It's ****ing insane. I was ****ing tilted then I spot I have EV line in my HM and I even ****ing more tilted. Stupid ****ing ****:





With EV I should be 200$ in plus and I am ****ing down 400$.




I removed this **** but I am still tilted as ****.

It’s so much better. I feel I have less accumulated emotions. I went for walk and usually I hoped that I’ll get in fight or something. I was angry and I wanted to get rid of that. Today I went for relaxing walk and almost didn’t want to get in fight (only with two guys). I also feel pretty good right now. It pass faster than it used to. Anyway I need to add some mindset exercise to improve it.

just hopped in and I can see a lot of emotional swings and major tilt. hope you sort that

@unaPerse

You know those swings last less and less time. Usually you can get rid of stress in two ways. At the table by spewing or away from table by slamming desk etc. It's still a problem and I am going to start working on it once again. I gave up for week or two on mindset exercise. Bright side is that it's improving. It was much worse at the beggining.

Been following for some time now. Really nice thread man gj! About tilt have you considered recording yourself. If you still tilt post it on here :P

You know, tilting is not an option. Its sad and dissapointing when you do, oposite to happiness. You have to lose if you want to win. Looks like it should be oposite, but things are the way they are. Two steps further, one step back. When youre tilting its hard to play A+ game and you win less. Play less when loosing, play more when winning.

How long does it take when you start tilting ? Can it be the first 20min, 30min, an hour ? Analyse yourself, know your mind-tilt patterns so you can avoid. I knwo its hard, but we all can improve in no time if we really want to.

Thanks. Yeah I used to do it. I’ll start it over again because I have one week break with it


How long does it take when you start tilting ? Can it be the first 20min, 30min, an hour ? Analyse yourself, know your mind-tilt patterns so you can avoid. I knwo its hard, but we all can improve in no time if we really want to.[/QUOTE]
Yeah I know it need to be fixed. I have pretty solid A to C game analysis I am still working on it so I know few of my mindset and skill patterns. I also need to add warm ups once again because after 1.5 months of doing it I had a break.

With tilt it depends. Yesterday I was tilted after 5 min and I punched wall few times after that I was playing for next 5 hours or so until I get tilt once again. Usually I get tilted after 4 hours of playing or something like that if I didn’t win anything for a long time.



Pretty crazy day. Was going back home with 9kg bag for 40 min. I was looking mega awesome I had jacket nice jeans etc and I had a feeling that someone was going to rob me. I was going back alone through park and there was two drunk groups of meatheads that I needed to ask how I can go back home because I am lost. My phone was running out of batter so GPS didn’t work. Anyway I meet new chick her name is Caroline she seems very nice and she was very nice to me. Anyway I forgot to say anything else than just HI and staring at her because she was going to take a shower… She was talking it’s nice to meet me and all that crap (I was wearing jacket so I needed to just smile to have her attention… ) I think I’ll meet my friend soon to talk with his roommate a bit more….

Looks like you are still results oriented. With tilt issues, i think you have to cut down session time or split into parts. One more thing should help. Do things that keeps yo uaway from tilting. I think it would be great if you set shoooooort term goals for the session f.e play 2 hours and dont look anywhere near you would see session results(money won/lost, graphic or smth else). And yeah, warmups and practise practise practise.

@tehgrizzly

Nah I am not that results oriented. If you win then you are more relax. I get tilted mostly when recreational player win with me. Or when someone put huge pressure on me all the f.cking time. I had days when I was happy with my play and my mindset when I was down 4-5 BIs and there was times when I was tilted even though I won 6-7 BIs. I have goals for session but there are most likely skill reminders. Thanks for advice!






I was tired, sweaty and looked like ****. I had no energy because I was on my way home from Mai Thai. I pressed stop button but it didn’t work so I needed to go out on next bus station. I told myself that if chick that sit almost in front of me go out with me I’ll told her I like her and I want to go out with her.

She left with me…. It was last thing I wanted to do because I knew that most likely she won’t be interest in me because I was looking bad and smelling bad at that moment. I was afraid of saying it to her so I grab her arm to have no choice….. It was 11 PM and it was night so she was scared and I was sure I won’t get her number. But I didn’t make it for her I did it for me. It’s still very uncomfortable for me to say to random chick directly what I want.

I am still nervous while doing it. But I know there is no way around. I can’t fu.ck around the bush. I need to do my work to achieve what I want to achieve. When I meet new girl I can’t have less than zero. The worst thing what can happen is that she won’t give me her number. The base case scenario is that she’s a nimfo or I’ll fall in love with her (because she’s nimfo… ). Normal case scenario is that we will end up having casual sex, maybe even kinky if I’ll be lucky enough. Anyway I can’t have less than that and that’s why I need to practice.

Pretty hard session. Had 5 times str8 / flush vs Full House.


There is one thing that always amazed me about chicks. They know when to write to you. I mean when you almost stop giving damn about them. Today one chick did it. She has my attention after she remind me how I liked her ass. She has my attention after writing what she’ll wear on our meeting. She made me pretty horny after those sms… I hope she just won’t screw it up.

T_T I am wierdo. I tried to do only one ****ing thing tomorrow because I was tierd and I was lying in bed thingink for 20 minutes or so how my whole life will ****ed up after skipping this one thing... I wake up angry did this **** and I am going to bed right cuz I am exhausted....

last post? huh???

@kerwinty
My thoughts are tilting sometimes. They work like that: “oh yeah, today you give up on this, tomorrow you’ll find more things and you will end up poor, because poor ppl make exceptions all the time” then I start think about failing at everything, get tilted and do my work . I was working on my mindset yesterday for 30 min and that’s why I wake up from bed.

Today only one session:

looks like you are crushing how many bi do you have/need for these games? cool, didn't know if that post was referring to a chick or poker!

@kerwinty

You mean at at nl100 or nl200? It was post referring to poker, to be more specific to mindset. With crushing we'll see. Have one tough week so I am more sceptic about my skill. If I'll crush like that soon I'll move up to Nl200 8)


Very nice first session:

keep working hard polish man. im impressed

@ViktorLuis
I'll and I am also impresed by my performance


graph for today:

Nice progress man! So you dont play on PS/FTP at all? (as i see you play in euros)

@czechvengeance

I do. But when I play my first hand on Ipoker you see Euro. When on PS you see $.


funny hand:

Hero (SB): $43.77 (87.5 bb)
BB: $31.46 (62.9 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 9 7
Hero raises to $1.50, BB raises to $4, Hero calls $2.50

Flop: ($8) 7 5 9 (2 players)
BB bets $27.46 and is all-in, Hero calls $27.46

Turn: ($62.92) 3 (2 players, 1 is all-in)
River: ($62.92) 4 (2 players, 1 is all-in)

Results:

and guy who knew he's FD doesn't count anymore:

Hero (SB): $32.39 (64.8 bb)
BB: $23.61 (47.2 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 9 Q
Hero raises to $1, BB calls $0.50

Flop: ($2) 9 3 Q (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $1.50, BB calls $1.50

Turn: ($5) Q (2 players)
BB folds

I am pissed last 1.5h was ****ing anoying :

today's graph:

Maybe overal graphs ?

@tehgrizzly

Good idea will think about it


Damn today I had awesome day. There was one chick, very long tanned legs, great ass, short shirt and very nice face. She was very hot, she was looking at me for a while. I was with friend we went to bus she went there too. I was looking at her and when she was leaving I was trying to leave too. My friend told me. Hold on, go out on next bus stop. I told him I tried to told her I want to go out with her somewhere.

We go out on different bus station and 3 min latter we meet her again… I looked at him, he looked at me. He went away and I was staying there on my own. I’ve heard blood bumping threw my veins. I’ve heard my heart was hitting like crazy. I went to her and I tried to talk something to her. She was suppressed and she jumped. She told me : “hey you don’t scare me like that”. I just made a nervous smile and told her “I like you and I want to go out with you”. “You’re another guy that tell me that today, I rejected it before”. My head was full of thought, chaos was everywhere. It was very stressful for me and we were talking for a while.

I told her I go to Wrolaw this weekend so I can’t meet her soon. She told me “It’s weird! I go to Wroclaw too” Long story short I get her contact and we should go out somewhere next weekend. I went off the bus. My heart was hitting like crazy, I was shaking for a while. Then I felt endorphin rush in my body. It’s ****ing addicting…

I like feeling when my hear hit like crazy, I like when my legs are shaking, I like when I have problems with talking, when I talk with them and there isn’t ****ing anything around there. There is only her and me. It’s still very stressful for me but I kind of like it. I just wonder can I get addicted from those emotions…

Good stories. i noticed that your english is getting better too. Bring on some overal graphs(can be without ev).

@tehgrizzly

Great to hear that my English improved. I'll post overall graph day after tomorrow. I am going to other city for two days so I won't play and I'll put it as a post