the first one Year i lost a ton of money, in Cash Games,Torunaments, Sngs….
I decide to reading some Books…after all i had over 12 Books in my Room.
But i still was an loosing Player at all ….
I was Playing NL10 on FT and Stars…..
I was working in a Security Office, most of the Time i was able to read some Poker Stuff, and Playing online while i was an duty….
I lost a lot of money again… read more Books, and thought all the time about Poker.
It was my Dream, that i would one Day quit my Security Job, to do something i love….
After a couple of month, i start to watch E Books about Poker…The Blueprint, Easy Game from Andrew Seidman, and some of Cole South as well.
My 6max game was going to be better, i growed up to NL25…
and was knocking on the NL50 Door.
At this point, i hade an massiv Down… it takes a long time…i guess it was over Month where i was loosing money all day long. That was making me sick. At this point,i thought my mindset was good enough to keep moving forward,but it wasnt.
My Bankroll was falling down from 2k to 400$…I decide to need some outside from Poker for a couple of days…
I couldnt even sleep…i thought all the way about Poker, why was taht happend, what kinda leak was in my game? I revied session… saw my mistakes and start grinding again from NL10.
I think i had an ego problem at this point with NL 10.
A guy who has over 12 Books inside his room, watching Videos ect, was knocking on NL50 and
now hes an Micro Player again…That was an ****ing bad feeling at this time.
I was so close to be broke at this time, and thought about to quit my Poker carrerer forever.
I mean , that was my Dream, Playing Poker and travelling around the Wolrd…. anayways…
I came to an Point,where i was watching Gordons “Champions stand up one more Time” Video…i was positive shoked…
he have an ****ing talent to motivate people after falling down….
I decide to buy the Course double youre 6 max winrate, to stand up one more time….
I loved the Videos,the way he explained Poker in a complete different but easy way..I never saw this before….. and i was reading over 12 Books ….
I start Playing Poker again, and my results has grown up…i was an NL25 Player again…yihaaa
One Day, i had a very ****ty Day in my Security Job, my wife was pregnand and a lot of pressure coming on my shoulders….
I mean, i earned 10€ per houre doing security business, and my NL25 Poker carer didnt make enough money to let me sleep.
I hade to make an decision… i quitt my old job and getting a new full time job.
Familiy was happy, , kids was happy…and me??
at this day, i was never Playing Poker again ….
one year later, i start to think about my decision in the passt.
What could i hve done with my life, if i would still Playing Poker?
I missed that Game a lot….my new job is not my main Goal in my live, and its only gurantee The Food for my Kids…
Now, im here as an VIP Member…to stand up one more time, and put all my Investment/Past/ and Future in my Dream i ever hade….
A fail is 10 time more ,than what if….
long story short…Im here to fight for myDreams, it dosent matter what happens to me, metters is what gonna we do about it!!
