whats up 2+2. I kinda think a thread would help me following my goals.

Deposited 50 bucks on gg poker and ran it up to 1k just to degen bust it on the all in or fold tables and slots.

My biggest leak is my mindset. I`m kind of that guy getting a upswing poker membership, studying hard, crushing nl5 rush (lol) and quitting it after the first time where I didn´t make 5+ buyins because of one single stupid session where I punted a lot. I´m a perfectionist and hate myself for making mistakes or having a graph going down. I switched to plo and repeating all the stuff. Going all in, buying a plo membership, time to crush... until a few days where I have a session killing a few buyins. PLO is the worst for my mindset I guess. Was on semi tilt, even when I made 50 to 1k. But these loosing sessions are killing me. Worst part is that I know making mistakes but can´t do anything against it. Oh well, I just call, ya I was right, I was beat all time...

Gave the All in or Fold Tables a try, won 3 jackpots, climbed the limits to the 32 bucks tables. Was bored, tried slots and busted my roll. Oh well. Deposited another 50 bucks for the fun, went to the all in or fold tables again an won a jackpot within the first 50 hands ^^ Hit the slots a bit as I was bored. Tried the regular nl tables was bored even more. I´m hitting the crossroads now. Wasting more time with push tables, slots and just degen around or give it a last try and overcome my mental issues and accept that it couldnt go up always...

my roll is 150$ now. Was used to play midstack 40bb but that sucked and all the study I made was for 100bb. Tried to convert and punted a lot, guess stacking of with TPTK isnt always a thing 100bb deep

I will start at NL2 100bb rush to get a feeling for it. Will get the WSOP tickets (50 bucks) changed to T$ and changing them in spins, so roll will be going up the next days and I should be ok playing nl5. Only my mind can stop me:

My 1st goals
[] play 10k hands rush NL2
[] no all in or fold tables, no slots, no plo or other ****
[] insta quit the app when got a feeling for tilt

Same place but playing MTTs with BI way above BR allows when bored.

Just try to be better than you were yesterday. Do that every day.

GL

GL!
As someone with the same tilting mindset as you, I'll follow closely haha.

I prefer a losing session over losing my whole BR and that's what keeps me away from punting atm.

I used to have the same tilt issues when I started playing 5/10NL. I’d take it personally if I had a losing session and would end up playing spin and go’s until the roll was gone. Now I just walk away if something happens, take a break and start again a couple hours later. I’d rather lose 1-2 buy-ins to a suck out then 10-15 tilting. I always used to feel so disappointed after busting my roll for no reason.

The Mental Game of Poker (1 and 2, but mostly the first one) is a must read.

thanks for your replies.
I've read mental game of poker 1 when I first played ~2008 for a few years. made it up to nl50 where I tilted my earnings from nl10 & 25. also played some big mtts up to 109$ chasing the dream ^^ was always constant in winning at the lower limits but degen around there as well. it's the same now after my restart, got constant "winnings" from nl2 & 5 and made a big step after purchasing some courses just to donate it after one session full of mistakes. it's not about suckouts, I'm cool with that as I got a rlly conservative brm. it's more about calling a huge 4bet with 89s oop even if I know it's - ev vs the player pool at ultra microstakes.

I've reduced tables to 2-3 and forcing myself to think about every step before button clicking. played the first k hands and went pretty well.