whaaaats up guys ( if there's anyone railing this trainwreck of a PGC thread still )
september was disasterous, minus 7.5k. that + fact that i'm near of ending contract with my current stable + the fact that i made like 3k euros from january until today from game itself ( made some $ by buying pieces and whatever ) made me think about a lot of things. i mean, if i didnt had 22k bink in january this year wouldnt be profitable at all. my volume sucked hard, i played like 4k mtts until today but goal for 2017th was 8k.
one good thing happened altough, guys from stable and me reserved some woodhouses with pool, basketball / volleyball courts and steambath and it was great 5 days there. chilling, playing live poker ( altough some online also, easy 2k burnt up for 3 sessions ), watching that beautiful nature of Western Serbia. some pics,altough im not a 'photo' guy, most of those i didnt made:
back to poker...
when i was making new contract last year in this time, i was offered 60/40 in my favour + rb but i didnt liked my schedule that way (not being able to play higher buyins than 50), so i offered countersolution (which im not sure right now it was the right choice), more flexible schedule where i could play whatever i prefer, since me and backers agreed that im able to beat those. . that went great for now :
http://prntscr.com/gqjb02 sample is ridiculous and variance is too big but fml. every time in my 2.X years long MTT grind when I tryed to go up in levels and play any sort of higher buyins I've been raped there while playing pretty all right.
anyway, i'm pretty confident in my game but i have to fix the volume. i mean, i chose path of being profesional poker player and i am (hopefully was) pretty irresponsible with main part that makes difference - volume.
my general money managment sucks pretty hard also. i had far better money managment while i was selling weed/drugs in post highschool period. now it's like i dont earn a dime for few months, then make 5k+ then i go in some yolo mode where i wanna buy EVERYTHING. go on lunch with friends , why not pick a bill every single time. go in the club, why not, 15818532 rounds on me. some people are obviously abusing those habbits of mine, since when i go out and a friend or any party that is with me dont have money i sure cant let em dont get a drink while im drinking. well i think i should, since when i dont have money i sit at my home and fap, i dont go out and misuse a friendship. but i really dont have high opinion of money at all, and that is big part of the money managment problem. money for me is just like some kind of resource that make things more comfortable + kind of status symbol. thats it.
i dont play poker because of money. i play it because i like to compete. i was playing basketball as a kid and some dumb injury fked that **** ( start of smoking drinking and chasing girls was obv 80% of the injury, heel was 20% ). i consider myself pretty inteligent and fast learner but school wasnt interesting to me. i was skipping classes, cheating in every (im)possible way, but still got to the finish line every time when needed. i was selling drugs on street level with no particular need for that, but i figuered out that was one way ticket to prison for a pocket change. 3.5 years ago i was really considering going full metal jacket on selling drugs but I've chose poker then and i dont ever intend to look back, and altough lot of people in or out of poker dont like things that come with that kind of life I LOVE IT. it saved me from a lot of things. i found something in my life that i like and that i can improve in and make money from it and found some real friends in it and live like a boss in this crazy poor country of mine because of it. and what, i have an excuse for be playing 400 tourneys a month ? NOT A CHAAANCE. (btw i know this last paragraph + i dont like money part are paradox but it's the way i feel it is. i mean, i like living great but i dont like money, it's simple as that.)
anyway, enough of the 'offtopic'. i ll be moving a lot of my volume to pokerstars right now since i see that tourneys up to 55 are generally pretty soft (there are few exceptions obv) and since it's the room with biggest traffic it's the only way to get my desirable volume. im not sure why i didnt do this earlier but i had some sort of thinking that i wasnt good enough and that fields are too big and bla bla bla, but in last couple of months fields are huge everywhere and when ever i played 3 4 5 stars tourneys a day i saw that those timbeys are pretty soft also so embrace yourselfs.
i had a nice little deeprun today in hot 11 but :
https://www.boomplayer.com/25414720_9A97C93E4B
guy with the AK snapcalled. keep punting bitcheeeeez, i ll be back.. not a single decent reg was out there in 14 players but it gotta reward 2 no clue guys.
i ll be posting an update about end of the year goals and i ll be posting here more frequently so i could follow up what's going on. that's it for today, gl on tables.
Last edited by nomalice; 09-27-2017 at 07:53 PM.
Reason: added spoilers for pics