@ThinkItThrough
I know what you mean. I like being angry. It gives more strenght to do things etc. Still I need to improve my skill of greatfulness becuase I am suck at it.



Had sleepless night. Slept like 4 hours total. Was thinking all the time about one chick and couldn’t fall asleep. Did few mistakes and yesterday it was over with her. What was funny I went to shop to buy some sweets because, I was very depressed, then I thought: “Could you stop being such a ****ing pussy? It’s over and now you gonna eat some ****ing sweets to feel better? You use sweets to feel better with your emotions, are you ****ing child or something? Go buy ice creams, buy ten cats, watch notebook and cry until you get fat, then repeat it over and over again, because nobody will take such a ****ing pussy”. Long story short I bought some “healthy” food and ate normal meal. I also cleaned my house and took a shower to feel better. The more I act like depressed pussy the more depressed I get so I broke this cycle. I let my anger rise, I let my frustration rise and I let my hunger rise, hunger for more. Tomorrow I am going to hang out with one chick. I spot her in bus at Friday and I told myself if she go out at my bus station I’ll go and told her I want to go out with her. She liked that idea and we’ll see because right now I am pissed, AGRRR…. xD

I am ****ing brainlesss vegetable after this session:

Two hands that sum up yesterday session:


Hero (SB): $70.49 (141 bb)
BB: $39.09 (78.2 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with K A
Hero raises to $1.50, BB raises to $2.50, Hero raises to $18.50, BB calls $16

Flop: ($37) 5 7 7 (2 players)
BB bets $20.59 and is all-in, Hero calls $20.59

Turn: ($78.18) J (2 players, 1 is all-in)
River: ($78.18) 5 (2 players, 1 is all-in)

Results:




BB: $54.65 (109.3 bb)
Hero (SB): $76.34 (152.7 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 4 5
Hero raises to $1, BB raises to $5, Hero raises to $9, BB raises to $13, Hero calls $4

Flop: ($26) 4 3 7 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $13, BB calls $13

Turn: ($52) 2 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $50.34 and is all-in, BB calls $28.65 and is all-in

River: ($109.30) 2 (2 players, 2 are all-in)

Results:


I am very very happy with my improvement when it comes to mindset. Yesterday I was mega tilted I mean mega mega. I was kicking wall, throwing things, slamming desk by keyboard I also did some harm to my hand when I was punching wall. I realize I am tilted. I went did some pushups then I did very cold shower and I came back to poker. This break took 5-10 minutes. Even HM didn’t count it as a break and I was playing 5-6 hours more after this tilt. It’s really a huge improvement. Okay maybe I am not insistent and still screaming + destroying everything around but after that tilt I was playing very solid and long. I did a very good job yesterday and I am proud of it. Of course I didn’t make mindset ealier so I was doing it after session…. 40 min of ****ing mindset exercise when you can barely think but as the quote goes:


The discipline you learn and character you build

from setting and achieving a goal can be more valuable

than the achievement of the goal itself.

WTF in ****ing hell is that 45o hand ????????????

@ThinkItThrough

I didn't saw he did 3bet me. I was 4 tabling. And I did this min 4bet. He was 3beting all Brodways, 3bet like 30% (I saw him with KJo in 3b pot), so he has huge range. He did call me twice for 3/4 pot size bets w/ K high on 987ss2o5s. If he has something he was just barreling like crazy. I gave him stack when he was betting 3 times Pot in 3bet pot w/ AA on Jxxxx. For me he has mostly A high and he may call them because of this GS + 2 overs.

I am verry happy with my mindset today. Had guy who hit 3 times better FH and once better str8 I was playing with him 400 hands to win it back and I even didn't say ****. Rake took my cash and his whole stack anyway I am glad about this session:




PS. Just 30 min of session review left

Good work so far. I'll definitely follow your progress. GL!

@Duo41
Yeah it's a lot of good work


Today was first day with mixing nl200:

Do you only play on pokerstars?

NL200 already? Whats your BRM?

hi can you explain more how you use this?

@Scorpp
Yes I do

@czechvengeance
Yep. Didn't change my BRM since NL100. Probably will stay with this BRM until NL1k or so.

@Funstar
Hi I don't use it anymore. I used it to help one guy from our group motiavte himself to work. He wanted to competite in this, to work harder, so I was using it. He gave up, Franek doesn't need motivation like that so I don't use it. I never liked it becuase when my work is done I don't give a **** how I spend my time.



Had free day, it passed sooooo fast. At the beggining I used to hate free days but when I grind and grind and grind I kind of like them.

Love your attitude. Crushuj dalej

@lestro
Będę.od.jutra

that's what I keep telling myself every day

@XMenCypher

I meant something different. I thought tomorrow I’ll win some money. When it comes to doing my best I do it every day. I do not make exceptions with my work ethic, I just don’t. When I am depressed I do my work, when I am heart-broken I do my work, when I tried because I didn’t sleep last night I do my work. When I feel lonely I do my work. There is no exceptions when it comes to it. When you push yourself to limit, you improve much faster. One repetition when you can barely move, when you feel like is **** Is worth 3 normal repetition, I do it all the time. No matter what is happening I am exping. When times get tougher I am just exping faster.




I am not happy with my yesterday play. I thought I was playing fine until I did Session Review. I think today I also made some mistakes. I never had a problem with fear before but now I think I have some problems with it. For last 4-5 days I am losing pretty often with strong hands. Even though only last two days are losing I still remember when my FH was crushed by quad, my FH was crushed by FH, str8 by str8, flush by flush, etc.

I had plans to make more soft tomorrow day and do some relaxing stuff but right now I can’t. I have date with HM2. I am going to spend 2h+ to spot where I am doing mistakes and to find out where I lose value. Problem with fear is that. When you run bad, you don’t have enough spots to earn money. When you don’t take enough value it increase variation and you are on bigger downswing. The more you are down, the less value you take, the more you are afraid of it and you are doing it until you get busto. That’s why tomorrow I am going to make very scrupulous Session Review from last week.

"I don't count my situps, I only start counting when it starts hurting, when I feel pain, that's when I start counting, cause that's when it really counts."

- Muhammad Ali

@czechvengeance
Damn great quote. No wonder that he was crushing everyone





This guy took more than 1.5 BI and run away. I was tilted because he took almost all my money from room and stupid poker room didn’t give me deposit more cash >_< It said password was wrong. Those ****ing morons ask for password to poker room when you try to make deposit, not for skrill pw….

Hero (SB): $107.44 (53.7 bb)
BB: $89.36 (44.7 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with T 8
Hero raises to $4, BB calls $2

Flop: ($8) 5 K 4 (2 players)
BB bets $5.60, Hero raises to $17.36, BB calls $11.76

Turn: ($42.72) 9 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $26, BB calls $26

River: ($94.72) 2 (2 players)
BB bets $2, Hero calls $2

Results:

Guy from Polish community Domycia told me that I said I’ll do gratitude every day and I don’t . It hit me. For next month I’ll write what I am grateful for every day. I delay work on my happiness for 2 years now.

So yesterday I wrote on Polish blog that I am grateful for Domycia post. I would forget about it but because of him I’ll do it for next month or so.

Today I am grateful for my health and my physical ability. I saw one guy who couldn’t walk normally and then I realize how lucky I am that I can walk, run, train, fight, normally.

nice thread! glgl

lol epic hand... but srsly ship river

@Brigov
Thanks

@czechvengeance
xD shoving River would be tooooo fancy. I should just bet like 3/4 Pot it was my mistake

I am greatfull that I came back after huge tilt and was still playing my solid game. I am dying after doing all things I had to do so tomorrow I'll write more. Today I need to ****ing sleep

Must be some mistake on July 31st.... EV 2,1k in 600 hands at NL50 while loosing 800 ???

tilitflipping for 2k obv

Pawel mix 3 stakes so from nl50 to nl200 due to poor traffic in HU. SO to make any reasonable volume he need to mix stakes. Probbaly running extremely poorly at nl100 nl 200 and probably € I believe. ( so it would be like like 5-7 BI on nl100-nl200 € which sounds reasonable).

Just my guess but I talk with Pawel daily so I assume that it was like that.

I go get drunk: