About me: 25 years old, last year I lost everything not just bankroll but entire life roll because of gambling mostly playing blackjack. I am probably down about 12-13k in total so it is not a huge amount for some people but to me it is a lot of money because it was everything i had. There were multiple times last year where my entire net worth was on the blackjack table- usually it ended up with me losing there were multiple times last year where my next paycheck was not coming in for 10 days and i had to survive for 10 days on less than $20. There was one particular time that I remember- I lost
everything again and I had already taken out a loan at every payday loan place that I could find so I got back to my apartment after driving back from the casino and had there was a cup that i throw spare change into so i went to the grocery store to the coin star and cashed my coins in for $17 and had to survive on $17 for 7 days until my next paycheck came in.

This year - I am doing a little better this year somehow I managed to keep my job despite all the gambling although it did cause my performance at my job to suffer but not to the point where I started skipping work. I have stayed away from table games for the most part although i do have some slip ups here and there but i do my best to keep it under control. My bankroll/liferoll is up to 7k (I tried seperating the two in the past and it didnt work so I am just going to keep as one), goals for this thread are to run good maybe talk to some people who have been in a similar situation that I have been in the past. I will be posting hands whenever i can I am going to be playing 2/5 live and small/mid-stakes online hopefully running up the $750 deposit. To be honest i am not sure if i can beat these stakes or not i have never truly given them a real shot last year i played a bunch of hands at 10/25NL and was a small winner after 60k hands I am not going to be going back to those stakes I start playing bad if the stakes are not meaningful.