Hello everyone,

This is my first post here so it will be long
I am honoured to be a member of this community. A little bit about myself:

I am a 1st-year PhD student in the faculty of pharmaceutical sciences at The University of British Columbia. I have a scholarship that is worth $35,000 annually plus all tuition fees for 3 years. I have been a gamer since childhood, excelling in RPG and RTS games. I am known on Pokerstars as Takiowns. I have started this year with a clear motivation to make money from poker as a side income. And what do I know, I am supernova today with more than 50K bankroll at the moment.

Now here's the important stuff. These last three months I have final tabled a lot of "special" tournaments on pokerstars, big 109, big 162, big 22, big 27.5, big 55 and the Sunday Million on June 14th where I busted AA vs AK pre for 40BB. Now, that's fine, **** happens, however, I have busted all other big tournaments in similar fashion at 9th, 8th or 7th place.

Now, why am I posting this? The main reason is my lack of interest to play this game anymore. I have started to lose hope and I am really bored from the game. I need someone to challenge me to win certain tournaments this weekend. On one hand, I feel like I miss a lot of value by not playing poker on weekends. On the other hand, I feel like I am going to bust at 9th or 8th again by bad luck again. I have taken many stats courses and I know as I stand today, in a bill-shaped curve, my luck stands at the -95% after these beats in final tables.

I would appreciate a pro's opinion on this because I know I am not among the best pokers players online by a long shot. How do you motivate yourself to win big? I feel like my life bankroll is fine for me and I am happy with it. I don't feel like the extra money would bring me that much happiness. I am satisfied with how much I won this year. How do I motivate myself to win more? What am I gonna do with the extra money? Buy a Tesla car or a house? And then what? I seem to lack a clear purpose for winning money.

Sorry for the long post. Any kind words of advice would be appreciated.

Best of luck,

played with you like 2/3 years ago at 100 zoom.

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Gl dude, just keep playing, i'm sure you have made a bit even from those 8-9th places etc, i suggest you have something like....buy a house or similar as a goal, and transfer poker winnings to a seperate account to save for that and have a target monthly etc u want to transfer. I too feel its hard to motivate to win sometimes especially when you don't know what to spend it on!

Thanks 26sk8er,

Sounds like a decent idea.

try to find a goal in poker that isnt money, like for instance getting top 100 in yearly tlb, being best or something like that

Thank you everyone. I won 20K last week in Bigger 109 for 3rd place.

Now I am in the relaxed, content zone. I wish I could just always have hunger for more wins.