I wrote that I’ll be extremally busy in a next few days. I kept in private that I am searching for a new flat. Sometimes I like to write about progress and how everything works sometimes I just prefer to show what I’ve done. In this case I just want to show you guys some results.

The more courageous we are the less we try to control future. Don’t get me wrong, for me controlling future and creating them is two different things. I am a big fun of creating our future I work toward my goals every day and do my best to achieve my dream goals. I used to love controlling my future. I used to feel comfortable with that but as the time goes I care less and less about it. Is it a good thing? I don’t know and I don’t care that much. The longer I live the more confident I feel with my goals. The more confident I feel about them the less I try to control my future.

To give you a good example for this, let’s say in both case you want to become a millionaire. When you try to control your future, you spend every minute on planning, on thinking how something can work. What you should do. Second approach is far different. You plan a bit, you don’t create a very specific plan. You know that you can adapt no matter what. You are confident with your skills and that’s why you just need to know where you are going. All you need to do is do your job, search for new opportunities and adapt. You don’t care about future that much. Of course in both case you work hard on your goals.

At the begging of this year I told myself this year is going to be a year of courage and changes. For f.ck’s sake I even didn’t realize what I wish for… I am happy with my achievement of previous year. I wasn’t fluent at English. I was at second worst group in my school. Now I am far better, I did two academic years in 3/4 year and now I am 4 groups higher. Math and PC was hard for me and last year I was second / third best in my group and gave tuition. I saved some money and other boooooring stuf. Even that year was good I wasn’t too happy about it. I felt that something was missing in my life.

I didn’t feel good with my life, I didn’t care about it that much. I didn’t feel alive. That’s why I told myself: dude you have nothing to lose: gogogogo. It’s funny when we think we have something to lose we act more safe but when we realize that we have nothing to lose we are ready for everything. Do I had something? Hell yeah but when you don’t care about your life and you don’t live your dreams you still have nothing to lose and even if you live your dreams you can always have bigger and wilder dreams..

I work with Gordon for a three weeks now. I am really glad we are working together and I knew I need to change but I didn’t know that I’ll change that much. I set up my life for achieve just one goal now, become successful NL1k HU player. Everything else matter less even if it still very important for me. I change everything to support me better with this goal. I gave up on of my dream goal. I was a Camp America member and I had an opportunity to go to America for holiday. I needed to give up on it because it would took too much time. I needed to move out. Of course moving out when you’re NL4 HU player is stupid and risky but do I care? My life totally depend on this one goal so I need to be hundred percent sure I’ll do everything to achieve this goal. I may have some struggles and problems at the beginning but it’s totally worth it. I can win totally new quality of life.

When I think about my old problems they make me smile. I used to spend too much time on skype, facebook, 9gag and other websites. I was playing web browsers games and do other unproductive stuff. Now I don’t have time for that stuff, I needed to give up on them. I use my private skype account less and less often, I rarely use facebook and do other things that I used to do. I don’t have too much free time but I wake up with f.cking great smile on my face almost every day. I feel much better than I used to and now I value my life and time a lot. I play and learn poker, write blogs, work out, study for uni, hang out with friends, date with chicks, there is really not too much free times left still I don’t care about it because I feel better. I feel much better I happier and I am very glad that I discovered such a great strength within me.






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Tomorrow I'll add some photos. I am still fighting with PC. I borrow from my friend PC who has 2.2GHZ and 2 GB ram so it's not that bad but it's so f.cking unstable that it makes me insane mad because it frezze all the time. Usually three - four frezzes every hour. I did register cleaning twice (3k register errors) I am updating that b.tch 140 windows update... Tomorrow I'll defragment it and improve few things so it should work better. Today I bought 4Mbs internet and I am glad that I got rid of that. In my appartment I had cable internet but it was insane slow. My phone load gmail 4 times faster that this ****...

This is where I play atm:


I can't wait to test it:

If you know what I mean ....

I don't think I had problem with spewing money but today I am not sure... I've been playing 2x3h and once 2h. I wanted to spend more on game becuase I had break. I didn't look at cashier, I was mega angry and was swearing a lot. I think I had coller after coller tomorrow I'll find out. This is what I saw after match and what made me even more mad:


I didn't thought it was that bad.... I learned how to control my emotions after game, usually I left poker behind I don't think about it and I feel happy but I decided that I want to feel like **** for the rest of the day. Today I want to feel as bad as I can. Now I see how improtant is balanced life. I had some things that bother me, I even wrote them but I delete them becuase complaining is something what champions don't do.

Tomorrow I am going to:
make session review with most of the hands
put some hands in hand evaluation
make homework from Gordon HU mastermind

As long as I don't solve all things that bother me I need to play more carefully. I am not sure about session lenght, maybe I even should keep it shorter for a while. I am very glad that I joined mindset study group. I have a lot of the things that I can work on and guy who has more experience than I do help us to do this. The idea is to work together on mindset and share experience. I need it a lot because Gordon with help me with my skill and I'll move up fast but my mindset won't change that fast if I won't work on it. It means work hard on both mindset and skill but it will help me achieve my goals even faster. Work hard go pro.

Run like sh.it, achieved my stoplose in 70min.... Can't play so I'll make session review, do homework, watch Gordon movie and make some mindset exercise.




both hands vs:


Hero (SB): $10.24 (102.4 bb)
BB: $14.41 (144.1 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with J 9
Hero raises to $0.20, BB raises to $0.60, Hero calls $0.40

Flop: ($1.20) 9 8 3 (2 players)
BB bets $0.90, Hero raises to $1.80, BB raises to $13.81 and is all-in, Hero calls $7.84 and is all-in

Turn: ($20.48) 9 (2 players, 2 are all-in)
River: ($20.48) T (2 players, 2 are all-in)




Hero (SB): $4.88 (48.8 bb)
BB: $28.17 (281.7 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with T Q
Hero raises to $0.20, BB raises to $0.60, Hero calls $0.40

Flop: ($1.20) 3 8 Q (2 players)
BB bets $0.90, Hero raises to $1.80, BB calls $0.90

Turn: ($4.80) 9 (2 players)
BB checks, Hero bets $2.48, BB calls $2.48

River: ($9.76) 6 (2 players)

Today I found great movie:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature...&v=ZtLlfdyDySY

School is getting harder and harder. That means I must do something I've never done before. I must start learning with people. I am indivudalist and I like to do things on my own. I always prefere individual sports, even in computer games I always chose carry because I play those character much better than most people. It works great with my personallity.

Anyway I am working with two guys for a week and a half now in: mindset development group and we are cooperating. It works pretty well and it much more efective. I feel better to work on my own but working together is more efective and that's why I am going to change it. After a while it will become my second nature and I'll be nearly as comfortable with it as in working on my own. It's something I need to change to achieve my goals faster. And it's definetely worth feeling uncomfortable for a month or two. Now I'll go to sleep. For 6 hours I wake up to school.

Sleeeep. After all day long at school I came back home to fight with my desktop.... It is working, graphic card was damage and I have new one. I have problem with wifi card, maybe someone have some will have an idea.

I have wifi usb card. I bought abonament from hotspot. My PC is after format. I uninstalled antywirus to make sure it isn't the issue. I also turned off firewall on windows. I can connect from this card to this hostpot at laptop. I can connect from this card at my desktop to hotspot from my mobile phone. But I can't connect to this hotspot where I bought internet. Someone have any ideas?

I was addicted, I am addicted, I'll die addicted. I am addicted to serotonin, I need it as much as I need oxygen to breath. I can't live without it. I had a break from gym because of my moving out. Usually I take 7 days break to regenerate my body. Now I took 11 days off. It was fu.cking sick for me. I felt so bad because of that I felt that something was missing from my life and I didn't know what. Today I had first trening after a break. When I was going back home there was nothing. There was no past, there was no future, there was only me on high. I was mega happy and I was going back home with a big smile. I was absent, I was numb, I was happy.

I am addicted to it, I can't live without it. I have year break from drugs and alcohol that's why I learned how to get serotnin from gym and from dating with some women. I know if I can't do those two things it will end with drugs and alcohol. This is my curse, this is my bless. It will take me to the top of the world or to the bottom. There is nothing in between. Not for me, It's the worst thing I can imagine. I know I can't have mindless life with silent depression becuase it wouldn't end that way. Just few reflections after still beeing on high after work out.

I am sick about all those problems outside of poker. I just want to grind and don't care about anything. I'll buy chose one of these:

http://allegro.pl/laptop-lenovo-y580...139940882.html

http://allegro.pl/laptop-msi-ge70-i5...152668994.html

Was checking few laptops. Order two to shop to find out with one is better and I think I'll chose third one.. One with 18.3" screen.

After poker session I wanted to go to sleep but I had nice idea. I send sms to my friend. "Are you sleeping?" "No" "Wanna go out?" "Now?" "Yeah" and off we went. She show me two parks. I didn't knew she lives 4 min away from me. She asked me: "Do you remember our bet year and a half ago?" "Yeah" "I lost it on purpose, I wanted you to win", damn she's sooo sweet I am very glad she leave nearby. I think it's not our last night walk.

What was the bet?

MSI laptop seems nice, but I think it's because I like 17 inch laptops

You and every other terrible player think that way. Even if you somehow feel that you're special (you're not,) you're not going to win anything without a balanced team but alas I'm going off topic so I'll leave it there.

Saw your half naked photos in OP and stop reading, wtf?? You western guys are really messed up, you should move here on south-east and try showing your muscles... Lol

Do no bother responding to this post, he is a poster in STT strategy section of the forums and nothing but a bad poster or a troll. (we think both)

You are great poster... Haha

We are not doing this in this guy's thread. If you want to confront me bring it to private message. I was just helping him out, you clearly are rude.

Im sorry OP didnt want to be rude, its just cultural clash I would say, here on Balkan we laugh to guys who are taking pictures of themselves, but hey who am I to judge what is wrong and what right, keep crushing poker, that only matters here..

@debacle
What do you mean?

@XMenCypher
Yeah I order it. I should have it tomorrow

@MrAbbertini
You're right with balanced team. That's why I sometimes chose tank or support even if I didn't like them.
When I was playing dota on warcraft 3 I had 68% win on 200 games. For me it means that I was good at this game.
I wasn't weekend player I was grinding in dota for 12-14 hours a day when I didn't have a school I used to be hardcore no life

@Fran
Break the rules! Show your back!
PS. Few of my friends think it's gay to make photos of your progress. For me it's like hand evaluation in poker. I have data of my size, photos, and my work out routine since I started. Few big guys who I know do the same thing and this is what matter for me.

@Dochrohan
Thanks for warm


I ordered MSI. Tomorrow I should have it.

today's and yesterday's graph:


It's funny that I chose poker because I've thought it's easy money. Now I am working more than ever before. I not only doing poker but I need to work on my mental leaks and mental problems. I am really glad that I am in a mindset development group we do a lot of work from Poker Mindset together.

I think that's what he means



BTW


It's not gay if u try to do something good with ur body, still better than sitting in front of TV and eating **** pizza all day.

I'm just mad that I always had teams with 4 carries.

Nice results for today and yesterday, keep it up!

Ah it was bet. I read it best.... The bet was an excuse to hold her hand I told her that she'll drop a sausage (we were at camp fire) she told me she won't. So I told her: "so let's make a bet". She agreed so I holded her hand for few minutes and we were thinking about what we can make that bet I holded her hand, watched into her eyes and talk about something. I even don't remember about what. The key is that after year she still remember that bet...

@19TS47
Yeah of coruse. You know when someone tell something is gay I don't give a sh.it. Seriosly I've heard things like: "You care about your helth? It's gay", "You want to look well? It's so gay" and my favourite one: "You hang out with chicks, it's soooo gay, comeone come with us and grab a beer." I don't give a damn if something is gay or not I care only if it's working or not. I decided I give a chance longer hair. I want to have something like this:



Can't wait to heard that I am gay because I have longer hair

@MrAbbertini
If you know how to play you must chose your char last. There is no other option because most people take only heroes to steal kills. It used to be that way when I was playing I think it's still the same.

Today I didn't play. Spend all day long on doing new laptop. Few more things and it will be great machine for grinding. Sad thing is that I wasted two - three hours on dealing with second screen. Somehow it didn't worked and the issue was simple. It just changed input options from HDMI to ANTHENA. The birght side is that I have best drivers for everything... But I wasted so much time on something that stupid...

I did some homework today I'll do more tomorrow. I need to done all homework because that's what Gordon want me to do before shooting NL50 and I think I am ready so I'll just focus only on homework.

@Homework: Yes. I am strict with this. You will see that 99,999999% of people play many years poker getting nowhere.

ImaChampion is now playing NL400 after playing NL4 like half year ago. If he had followed me 100%, we would be playing NL600 or higher already.


@ Poker and hard work: Yes and no. You will see. Making 100k + at any other job will typically take you years. Poker is still to easy to be true. It's one of those things that is to good to be true, but is true anyways .

Right now we will work ultra hard, but only because we wanna move up to NL1k in a year. Once you learnt how this poker stuff works, you will actually be able to be quite lazy.

By the way, this is not a good thing. Printing money can become boring (i know this will sound cynical and arrogant, but who gives a ****).

You said your female friend lost a bet on purpose, I was just curious what the bet was, referenced in this post:

@ThinkItThrough

Can't wait to become bored by printing money


@debacle
Ah it was bet. I read it best.... The bet was an excuse to hold her hand I told her that she'll drop a sausage (we were at camp fire) she told me she won't. So I told her: "so let's make a bet". She agreed so I holded her hand for few minutes and we were thinking about what we can make that bet I holded her hand, watched into her eyes and talk about something. I even don't remember about what. The key is that after year she still remember that bet...

Still don't know why I read it best...




Did almost all Gordon's homework. Last left with 3steps method preflop. I'll do it tomorrow after school. Can't wait to grind NL50

First day on nl50:

Again Gordon forced me to play my longest session in life... I had a goal to play 4 hours and then make a break but there was nice opponent so I was still playing and then he Gordon asked me to give him a look. Long story short: