Nice man, OC is nice. I live in El Segundo, love the south bay. Would like a house in Manhattan Beach some day

I'm from Boston, been out here about 18 months now and we love it. Love SoCal, place to be IMO. In'N'Out is an absolute game changer, eat it about once a week for a solid cheat meal =)

HH's showing up as Ipoker because that's how Bovada card catcher is importing them. All those hands were from Bovada. I was typing in Bovada manually on some of them and deleting iPoker. But default loads in as ipoker with bovada card catcher using PT4.

Locked in:

Grizzlies +11 (5 units). This line seems waayyyy off to me, let's see if I'm right

You're the only East Coaster that puts In N out as number 1. Many east coasters that live here swear by 5 guys. Okay that makes sense, the hand converter I use defaults to poker stars. Bovada PLO games are super soft but I ran bad in PLO.

I like 5 guys as well. Just different type of burger but still delicious. I do like In'N'Out better but Five Guys would be second choice and sometimes I go to Five Guys when craving a bacon burger. So much value in In'N'Out though, burgers are cheap/quality is great and can feed the family for $15.

Not only that, it's just a better tasting burger IMO.

Agree, can we tell it's close to lunchtime and the end of my fasting window? lol

I think it is a better tasting burger, but Five Guys has a distinctly different taste that I also crave from time to time and not to mention their cajun fries are beast. It's way more pricey, but sometimes I like being able to have bacon, jalapeno's, bbq sauce etc on my burger.

If you like big huge burgers and bacon, you should check out Slater's 50/50. Not sure where the nearest one for you is.

gotcha, never heard of it, will have to check it out sometime.

so, there are too many good college setups right now for me to be paying much attention to the NBA, frustrating that my NBA bets have interfered with my college success past couple of days. still had a good day overall but wishing again I didn't add an NBA game. No NBA for me tomorrow, just 1-2 college plays and that's it.

Colorado -9 (W)

Grizzlies +11 (L)

USC -2 (W)

+7.9 units

Overall: 22-6 (+105.7 units)

also, on a side note, I spewed away about $100 today playing zone $25 NLH mobile while on the train. I'm new to zone and am having trouble adjusting to it. My bluffs never get through, I literally lost all that money making bluffs on the mobile app. mobile poker is pretty cool but I am going to have to stop making bluffs altogether and adjust to the zone style of play.

I also didn't make it to the gym tonight, after I drank my preworkout supplement I just wanted to play poker and make money.

I stepped up to $100 PLO and made $50. Was up almost $100 at one point but swung down a bit. Very comfortable playing $100 PLO, was playing a tight, straightforward style and it worked pretty well.

I'm most likely going to break the chain for working out and have to start back up next week. I need to go to bed early tomorrow night because I'm playing in the WSOP event on Friday night so need good rest. I'm going to bed earlier tonight than I have been lately as well. Really want to run deep in the live tourney Friday night and make it to day 2 (March 15), happy I got 2 workouts this week and will have to get back to Mon-Thu schedule next week.

If I didn't spew away $100 playing mobile zone poker on the train my roll would look a lot better to me. After the betting success, poker pretty much evened it out to keep me in the same area. Glad my BR isn't getting smaller though and plan on playing more $100 PLO tomorrow a bit and Saturday night. Hoping my roll will be above 3K by the end of Sunday.

current BR: $2,635

tomorrow's play:

Akron -6 (5 units)

may add: Miami Ohio +5.5

the grizz are playing some good ball since gasol went down but without zbo and conley askin em to pull the rabbit out the hat twice in the same week on the road against a solid team is askin too much. did u check the injury report before you bet? bostons hd won 13 in a row at home comin into tonight. anways GL with all goals, hope you reach em all this year

Thanks! Ya that's true, I checked espn and read zbo was playing in their game preview article. They were wrong, hah, gotta find something that's better about injuries because if I knew he wasn't playing I wouldn't have pulled trigger, I knew Conley was out but thought they would be fine as long as zbo was back =/

Locked in:

Akron -5 (10 units)

Update: something hit me that I wanted to get aggressive today grow the roll and take a shot.

Just pounded Texas +3

1200 to win 1000

well, I'm just mentally going to prepare for this to be an L and chalk it up as so.

this means, I FAILED TO STAY DISCIPLINED. I have so many times in the past made great runs, then every-time I make the big play it never comes in.

I'm pulling all my funds out of bovada, locking in the profits and putting all these funds towards my trading account. will continue posting life/workout goals but done for the time being in poker/sports until I am established in the markets with a good account and having consistent success trading.

notice how the wheels fell off right after the night I decided not to continue my workout plan/routine. noticeably feel worse today than normal and get bad results. working out is how I self medicate to get myself feeling good and how I otherwise wouldn't feel. when I think about it, I have to work hard through working out to make myself feel better than normal to get the most out of life. if I don't, all areas will suffer accordingly. yup not capitalizing my sentences because I'm so disgusted with myself.

so ridiculous, the discipline comes to a halt first by not continuing my workout plan, then the very next day I use poor money management and make way too big of a play. so disgusted with myself which is why I am pulling out the funds and making sure I take some profits out of this for my mental well-being. I'm pretty much punishing myself for failing to remain DISCIPLINED!! I can't keep myself in it right now because I don't trust I will be able to manage the rest well.

no more of anything except gym and reading until my trading account is established.

Just channeled my inner degen:

Parlay: Oregon -8 & U 162

1000 to win 2644

=/

yup, blew myself up, wow, so disgusted with this, but I have bounced back from worse, so I will be back

the boom & bust cycles I have been through are ridiculous. I'm glad I finally documented one for me to look back and reflect on. this isn't the first time obviously that I have done this. so disappointed that I didn't stay disciplined. I can't let anything throw me off, no excuses but I was tilted a bit emotionally because of some stuff that went on with family.

have to be aware of that and not allow myself to derail all my hard work and progress.

I honestly can't believe I let this happen to myself again. I know the dollar amount isn't huge but it's more the fact I worked hard to build 100 to $2600 in less than two weeks and blew almost all of it out in 1 day. devastating to think about and I will most likely be out of this thread and taking a break for a while. plan on coming back strong at some point, I'm pretty resilient but I thought this would be the time where I would stay disciplined. IDK why I struggle with it at times and just want to make bigger amounts.

my ideal comfort level is risking 1-3K on poker/wagering, and I didn't exhibit patience using smaller amounts. definitely disappointing.

so, I have done a bit of self-reflection the past couple of days and I have a lot to write about / plan for for the rest of the first half of this year and to finish out the second half like a beast.

It really comes down to mastering self and adhering to extreme self-discipline.

If I want to make a living risking my money (trading, poker, sports wagering), there is just no margin for error or room for not feeling my best and being extremely disciplined. When you add in the fact I have to support a family at the ripe age of 27, I just have absolutely no room for mistakes or mis-steps financially. I plan on making a meaningful post later tonight when kids are sleeping. look forward to writing more.

twoplustwo is going to be my life blog from here on out, I like that it's anonymous and there are plenty of other people on here that want to pursue the same things as me. Add in the fact there are so many similarities between trading and poker/sports wagering and this is the place for me to be. So this is the year when it really all starts and I lay the foundation to pursue my passions and to be free in life, not having to work for a corporation and trade my time for money.

wow, I just reviewed the run I had. I was so disciplined until Thursday. I think it's important to re-visit how I was feeling and what was going on before I move forward so I can understand how to avoid this in the future.

the main reason I wanted to take so much risk was because I talked myself into being okay with losing the first bet on Texas. I told myself I would still have 1700 and be happy cashing it out. I was okay with the risk I was taking.

I should not have been okay with the risk I was taking. It was soo impulsive, I barely even researched the game and just wanted to make a bet on a game going on during the day while I was at work.

I was also not content with the fact my BR was sitting at 2500 all week and I hadn't built it at all. This made me feel more urgent to make a big play so I could at least build the roll by 1K going into the weekend.

I was also a bit frustrated because I had an argument with wife that morning. I had just finished a coffee and was feeling pretty aggressive like I wanted to take a shot. I had also played $100 PLO on the train ride into work that morning and lost the full buy-in to take me from 2630 back to 2530. My mobile experience on Bovada had been terrible, lost like 150 playing zone NLH and 100 on that train ride in that morning playing PLO. Also, the reason I was playing $100 PLO may have had something to do with being pissed about the argument.

And I think actually the biggest thing that lead to me not being disciplined on this day was the night before. I skipped my workout the night before when I was supposed to stick to my Mon-Thu gym routine, I skipped Wednesday night. I think that actually opened the hatches. I was so disciplined the last two weeks before hitting Mon-Thu easily, following my BR rules etc. I think missing the gym on Wednesday night was what led to me losing my discipline the next day.

So I just wanted to document all these factors. It really comes down to being more self-aware. I can't let myself make these mistakes anymore. I'm glad it happened with a manageable amount. If it happened with an amount above 10K it would really sting even more. But the hard work I put in all being blown up on 1 day did definitely sting the past couple of days. I'm grateful for this lesson and know it will make me better. Once I have a legit 100K BR I will remember these little lessons and never make any type of mistake with legit money.

I really wanted to aggressively build a couple thousand but I can't do that with sports wagering. I need to adhere to my BR management, eventually I will bink some good MTT's and my BR will be big enough that I am more content with what I am betting a game that still follows the BR guidelines.

Ideally, I need a 100K poker/sports wagering BR. I will be most satisfied risking 1/3K per bet and playing 5/10 NLH with 1500/2000. I still need to stay disciplined and actually have more to follow about discipline etc. I just needed to get this on here while the lapses I suffered are still fresh in my mind. I am by no means perfect and definitely need to conquer myself and never have lapses to get to where I want to be.

MY #1 GOAL for this year is to master myself and become EXTREMELY DISCIPLINED.

The discipline starts with a workout plan/schedule and reading plan. The next 3 books I read are going to be about discipline. It's definitely not easy to remain disciplined at all times but I will accomplish it!!

So, I'm going to have to write more about my goals / plans / decisions tomorrow.

Basically, I contemplated quitting poker / sports wagering, and studying for my GMAT and trying to get into a top 10 business school. Then trying to become an associate in investment banking (200K starting salary) out of business school. Risk free salary to slave for 80-100 hours per week. I know the path to get there if I wanted to. But I don't want to. I want to be free and pursue my passions.

My goal in life is to trade independently, play poker and bet on sports for a living. Eventually have my own website and possibly stream on twitch. I want to be free and not have to ever trade my time for money with a corporation. I love trading, playing poker and betting on sports. I will make a living doing these things once my BR is right. I can't give up.

fitting quote to end night from one of my favorite motivational self-help books (Master Key to Riches)

"The mechanism of the mind is a profound system of organized power which can be released only by one means, and that is by STRICT SELF-DISCIPLINE.

The mind that is properly disciplined and directed to definite ends is an irresistible power that recognizes no such reality as permanent defeat. It organizes defeat and converts it into victory; makes stepping-stones of stumbling-blocks; hitches its wagon to a star and uses the forces of the universe to carry it within easy grasp of its every desire."

New Plan

My new plan is going to be to take all the necessary steps to conquer myself fully before I start trading / playing poker / sports betting again.

I am taking a 3 month break from the above 3 things that I love to do. I will come back to these 3 on June 15th or a bit later if I accomplish my discipline goals from now until then. I have to earn these things back by establishing disciplined routines that will allow me peak performance.

This is a 14 WEEK BOOTCAMP that I am voluntarily putting myself into to challenge myself mentally and get my body and mind back to where it needs to be.

I served for four years from 18-22 and was really disciplined for a long time. Since I graduated college I have let my discipline slip which is unacceptable. I need to be at the top of my game in life before I decide to be putting my money at risk again.

Workout Goals

So for the next 14 weeks, my goal is to hit the gym Mon-Thu without missing a single day. If something comes up and I do miss a day I will make that day up on Friday. I need to get 4 days a week for the next 14 weeks.

I get home from work around 6PM so should be in the gym by 7PM and home by 9-9:30 PM ready to eat my 2nd meal and read.

I also want to try and play basketball most Saturday mornings which will get me up to exercising 4/5 times a week for 14 weeks straight.

I am going to post the chain in here every-time I hit the goal a new link (X) is added. I will have 14 X's before I decide to come back to trading / poker / sports betting again which will be June 17-20th.

After I complete my 4th week in a row, I will be conditioned well enough to start up a high intensity workout plan that should get me shredded back to the way I was in the pic I posted back on pg 5 I think. I will also introduce a bunch of supplements after week 4 to get myself more shredded. Along with man-scaping again which is something I used to do regularly and have totally neglected the last couple years.

Dieting

For dieting, I am going to intermittent fast Mon-Fri. 2-10PM is going to be my eating window. I will eat my first meal at 2 PM and second meal right around 10PM with a small snack before the gym. I will eat a banana every morning to get all those nutrients in me on an empty stomach along with a coffee with a little bit of half and half (no sugar). The meals will be salads or healthy meals. My 10PM meal is always steak and 4 scrambled eggs. My 2PM meal is salad/some type of healthy meal (no carbs). The only time I may eat some type of bread is snack right before the gym.

Also, Fri-Sun I will have a couple cheat meals in there. Probably pizza from whole foods and a burger from somewhere, along with some type of sweet desert.

Reading Routine

I have 4 books lined up dedicated to self-discipline which will be the next 4 books I read. I want to finish all 4 by the end of the 14 week time-frame. If I finish them before I will add another book.

Mon-Fri - I will read on the train rides in and out as long as my mind is alert enough and I'm not too tired.

Mon-Thu - I will read every night from 10PM - 12AM after I get home from the gym and eat my second meal.

Fri-Sun - I will get in at least an hour a day of reading on each of these days.

Book Summaries - After reading each of these books I am going to write summaries on them in here. I need to start doing this after each book I read. It's so valuable to help myself remember the information.

Reading List

1) Daily Self Discipline - Martin Meadows

2) The Practicing Mind - Thomas Sterner

3) Mastery - Robert Greene

4) The Undefeated Mind - Alex Lickerman

5) If I finish above 4 and still have time left

Outliers - Malcolm Gladwell

Financials

Now that I won't be allocating any money towards the above 3 things, I will have an easier time saving a larger sum of money. By mid June I should have at least 4K saved. I can usually save about 1000-1500 a month, so I should hopefully have at least 3K saved by June.

I also get a bonus in June that should be around 4-5K after taxes hopefully. So all-in by June I should have between 7-10K saved that I can put towards trading and poker/sports wagering.

Why Am I Doing This??

Once I accomplish this boot-camp I will be well on my way to becoming much more DISCIPLINED.

My main goal for this year was to become as disciplined as I can. When putting my money at risk I have to be at my absolute best mentally and physically to get the most out of myself.

To be at my best mentally and physically, I have to feel my best. To feel my best I have to be working out a minimum of 4 times a week.

I feel strongly doing this for 14 weeks will lay the foundation for myself being as disciplined as I need to be and feeling my best.

Once I engrave the eating and gym habits, it will be much easier to continue the habit patterns past the 14 week mark. This workout schedule and eating routine will be what I do for the rest of the time I am at my finance job. So getting into the proper routine will make it so I continue it into the future consistently, feel my best, and perform my best at everything.

Not giving up after the little setback.

i think youre doing the right thing by stepping back for awhile and getting yourself/things in order but when you do come back i think you should solely focus on poker and build up your roll through online and go start "crushing live in la" like the title of this thread says. just my opinion, whatever you chose i wish ya the BOL man