai and then reevaluate
Ty a lot to chime in, I really enjoyed your book and I think what you have been through was harder than my current situation. So yeah, it was and it is inspiring.
Right now in the east part of Italy. I don't hope to go, I'll move as soon as I can, the only question is where
. Some options are Mexico, Thailand, Spain and Canary Islands. Probably I'm going to spend a few weeks in Thai and then reevaluateTy a lot to chime in, I really enjoyed your book and I think what you have been through was harder than my current situation. So yeah, it was and it is inspiring.
06-03-2017
, 03:47 PM
Uninstalling Tinder
I've installed the app with very very high expectation. I'm not social, didn't update my status since 4 years and don't make many pics, Tinder is based on photos basically, so I needed to do something about that. I purchased a photo shooting service in order to sell myself better online. Acutally, I had 2 accounts, with two different personalities and photo, to attract different kind of girls... and it worked, I got completely different matches and I did have lot of them. I also studied online dating, there def a lot of room to improve your profile and be attractive in general. If you think about that, there are cure girls out there, but maybe their photos are only 2 blurry pics, guess what? You pass by because they didn't catch you eye. Well, now it is great right? I have professional photos, I know how to make a good profile, I should make a killing right? No. Matches doesn't equal a BJ or even a meet up, unfortunately, so you have to work a little bit to spark some interest on the girl. A bit of statistics, 86 matches, 8 meet ups and NONE ****ed. Pretty ****ty result, I got admit that but this don't tell the whole story. TBH, I'm an average guy, so maybe hotter guys could have different stats right? Wrong. It turns out that handsome guys experience the same issues and most importantly, the place you swipe in, matters a lot. Living in a small city doesn't help, with a somewhat small pool of girls, but the main issue is attitude. People around me are always sad/angry and don't talk to each other very much. They live on socials, but lack of in-person social skills, whenever you go out, you feel lonely. I got friends who left this place and cannot agree more with what I said, so again, this isn't a personal view, this is an objective one.
There's no point in using a dating app if girls don't have the willing to meet, also, I found myself check that app many times per day hoping to catch a girl. This is sad and wrong, Tinder should be a bonus not your source of to meet new people. So I uninstalled the app and right now I focus on real life interactions. I'm doing pretty good in the small city which I'm currently live in, but I'm doing awful in the near big city. The former is astounding friendly, everyone is looking to have a small talk, while the latter is gloomy and people don't want to talk at all. 2 miles away from each other, 2 totally different people.
Instead of complain, I should work my ass off to leave this ****ing place. Actually I see my city like a huge social gym set on 'hard difficulty', if I practice here, I'll be a beast when I move.
I don't have much updates from poker, I played a little volume and I purchased new Janda's book. I planned carefully my next week to put more focus on poker
Weekly results
I've installed the app with very very high expectation. I'm not social, didn't update my status since 4 years and don't make many pics, Tinder is based on photos basically, so I needed to do something about that. I purchased a photo shooting service in order to sell myself better online. Acutally, I had 2 accounts, with two different personalities and photo, to attract different kind of girls... and it worked, I got completely different matches and I did have lot of them. I also studied online dating, there def a lot of room to improve your profile and be attractive in general. If you think about that, there are cure girls out there, but maybe their photos are only 2 blurry pics, guess what? You pass by because they didn't catch you eye. Well, now it is great right? I have professional photos, I know how to make a good profile, I should make a killing right? No. Matches doesn't equal a BJ or even a meet up, unfortunately, so you have to work a little bit to spark some interest on the girl. A bit of statistics, 86 matches, 8 meet ups and NONE ****ed. Pretty ****ty result, I got admit that but this don't tell the whole story. TBH, I'm an average guy, so maybe hotter guys could have different stats right? Wrong. It turns out that handsome guys experience the same issues and most importantly, the place you swipe in, matters a lot. Living in a small city doesn't help, with a somewhat small pool of girls, but the main issue is attitude. People around me are always sad/angry and don't talk to each other very much. They live on socials, but lack of in-person social skills, whenever you go out, you feel lonely. I got friends who left this place and cannot agree more with what I said, so again, this isn't a personal view, this is an objective one.
There's no point in using a dating app if girls don't have the willing to meet, also, I found myself check that app many times per day hoping to catch a girl. This is sad and wrong, Tinder should be a bonus not your source of to meet new people. So I uninstalled the app and right now I focus on real life interactions. I'm doing pretty good in the small city which I'm currently live in, but I'm doing awful in the near big city. The former is astounding friendly, everyone is looking to have a small talk, while the latter is gloomy and people don't want to talk at all. 2 miles away from each other, 2 totally different people.
Instead of complain, I should work my ass off to leave this ****ing place. Actually I see my city like a huge social gym set on 'hard difficulty', if I practice here, I'll be a beast when I move.
I don't have much updates from poker, I played a little volume and I purchased new Janda's book. I planned carefully my next week to put more focus on poker
Weekly results