4th lossing day in a row. Today I handled it great. Said twice or three times "****" and this is all. I felt frustrate a bit when I had two guys who was raising every flop and 3beting a lot, they were playing with me at the same time. Today I handled everything great. I finded out that most of my job on my mindset I did outside of poker table. That's why I decided that I'll rewatch every table where I lost cash. I'll watch every hand on those tables. I spoted some mistakes I made. Usually it's not a big problem when you're running good or normal but when you running bad you need to focus on every mistake you made. I have two choice I can bitching that I am running bad or I can use those bad run to work more on my game away from the table. Of course I'll chose second option becasue first doesn't change anything. I am watching again Gordon's course I'll make some new notes and I'll find out what I am doing wrong.

PS. I got email from mail list with title: "It will pass". It seems promisingly

4th*

It's called power of Pain and Pleasure! This is powerful stuff, thank you for reminding about this.

I want to do a quote from book called "Awaken the Giant Within":
Good luck!

@lestro
Thanks a lot! If you'll spot other mistakes don't hesitate to let me know, it will improve my progress


Thanks I read Awake the Gigant within. I even have paperbook. Our punishments remind me this topic pretty often. I think this book have some great exercise to implement in poker eg. Power of words. You gave me idea of using this exercise in poker while grinding.




Yupi! Winning session!


Those guys today was f.cking insane. They didn’t let me go. I had a plan to play 3h session and make a break, long story short I’ve been playing for ~420 min… I had run for life to fridge to grab chuck steak and some rice to eat. I didn’t prepare anything to eat because I didn’t want to play for soooo long….

Sometimes I wonder how the f.ck I can eat sooooo much I came back from gym and ate 300-400 gram of chuck steak with 3 bags of rice. After that I fall down at bed and fall asleep for nearly an hour. Waked up and went to grind. I think I need to work out a bit softer…

I’ll definitely give up on those sh.t from market. I don’t eat junky food buy when I moved out I used to buy prepare meat. It’s less tasty, less healthy and more expensive. This is second time when I bought raw meat and did something on my own. It’s much more tasty, it’s healthier and I feel much better after it. It takes some time but for f.ck’s sake it’s even enjoyable. I like doing it and I’ll definitely do it more often. It will help me gain some weight. Soon I’ll try doing something fancy

Cooking is fun. Turn on the tunes, grab a beer (or other beverage of choice) prepare some food. Great times! And it even impresses the women if you can cook for them

Guys were, because guys is plural.

One guy was, two guys were (crazy etc.)

@spideysteve
Yeah it’s also great way to spend time with someone not only with women. I still remember that me and my friend used to prepare something to eat after gym at his place. It was fun. And for women it’s of course work well, especially if you know how to serve it

@lestro
Hahaha thanks again! Damn, now I need to pay more attention to things I write

I am very happy today because I went back after tilt, play solid and won some more money. I wanted to do a break but then I saw Gordon movie from his tilt free course and go back to playing, here's the outcome:



One of exercise was to write down 10 things that you complain about. I wrote down 3 things and have problems to write something more. I was searching something on my blog, I spotted two more things and gave up with searching something new. Anyway I am going to do exercise he gave in his course. Since today I am making a "Stop Whining Bitch challenge" I won't complain or write complains in next 10 days. I am not allowed to complain out loud or write bad beat stories for ten days. If I fail I’ll start this exercise again. I am not count a trash talk or swearing as a complains, it’s a hobby of mine and somehow I like it

btw made my day:

cool blog, very motivating stuff! keep on going.

You play only on one euro network or many different?

@AWESOMENESS

I am glad you like it I decided to keep in private all my poker rooms. I am talking only about IPoker because I said it at the beginning of the blog that I am playing there. Right now I am playing on 2-3 poker rooms because I want to build my bankroll first and foremost so I think it isn’t that much.



Guys from mindset group told me to install rescue time to have data how much we are working. I haven’t seen those data until today. This is how it looks like after 4 days:

Stop Whining Bitch challenge day first. Today I was complaining three times. Two times to myself and once via skype. I start again tomorrow. I didn’t realize how often I feel the urge to complain until this challenge. I was watching next part of Gordon course and from today on I won’t look at EV graph. I have few reflections why it’s bad. First of all it don’t give me any advantages. When I am above I am afraid it will end and I am not happy about my winning sessions. When I am below I make excuses to not work hard on my game. Eg. When I lose 3 BIs and I am 3 BIs under EV I think session was fine and I don’t look hard to find my leaks. When I am above I am afraid when I below I pissed so why they f.ck I should use it? I don’t know that’s why I deleted bb EV and EV winnings from my HM.

I am working on my accumulated emotions. I am testing two routines from elite athletes training. It improve regeneration of body. I am strongly believe that most physical problems come from mind. It’s called psychosomatic and I believe it works both ways. That’s why I try to get rid of mindset problems by improving my body regeneration. I’ll write more about it later on. Let’s say after 2 months of testing it. If it will improve my performance I’ll share it with you guys. Today I had tilt I even wasn’t aware that I threw few things. I founded it later on, on the floor. I think I didn’t spew money because my tilt wasn’t big, tomorrow I’ll find out.

Graph for today:



PS. AWESOMENESS pretty cool awatar
PSS. New chapter of Champions stand up one more time is available. This chapter include me

It’s kind of funny that today I spend 5 hour on playing poker and 10 hours on poker total. I was watching Gordon’s video. I was building ranges with poker stove and doing Session Review from today game. With mindset exercise and writing goals it’s something like 12h. I can’t play because I had stop lose. I thought about few things and I know that I waste a lot of the time on learning in a wrong way. I’ll make a few fundamental change in my learning process. I am glad I found it out because now I can learn it different way and save a lot of the time. It is more boring way but it seems it’s more effective. I had few ideas from blog of one of good Polish PLO players. Champion is champion no matter what he play. I’ll write about more about changes latter on. First I need to test them and see how good they are. I didn’t complain today out loud or on the skype. Still I complain sometimes in my mind but I try to cut it. First challenge is only about speaking and writing maybe I’ll change it when I’ll try to do it once again in the future. Today I am very glad from my session. I handled it great and I didn’t find bigger mistakes in my game. Outcome looks like that:


Still it’s one of better session I had in a long time. I am probably a lot under EV. From 6 all ins preflop I won one flip. Lose 3 times when I was ahead eg AJs < KJo, QQ <88 and AJs < QJ or something like that. It doesn’t matter I don’t see EV line so I don’t give a damn **** about it.

It would be great if you could post your graphs in big blinds. Not all play or remember what limit you play.
Also it's easier to compare results from different stakes.
I think only big graphs (week, month, 25k hands) should be in USD.

Does it make sense?

@Apurvam
Fine no problem for me


Guys from mindset group are crazy. They want to improve their productivity… Because of that I needed to stop wasting time while using PC. I love competition so I don’t give them win with me easy in challenge called “who will have more productivity”. I stopped wasting my time on PC I almost only working because of that I go out more than I used to. I need to start “stop whining bitch” challenge once again. I was swearing soooooo much today

how many tables do you play up to the same time?

@AWESOMENESS

I try on two but sometimes I play on three at the same time. Usually I want to leave one guy but I have problems with that. Sometimes I am to greddy and this is not that good thing. It really depend of opponents.



Today I had day away from poker. I don’t feel rest or something like that. I think I need to learn how rest in those days. 90% of time I was away from home and I think it was good idea, still I don’t feel any difference.

Last week I’ve been working on poker and mindset for 9.5-12 hours a day. This week will be more relaxing. I need to get tan a bit I was working too much at home and I get ashen. I work for 2 hours on my leaks every day. I'll work here for few weeks:




Playing is more comortable at home but when you are learning something new. Searching for leaks it doesn't matter that much. Today I was complaining again. This 10 days without complaining is harder than I thought. Ipoker frezze my account for 6-7 days and they send me back emails that they can’t do anything with it. Today I send them a lot of swears. I told them if **** like that are soooooo hard for them I don’t see any point to play on their poker room and I added few more swears. Two hours latter somehow my account was working. It's sad that sometimes you need to be aschole or they won't give damn **** about you.

Or you're gonna be an ******* and they'll ban you for being a degenerate as bwin used to do.

How do you search for your leaks?

@lestro
I doubt they would do such a thing. They let me no choice, if they didn’t want to do it in polite way that’s fine I adapted. I am happy enough that I have soooooooo many leaks it’s not a problem for me to find something to work on.

I am aware of my leaks because:
1) I do voice notes while playing, if I get pissed I make a note why (most of those things are mindset leaks that I am working on away from table but some of them are poker leaks because I don’t know how to adapt and that makes me tilt)
2) I do SR every day and I write down my leaks to doc file. I can easily spot what leaks are most common
3) While playing if I have problems with something, (Think a lot about something I mark a hand or write a note) after that I search in HM those spots
4) If I am not sure some hands sometimes I use filters in HM and see how those hands were played. Last time I spot that I lost 1.3k $ in pots where I didn’t hit a pair and board was connected. I am sure I could save a ton of money even that was small spots.


Tried to spend less time on poker but forgot about it and again did more work then I tried to do:

I am working away of the table on my cbeting habit because on autopilot I cbet 100% boards vs every enemy. I think it will take two weeks or something but I need to work on my biggest leaks. Total time on poker today 9.5h. I didn’t complain, it’s a great success!!!!

I am sick, my head is killing me and was complaining a lot. Those bitches from Polish government give taxes on flopzila…. I pay 30% more for e-books because of the. With flopzila is the same… price of flopzila is 45$ and with taxes it’s something like 60$.....

Head is really killing me. Because of that I decided that today I won’t make any notes. My goal for today was to playing my b-game. I did it. I was even thinking about not playing today but I prefer to play until I really can’t move away from bed. Good point of being sick is that I was too tired to move away. Was just playing one long session.

I don't think that should ever be anyone's goal.

wow nice posts man I actually learned a few things from them. Goodluck and 5x

That's the price for a civilized society muahhaha... ( i hope nobody is really believing this bull****)

What about buying via mbookers? Or perhaps just saying that you're from another country...

You right. When I had headache, when I was angry and I felt bad success was to play that long session. Playing my B-game was great thing to. Sometimes I’ll play better sometimes I’ll play not that bad. Yesterday I didn’t want to put pressure on me because playing was hard enough.

Thanks. I am glad that my experience can help someone learn something.

Yeah I bought it via skrill yesterday. I can't tell them I am from other country because they check IP when want to pay. Still via skrill is normal price.


Pretty funny day. At the beggining I had card dead and was running pretty bad. I was angry at ecerything, still had headache and I felt urge to crush something. I went to the gym, I was running faster than usual, was lifting more than usual, end faster than usual. The best part of it is that I forgot to take my BCAA and I was training with pure water. It seems anger work better than supplements When I came back I was high. I felt serotonin because of exercise I feel great, happy is beautiful and other ****s like that I still was running pretty bad but this time I was laughing at it a bit. I think the best idea was to go to the gym. I felt bad, had headache but I told myself I don’t have time for illness and I need to work out so I went and now it’s gone. At the end of the day I was watching Gordon in action. He was really great. Even running so bad he found few place where he made advantage.

I did tilted. I was throwing things, I was screaming swears I was punching desk still I am very happy how good I handled tilt, why? I calmed down myself 4 times by using deep breath. I didn’t spew and I don’t feel any pain at my hand. I was running dead for 2 hours or so. I gave 3-4 stacks and then I got nutz on the flop. I got QT on KJ9ss board I cbet guy raised I did 3 bet and he shoved. Then poker room crushed and I lost my chance to win his stack.

I was mega mega mega angry. I go out for a walk and after 10 min it passed. I was pretty happy and I was walking for an hour. Now I am calmed down and I want to go to sleep. Tomorrow I’ll write what I finded out.

How in the world you have 1163 hands in 499 mins?
Is that 9man live or HU online?

Btw. Nice work keep grinding, and crushing tilt..