I actually can go fulltime but hey, nevermind! GL with your goals.

@GrindationStevee
GL for you too Alone or with coach you still can try to go full time pro and check do you like it or no




This week went as I expected. I am very happy about today. I was tilted like hell it was bunch of drunk ****tards who was jaming light, donking River all the freaking time and each time I face top of their range. I made a short break then went to work on my game because I couldn't handle playing anymore. Usually at those days I just said **** it I am done but today I was also working on my game. Graph for this month:



Right now I am bulking . It's pretty fine but I have to lose fat when I am done. I am fine with my tilt issue (I order pizza when I am on tilt) but when I'll be cutting it can't be an option. I ate 6 pizzas this week.



Yesterday when I try to take a nap a bunch of crazy mofos came to my window and start doing crazy sounds. Coudln't find anything to throw them so at least took a photo for blog purposes:

Was scuba diving today, I can't ****ing wait to go to Panama or somewhere else to scuba dive a bit. I like it very much. Also my friend took me for a right and I had pretty good time with her. Session was also very good. I am glad becuase yesterday and today morning was really ****ty.

As far I have pretty tought times at the tables. I am dealling pretty fine with that. I couldn't manage myself for a while when lost like 506 BI's in 70 hands but still had some of hard sessions. I have boxing bag and it helps me a lot to release stress. Few minutes of boxing and I am tiered as hell. Today I have to play longer than usuall. Fish at nl400 took my cash and I had to fight with him but take all his money.

Last two days were terrible. Today I had rage I wanted to destroy my boxing bag, I wanted blood I was punching it for litteraly 20 min. It was hard to keep punching on the keep my hands up. After that I felt up on the floor. I was lying on the floor I've heard my heart was bumping like crazy I was afriad I'll have heart atack. I was lying happy with a big smile, I've felt endoprhines in my veins and I felt little pain in my hands. I check wtf and I saw some blood. I thought "whatever" and I was lying there like on the drags. I had a good rest and I am happy I've bought this boxing bag



Anyway I have to think how to replay to one equestion. Lately I hear it over and over again: "Why you don't have a GF?" I understand why they ask but I still don't know what I should answer xD Definetely something like "Baybe I am looking only for ONS" isn't the best answer xD Anyway I am glad I'll rest tomorrow. It was hard for me to deal with those terrible sessions. Anyway I am gonna girnd and grind.

Next two days are free. I have to rest before Easter. On Easter I am gonna force myself to play like mofo and after that I am done and I make Holiday for week or so. I am glad I run like **** for last 3-4 days because it remind me that I should work on my tilt cuz I gave up doing it.

Running better. On Holiday I am going to Itally by hitch hike with on Latino like chick. I didn't knew her. After 1 message she decided she wants to go with me (photos on FB did the job as well xD) I am glad I'll go with her. She's pretty hot I am also pretty handsome so it will be much easier to catch something.

As I said I am working on my mindset. I stoped it, it improved on it's own but I have to work on it. I coudln't wait to play and work on my game today. I am lame as **** when it comes to doing a break. I have those two days but I was thinking all the time about poker and what I can improve and how I can improve and blah blah blah. Fortuanatelly I have a lot of great ideas unfortunately I dind't rest as good as I could without worring about poker all the time.

spend like 30h on poker for last 3 days, still I think I am behind becuase I am running like ****. Also today I've thought I have FH and I have just 5th pair... Don't know why I thought I hit runner runner FH....

**** **** ****. I have holiday since Friday. Maybe I'll do 10k month this month (I Hope so) but it can be hard because it's only 3 days of grind left. Since Friday I grind like mofo:




And this month so far:

You're doing a great job, keep on going!
How many sites are you playing right now?

@Duo41
Thanks With sites I'll send you priv message.

Since Friday I was playing 37h and was learning 10h. I am going for hard core week before break. I am sick of it but tommorow is going to be last day This chick that I go with is amazing. We were talking by web cam. I told her I don't have raincoat and isolation mug. Today she told me she bought it for me.

A bit melanholic. I didn't achieve 10k$ month. I didn't bench pressed 100kg (180 pounds) aslo 150 ffp left to achieve platinium star on Stars. I am overworked and can't force myself to playing more after few bad beats. I deleated auto synchronistaion. Don't want any email to interupt my holiday:

Look, your life is terrible . Next month when you're back, next step.

@ThinkItThrough
Hahaha true.


I am back from Valencia. It was ****ing awesome. I meet very beatiful and very intelegient women. I've been on beach party for like 1000+ ppl ate BBQ in Deutchland with Buisnesmen. For those who won't travel because it's too expensive GTFO. I've spent 2 euro 70 cents to get to Valencia without money I've spent in Poland for food. I only bought 2 times 1.5l water and once I payed for toilted to clean teeth etc. I had a lof of great adventures. I'll write about it something more when I'll find a time

During holiday's I've got an idea about doing 100 day's challanges. I used to do it but forgot about it. Rules are simple 100 days. 650 h on poker and buisness and 50h on other stuff after that break.

Instaled SSD to my latpop. It makes huge difference. MY laptop didn't work so well because I had lame slow hard drive I even wasn't aware of it. SPend like 4 hours today to set everything's up but at least it should work very good

Was working on my game. Work, dirty word, tiered as ****. There are sooooo many things I am working on. Today I've meet with friend of mine. Yesterday she was feeling terrible and she was very depressed. She was with me twice when I ended realtionship and felt very bad. She was with me when I needed women warm and hug so it was no brainer I'll meet wirth her even thought I didn't feel like. Anyway we had pretty good time. First hour was very hardcore for me because I was just sitting and listetning but after around hour we had pretty good time. We were joiking, singing and talking in her car. Kind of funny how emotions change.

Pretty hard day. Ate pizza and didn't feel so well, almost puked so session was harder. If it wasn't enough I had pretty bad run and not enough action. Was waiting like 30 min to give 1-2 BI and then repeated it for 4 hours session.

Spazzed like 400$ don't have any ****ing idea why I am so dumb to do the same mistakes over and over again. Was playing with 3 ****ing morons at the same time who has donk Flop 80-90%. Feel like **** enough poker for today.

I am done for this weekend. Will work 1.5h on my game because there's something I want to end and I don't give a **** about this **** anymore. Have enough. Since Thursday 6 villains check/jamed River with air, showed me bluff and runed away. I run like **** and spew. I have to make a break.

Trip report that I wrote yesterday:



I came to home completely drunk. I can't fall asleep for like 3 hours so I think it's good idea to write about my trip. I was thinking about writing trip report and what I've learned or "chick story". I've heard many times that ppl like my "chick story" so I decided to write about it.

I went on trip with girl. I thought I am gonna have fun time with her because she said about condoms like three times before we even met. Promoters from this student hitch-hiking race added condoms to “starting bag”. I was talking with her via web-cam and via phone quite a few times and she was talking about condoms. “That's my girl!” I thought and I have very positive attitude. (Some one is going to get laid!)

79 hours and 35 min latter we were in Valencia. Some crazy things happen for those 79 hours but it's different story. We were at our main place, we unpacked our bags, set up tent. When everything was ready problems with Jessica begin.... She was acting weird. She told me her ex is here, she told me I should go to shop on my own and she will go take a shower blah blah. Long story short after all those hours together at camp she wanted to separate for a while. I thought “fine I am a big boy, I can take care about myself” and off I went to shop. When I came back she wasn't there so I start talking with our “neighbors”. They were very normal so it was quite boring for me. I knew I had to do something or this trip is gonna to be lame as ****.

Then I saw her. Great long legs, tan skin, short shirt and black sunglasses. She had a class even in place like that. She was tanning on sleeping pad with her friend. Her friend was fine but not as hot as she. (I think she was on top 3 girls I've seen on this camp), I approach them without any plan. “Hi my neighbors, I have tree questions for you”. They said something like “Hey, what's up”. “First I'd like to know where I can take a shower”. They give me answer so I asked again “Great, I'd like to know also where is water to drink”. After this I looked at them and said: “Ok guys, now the most important thing, what's your names?” They laughed and we were blah blahing for a while. I went to take a shower I came back and still my tent mate was gone. “**** her” I said out loud and went to them. “Hey I don't see Jessica and I want to go on the beach. Wanna join?”. “How's she? You came together or what?” “Yeah, she told me she'll leave me for a while and go somewhere. But hey I am a big boy, I know how to take care about myself and I know how to find a company (then I winked to them). Are you going with me or what?” “Sure give us 10 min”. In the meantime Jessica came I told her “I go on the beach with neighbors. Wanna join?” She was blah blahing about meal and other crap so I left her. Her face when she found out how our neighbors looks like? Priceless!

I was having great time with them. Srsly we were talking about everything from dildo topic, watching porn to computer programing and building remote control pad. The hottest one graduate in bio-technology and study something else. She has computer programing there but I can't remind what she study. Let's call the hottest one E. So we have pretty good time, we were walking at the beach and we decided it's time to go back. I said to E. “you're kind of rude, don't you?” She replayed: “Me, nooooo!” and make an innocent face I laughed and she added “I just love to tease”. I also loved it. It really builds erotic tension. We went back, we were laughing and I saw Jessica siting in front of tent with those normal (Boooooooooring) people. I came she said: “Hi, you know I've met blah blah blah” couldn't listen it any longer still was a bit angry at her because we separate at the beginning so just replied “Good for you! I'll be near girls tent” and I left.

We drink some Sangria and it turned out that they are'nt alone. There were also a couple and 4 more guys. “Gay party, great! I've miss it since times of studying computer science....” I thought “**** my life” was second thought but anyway I say hi to everyone. They were saying their names but I knew I won't remember them. We were siting, talking, drinking Sangria and we start playing in drinking game. I didn't play because I was sleeping like 2 hours each previous day and was afraid of drinking too much. It was getting colder so I went to take a sweatshirt from tent. When I come back on guy sit at my place. I told him to GTFO and he left. They saw that I was hitting to E. so in this game every one try to make her drunk. I didn't like this idea because I prefer to pick up a girl when she's sober.

At night we went at beach party. Btw parties, there were for like 1200 ppl or so. I've never been on such a huge party. It was kind of funny because I've seen drunk bare feet girls lying on the street who were pucking and other crap like that. There were guy who's face was full of blood and who's boots were stolen. A lot of drunk ppl, a lot of ppl on drugs and loud music. E. start acting like a bitch. She was offensive to me I didn't knew why so I left them and went to Jessica. I wanted to go with her somewhere but she told me she won't leave this group and blah blah blah. I didn't feel like staying at this beach party is good idea so I took a short walk and came back to tent.

I was all by myself. Alone. More than 2500 km away from home. Lying alone in a tent. I felt like a ****. I told my self “I played and I loosed” I was angry at myself that I take a shot to pick up much hotter and much more intelligent women and I failed. I felt disappointed. For last 90 hours I slept like 15 hours total, I barely ate so I didn't have such a control over my mind. I was bitching at myself. Felt really really bad. When I felt asleep after bitching for 1-2h and feeling like crap loud music woke me up. I thought it's party somewhere so I went to check it.

I was pissed off when I realized it's 5:30 and there is no party. Just 5 guys and 2 chicks in a car with very loud music. I came to them and ask politely: “What the **** are you doing?! I've thought it's a party but it's only you”. “If you have problem and you want to turn the sound down just tell” “Do that please”. He asked: “Are you with someone?”. “I am all by myself” “And we are 5 guys and you came to us?” “That's right.” “But we are 5 and you are alone do you really wanna us to turn it down” “Yeah, like I said”. At that point I couldn't care less if I would fight I would if not than not. All of the sudden girl came and asked “Do you want a photo with a friend?” “He's not my friend he's more like an enemy” he said. We shoot some photos and I left. 5 min latter they make music louder so I thought “Than I am probably gonna fight today” but that guy with who I was talking with turned it off and said to his friend to don't do that.

They very next day Jessica woke me up and asked me do I want tot go to Valencia with her. I said yes and we went. Before I left E. friend was waving to me and smiling. I thought “good it seems it's fine with both of them”. I waved at E. when she came and I went with Jessica to visit Valencia. I could only visit places. I wanted to do some shopping there, buy few clothes and boots but everything was close because of 3-4 hours siesta.... We were walking with our neighbors (those kind of boring) and as you can guess nothing exciting happened. We just ate 3 dish meal. When we came back to camp. E. asked me “Where have you been?! In Valencia?” “Yep” “Me, my friend (women) and my another friend (women) will go to drink some Sangria at the beach, wanna join us?” “Will take a shower and go” When I joined them I've heard that there were some problems with her friend. She has to go back to Valencia because she has hotel room there and train stop at X. Two friends of E. had plan to go there together but one of them didn't want to go. One of them was complaining that she has 2 ppl hotel room and she's on her own. E. said: “maybe Pawel will go with you” I just laughed.

I don't like clubs and concerts but I really had a great time with E. at the concert. I even didn't give a damn about music. I was just having fun “dancing” with her. I mostly just move my groin near women asses and it's almost all moves I know. (Still I've heard that I dance ****ing awesome as an IT guy ofc) Anyway I had great time and after a concert we went to the beach again. I put my hand at E. hip it was fine moment to do it. 2 hours latter we was going back to “club” E. speed up and I've hear that she was saying to her friend “I'll make him some trouble and evade him for 30 min I wonder will he leave us again”. My thought: “Challenge accepted”. She didn't knew I've heard it. I thought it's gonna be easy but she forgot this 30 min thing.... When I put my hand on her hips she was moving faster and I took of my hand from her hip. It happens like 3-4 times while going to club. At the club when my groin was closer her ass she changed her position it happens don't know how many times but definitely waaaaay too much. 1.5h passed like that or even more then I've got an idea. I went back for a while and I've heard them talking again. “You see I told you. He left again” I thought “Got Ya”. I went close to her. I grabbed her hips, pulled her close to me I was whisper to her “I am back” and I was bitting her ear softly. She liked it and rest of the night was great.

Next day she told me she's gonna leave today and we decided to go to the swimming pool and get some tan. I knew I have to kiss her and take her on the beach alone. I never done it on beach so it would be funny experience. I had condoms with and ask her like 6th time to go on the beach but again as usual she rejected... xD (She always ask for a reason but she didn't like reason “To get to know you better”) Me E. and her friend were lying, in the meantime around 6 guys came and tried to pick up E. She was too intelligent to some ****ty pick up texts (also she knew I am the best choice for her xD) We were lying and I tried to kiss her, I grabbed her neck move my face closer, she asked me “What are you doing?” I just smiled come closer and she turned around. 5 minutes latter she went somewhere. I spot here, she was standing alone I thought “She want me to come and kiss her there” again I came and get rejected. To be honest it was pretty entertaining for me. We both knew we are into each other but we still play this pick up game.

We went to swim in of two swimming pools. She go back and I stayed with her friend because I had pretty good time. I swam a bit completely drunk xD When we come back E. friend put wet hands on her because she was already dry. I thought it was brilliant idea and I lied at her. She didn't knew what was going on and again I whisper to her ear “Oh someone is dry, ahhhhh sorry, someone was dry and then big wet aschole came” I bited her ear softly again, smiled, lied for a while and we decided to go eat something. We were siting in front of her tent. They were eating I was just drinking wine. E. said she need to rest and take a nap. We were talking and her friend after 30 min tried to wake her up. She didn't want to wake up so it was another great opportunity for me. I grabbed her legs and start shaking. She was doing nothing so I take off her sleeping bag and grabbed her legs again.

She was saying that she want to lie 10 min more. Of course I was pretending I don't hear her. I asked “what?” She replied I asked two or three times and all of the sudden I was in her tent. She said “you can't just came here like that” I replied “Watch me”. She didn't want to let me kiss her so easily but I have my tricks and after a while we were kissing each other. She was really into me I can say that. Her friend closed tent. I thought I am a king of the world and someone's going to get laid.... You can say what you want but when one dude can get laid and second one can't he will help him to get laid in 80% of cases. When one girl can get laid when second can't in 95% she won't let other do it. After 10 min when I was almost happiest man alive her friend interrupted and everything ****ed up. She told they have to go and blah blah blah.

Btw when I was going to toilet night before this event with E. one girl approach me and told me something like: “Hey you have to come with me, hurry!” I didn't knew WTF and I really needed to piss but she has gorgeous boobs and I couldn't resist. I went with her and she told me: “There is a problem with our friend, her name is Hania I know her parents harm her by this name but you have to meet her, she's hot!” I like hot women so I was even happier. I've meet all of those 3 girls. We were talking for a while and then one of them said: “Look at him, he's pretty handsome, go a head” “And you (she looked at me), hmmm.... listen.... how to put this..... She's alone in such a big tent if you know what I mean” I really needed to go to the toilet because I've drunk 2 vines so I told them “I really need to go to freaking toilet” then when I was going back they call out “Hey look over here” and I've seen Hania in only underwear I was watching few more moments and then made run for life to toilet.

Did I regret something up to this moment? Hell no. I kissed E. (only women I really cared about there.) I was so focus on picking up E. that I didn't went back to this tent but when I want something I go for it. Usually I really focus on just one thing and I don't consider something else. Right now I think I could easily go for “easy sex” and it wouldn't have impact but I didn't want to risk at that time. Only thing that is really pain in the ass for me is that I didn't take contact for E. She's very sexy, very intelligent women. She tease a lot and I liked to go to concert and to club with her... kinda... sorta... She's definitely in my type because I like sexy, intelligent women. Anyway I think I've learned my lesson and after I came back I did one direct conversation with one women.

I gave two friends 50 PLN each and I told them it's theirs if I won't call this women and I won't ask her for a date. I hate this word and I hated myself for making this commitment. I like money, I didn't want to look like pussy who's rather talk the talk than walk the walk so I called her. My heart was bumping like crazy, I had problems with saying single words but I did it. It went like **** because I was too nervous but I've heard somewhere that even if you are more confident with most girls there are still some of “the on girl” syndrome and it's still very hard to talk with them and do direct conversation. Long story short it ended up better than I thought but it's different story... xD

Long story short E. was my first women that I picked up. As far mostly I just let women pick me up . I did first step and let them do the rest. With her it was completely different. I was rejected like 9 times when I tried to kiss her, she was rejecting me for a while but I like it in a way. We both knew it's a part of the game. We both knew we are into each other but she was testing me like crazy mofo xD

Just eneded my grind. I knew I should end it at 2 but since holiday I run like **** I play like **** and add something extra to bad run form myself and was procrastitanating grind but work has to be done so was working 1.5h extra...

Hand of a day: http://weaktight.com/6711041 I was laughing so hard

raise to 16 on flop is better...u made it too big, on the other side that river is brutal

@ThinkItThrough
As default yes We had crazy meta game. This mofo was donk/calling donk 80% hands or so. He didn't give a damn about sizing. Why he should when he win everything xD



Since Holiday I didn't have good session. Thought times are fine. I am not humble so at least real word force me to work my ass off. I was grinding database to check how my frequencies works in real word. First I have to grind data, then I have to count how big my calling range should be, how big bluff catching range and all that crap. A lot of boooring work but when things doesn't go well I don't give a **** about what is boooring what is no I just work more on things I didn't work before. Also I realize I have to work on my mindset daily.... I lose too much cash on it. 40 euro here, 40 euro there and all of the sudden it's around 1-2k euro per month.

Bad session on poker table is not enough I also get some coolers in life but life is life. Bad things happen, you work, you grow, bad things go away, you are stronger than you were. Also because I live in Poland they add me 20% extra for taking few suplements from America.... Today they phoned me with question do I want to pay 20% more or they should resend vitamins to America. I can pay 20$ for nothing or add 25$ to order I wanted.... They made me a proposition I couldn't refuse.....

this month so far