Life is ****in’ awesome. I was frustrate with my life and angry at it. I hate that not everything was perfect. I saw Champions Stand Up one more time and I understood one thing. I did ****ing huge progress.

Even when it comes to numbers. I had more sex in this year than in last one. I had close relationships with girls more than last year. I earned more money this year than in last. I have bigger savings than I had. I had better body than year ago (now I need gain back my muscle because after this ****ing 3 weeks illness I lost like 10 kg or so) Everything is in progress and sometimes I angry that relation with GF aren’t perfect or something. I stopped giving **** about perfect life, I just need to improve. Life is ****ing awesome.

I need to reminds myself everything. I do some mistake that I didn't make before. I'll do some session review and go back to flow soon I hope.

Swingy day. I am gonna sleep. Tomorrow and day after tomorrow I am moving out to new place:

I am not with GF anymore. I am shocked that I act that way. Sleepless nights was something I was expecting but at Saturday I was eating sweet things (all day long ) to feel better with myself. Yesterday I was drunk, very drunk. Moved out to new place. I think it’s going to be pretty good because I live with my best friend.

PS. I still can’t believe that I forget to write a post yesterday.

I am very happy with that day. I got 2 coolers on Nl200 and lost like 400 euros in 5 min. I thought come one gimme more crap I’ll fight 8 hours no matter how many coolers I’ll get until I’ll play correctly. I am very satisfy with my game and I can’t wait until tomorrow. Of course I need to do session rev once again.

What a come back!:

Today's graph:

Next losing day. Was watching HU Masetermind today because I do to much fancy stuff:

Maybe some hands and thoughts ? I know youve been running this thread for a long time and you may not found motivation last days... As you reached NL1oo, we are waiting something more than graphs.

Keep crushing!

@tehgrizzly
I'll write something longer tomorrow. Today I am going out.


Today I had win stop day. I need to keep my winings for a while because I was losing and losing lately.


PS. Luckbox is my second name xD

I was ill for three weeks or so, now I am much worse in everything. I lost muscle, I am much weaker when it comes to strength, my poker skill drop down. I am worse than I was. Also I am less stable emotionally because luck of serotonin cuz I didn’t work out. I need to go back to lv 0. I need to gain some muscle, I don’t like what I see in the mirror, I don’t like what I see at the tables, I don’t like my strength and so forth. This month I am going to work harder to go back to level 0.

I realize that I need to work out regularly again. It has impact on my emotions. I made a mistake of working when I couldn’t decrease level of my stress by working out. Now I’ll come back to exercise, I’ll improve my poker skill and I need to change my game plan a bit to deal better on multitabling. I should have better default game. My aim was to play very good, now I need to change my game plan to be 80% times right but do it on 4 tables etc. It will improve my hourly. This time I think quantity over quality.

when do you think you'll arrive at your destination?

@revolio
What do you mean? A milionaire? I think in my twenties.

I'll stop posting graphs for a while, week or two. I also work more in HM2 to make sure my game is fine, I need to add reminders and goals for session again:

Two funny hands:


Hero (BB): $105.01 (105 bb)
SB: $30.31 (30.3 bb)

Preflop: Hero is BB with K A
SB raises to $4, Hero raises to $14, SB calls $10

Flop: ($28) 5 Q 8 (2 players)
Hero checks, SB checks

Turn: ($28) 2 (2 players)
Hero bets $20, SB calls $16.31 and is all-in

River: ($60.62) T (2 players, 1 is all-in)






Hero (SB): $49.61 (99.2 bb)
BB: $35.75 (71.5 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with K A
Hero raises to $1.50, BB calls $1

Flop: ($3) 3 8 9 (2 players)
BB bets $2, Hero raises to $4.50, BB calls $2.50

Turn: ($12) 7 (2 players)
BB bets $2.50, Hero raises to $9, BB calls $6.50

River: ($30) 5 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero checks

Million is a good target. A decade ago you might have been able to make it within your timeframe, bit harder now. Only (generally) good players left. But you have the confidence and motivation (and a demonstrated success by physically tweaking your body), so I wish you well.

{Always have a contingency plan and escape route though just in case)

@revolio
Thanks. Right now I am fully focused on just one goal poker. I will work until it will work. My escape route is computer programing, not such a bad earnings too. I won't be as good as other guys who focus on it but they can't earn as much as I when everything will work out. It was rather easy choice for me.



Next losing day. I think my mindset did improve. I don't get tilted becuase of it I just do my job, do session review and search for leaks. Do better warm ups and I am waiting for tomorrow to keep playing. Only think that can save my ass is volumen.

Sounds like a good plan. Even 1/2 millionaire is a good result also.

its just not the same without graphs :c

@revolio
yeah for sure

@czechvengeance
tomorrow I'll add grap with this month "winnings" but then I'll stop post graphs until the end of the week/month. Also tomorrow I'll write some reflections

Next losing day, next stoplose. Life is life. Poker is poker. Could did few things better. I will work until I’ll have upswing, both in life and poker.

Was procastiante my work and I am falling asleep. Everything is done. I did my job. Actually it's friday and I am not even tierd of poker. I want to play and play. Still I need to work on HM2 and I need to watch movies. I think in next week I should come back to my normal play. Current month graph:




Tomorrow I should have more time for reflections.

Good work out is what I needed. It has impact on my game and my well-being. Very short post because I’ll go to “haunted place”. Some fun is what I need right now.

Today had pretty funny day when it comes to vilians:

Hero (BB): $556.40 (278.2 bb)
SB: $119.64 (59.8 bb)

Preflop: Hero is BB with K Q
SB raises to $6, Hero raises to $20, SB calls $14

Flop: ($40) 4 3 J (2 players)
Hero bets $21, SB calls $21

Turn: ($82) T (2 players)
Hero bets $80, SB calls $78.64 and is all-in

River: ($239.28) 8 (2 players, 1 is all-in)

[/hand_history][/converted_hand]


Hero (SB): $59.52 (119 bb)
BB: $48 (96 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 7 8
Hero raises to $1, BB raises to $1.50, Hero calls $0.50

Flop: ($3) 2 2 5 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $1.50, BB raises to $3.25, Hero calls $1.75

Turn: ($9.50) 7 (2 players)
BB bets $7.10, Hero calls $7.10

River: ($23.70) T (2 players)
BB checks, Hero checks

[/hand_history][/converted_hand]

Hero (SB): $45.49 (91 bb)
BB: $19.26 (38.5 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 5 K
Hero raises to $1, BB calls $0.50

Flop: ($2) K J A (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $1, BB calls $1

Turn: ($4) 7 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $1.75, BB calls $1.75

River: ($7.50) Q (2 players)
BB checks, Hero checks

[/hand_history][/converted_hand]


Hero (BB): $97.28 (194.6 bb)
SB: $39.61 (79.2 bb)

Preflop: Hero is BB with Q A
SB raises to $1, Hero raises to $3.75, SB calls $2.75

Flop: ($7.50) 2 5 K (2 players)
Hero bets $5.25, SB calls $5.25

Turn: ($18) 6 (2 players)
Hero bets $13, SB calls $13

River: ($44) 2 (2 players)
Hero checks, SB checks

[/hand_history][/converted_hand]


And this is how to win at poker:

Hero (SB): $100 (100 bb)
BB: $102.91 (102.9 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 2 J
Hero raises to $2, BB raises to $5, Hero raises to $15, BB calls $10

Flop: ($30) 4 5 4 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $17, BB folds

[/hand_history][/converted_hand]

oh you win at poker by having a horrible sized 4bets? dully noted

Yesterday I was at abandon mental illness hospital for Jews, 100 ppl were shot here. It was pretty awesome. There were tags like: “he wants your blood”, “he’s watching you”, “he waiting for you”, “there is no come back” and so forth. When friend send me photo on mail I’ll post something more because she has Iphone 5 or something and she shoot better photo than on my phone. Mine make everything lighter than it should be.

ask gordon if he can teach you to cook gumbo. yummy!