8's 15's crush us both lez rebuild confidence n do volumn vs profit prop bet in 2.50's for avatar bet leeeez go gotta take on the biggest 2.50 grinderrr can u HANDLE DAT -movin.target

Since I've been slacking on updates gonna just put the sessions made here so I can sum them up at the end of the month. After last update I just ended up focusing on getting drunk for 2 days in a row. Tried to relax but still was depressed as hell.

19th session done

MTTs

Play Time: 10h
Result: -425$
Hourly Rate: -42.5$

Sunday MTT's. When people working in normal jobs complain about Mondays I'm doing the same on Sundays. Get your hopes up every time and then end up losing a ****load. Well guess it only need one good Sunday to cover it all up.

20th session done

MTTs

Play Time: 11h
Result +245$
Hourly Rate: 22.3$

Profit day woop! Felt really good. Played one 3r of 180s and obv won that. Went pretty deep in few MTT's but got 3 top18 finishes so things are looking to get brighter. Trying to keep it going for today.

So as said in few previous posts I just got worst downswing I have ever had. So amazingly frustrating and depressing to make like 5 losing sessions in a row after I had been just crushing the games for last 5 weeks. I knew that inevitable downswing was coming at some point but still ffs it was awful. Hope I learned something from this and can handle these things bit better in the future. Just got into really ****ty mood and messed up all of my routines that helped me focus and get into grind long hours. Guess it gets bit easier to face these every time.

Something interesting happening also pokerwise. I recently started coaching through our staking stable. ATM working with one student but looking forward to adding 1 or 2 more. Hope this thing starts well and get some teaching done.



Ty ty. Its hard to stay motivated but really trying.

As said I think Im coming back. Lets do this shieeet!

I haven't actually played single 15s. And since I cba to play 2s atm no thx. Gl on your grind and btw I'm deff not moving up when Im doomswinging this hard :P

Lets make this post even more depressing by posting this months graph so far:



As you can see Im still profitting. **** yeah! Today MTT's once again. Feeling good. Inb4 -400$ session. Gl me and grind on!

Its just you need threadsavers to bink

na i mean do it for 2.5's since im on a 4k downswing too + suck at 10 bb poker

21th session done

MTTs

Play Time: 9h
Result: +210$
Hourly Rate: +23.3$

2nd nice profit day in the row and feels great. Was 8th in 13$ KO, 2nd in 22$ 360cap and that did it. Not sure if Im gonna try 180s for change tomorrow. Just have to keep this grind up. Vamooo

Nice thread OP, pretty sick volume, subbed fo sho, gogogogogogo

22th session done

MTTs

Play Time: 7h
Result: -205$
Hourly Rate: -29.3$

Meh nothing to say really. Run bad deep and just cant make it. Have to play 180s tomorrow just to check if I still beat those games. Ziltoid for president lets go with that. Moving along ->

23th session done

180s

Play Time: 6.5h
Result: -410$
Hourly Rate: -63$

This game is just showing me the biggest middle finger imaginable. Kinda fed up complaining about running bad so nothing to do that just go on and keep grinding. Hoping it will turn around.

Trying to get some rung00d by posting some unrelated poker stuff:



Just bought this dvd boxset about week ago and haven't really listened anything else since that. Its just mindblowingly awesome to watch and listen to this jackassery. Give it a try thou it opens bit slowly. Really digging the techno part, Ziltoid for president **** and sperm fountains with coffee what are promised at the end (wtf?) But yeah its so confusing that my oop 5bet flat squeeze float moves are looking pretty simple in comparison.

Catch this. It always cheers me up in a second when swinging :d

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90cSTYRVSTU

24th session done

MTTs

Play Time: 10h
Result: 1400$ (Woop wtf?)
Hourly rate: +140$

Quite nice Sunday grind today. Ended up just crushing all around althou didn't make it to the end in anything. Had 3fts: 13.5$ KO (4th) , 5.5$ quad (7th), 5$ 1000cap (3th). Made few other deep runs and ended up doing nice profit. Glad to get this turn around since I was about to lose hope after doomswinging so hard lately. I'm actually still bit down from my high point profit wise earlier this month but not too much and working my way out of mu. Tomorrow is another grind and I'm going to try get some profit made in 180s again. Peace out and grind on hombres

So July is now over and I guess its time to get a summary how my spewing at the tables went overall. Huge tldr; wall of text incomming and some bs rant included so prepare yourselves.

Think I actually missed to count my last two sessions here so gotta do that first:

25th session done:

180s

Play Time: 5h 15min
Result: -405$
Hourly Rate: -77.1$

No comments.

26th session done:

MTTs + 180s

Play Time: 7h 30min
Result: -195$
Hourly Rate: -26$

So I guess this was a good session for me. Came close to winning session since made ft in 4$ 8max donkament but busted 5th after losing some flips. fml or w/e

July Summary

Overall stats:

Play Time: 210h 50min
Result: +230$
Hourly Rate: 1.1$



And Here is the stats divided by games:

180s:

Play Time: 63h 50min
Result: -121$
Hourly Rate: -1.9$

MTTs:

Play Time: 147h 40min
Result: +351$
Hourly Rate: +2.4$

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So as u can see not the best month ever and pretty frustrating to come up with this kind of results even after focusing and grinding very hard for whole month. That severe and brutal downswing middle of the month just got me off game and last quarter of month went by just trying to find motivation and mindset to actually even open tables not to even mention profiting.

After ending this horrible waste of a month I'm actually looking forward to August. So guess I could do some new goals for this month:

[ ] 200hr of Poker including coaching, studying etc etc
[ ] Playing poker only when motivated and on the right mindset
[ ] Going through this "to-do" list everytime before I start grinding
[ ] More focus on the quality, not quantity
[ ] Be sad, Be miserable ( I just want one goal I know I can achieve!)

Mentioning this "to-do" list what I'm going to use whenever starting session includes:

- 4hr of studying (videos, 2+2 MTT forums, coaching etc etc)
- 30min nap before starting ( **** yea I pretend to meditate and obv fall asleep)
- run 7 km morning of the grind.

I know its pretty excessive to do that every time I want to play but I think it eliminates the "**** I have to grind" feeling since I really have to do something before I can even start. Also this kinda forces me to study my game what I haven't done in past. Hope I get good results from the start and keep motivation up to do this.

For this month I'm going to focus on playing less tables and games I know I can beat. I'll be playing mostly 3rs of 180s, MTTs with CAP (360 22$, 1000 5$, etc), Rebuy MTT's (including quad and cubed), and some big guarantee MTTs. These are the games I feel most motivated and most profitable for me atm.

So guess its time to start. Not going to play today since I missed my morning jog and havent really studied anything either. Gonna go through some handhistories today and see how bad I actually really am. Trying to think positive thoughts. Gl me and all this month!

u have to look at it in a positive way... could have been a -230$ month .

gl for August

hourly rate 1.1 :O

Was it you that had a programme or w/e that automatically puts ur tables at the right place in your screen?

Yeah I have heard lots of good things about this "positive thinking" thing lately. Might give it a try some day!

Yeah. Crushing!

Yeah. Placemint FTW.

Bit of a update is due.

Played session on Thursday. Kinda regged everything I said I would and ended up losing like 200$. Not really trying to focus on results this month since I'm focusing more on the game and learning part of it. I made some mistakes on the session but now at least I knew what I did wrong and can honestly try to analyze how to get rid of these things. Had day off yday and went to see Dark Knight rises ( Recommending it deff worth to go watch) and back to grind today. Have been jogging and watching few videos this week. Just had 2h coaching session on 180s with stable mates and happy to start grinding now. Lets win some money today!

Its not a big score but its always nice to win since #2ndsucks and 4 figures at least! Tomorrow is the bloodyhell disgusting Sunday but still excited to play it. Feeling the heat rising once again.

nice score op

Congratz.

Just wanna say,
nice blog an gl keep crushing!
CU @ the tables

So here it comes. Have been lacking updates again. Usually poker players only blog when they are running good, I tried not to go that way but just don't really feel like posting graphs of your games and focus on results when I'm constantly watching my bankroll disappear. So I'm trying my best to get something written here.

So last couple of days haven't gone any different than couple of last weeks basically. Just grinding a ****load of MTTs and coming just short everytime. Have been at least sticking up on my goals and I think I have learned quite a bit actually by watching videos and going through some of my handhistories. But still looks like I'm total noob at MTT's overall. I know I have been running bit bad but I'm making so many mistakes and bad plays that I just feel like donating money everytime I play. Since June I have lost all of my confidence and motivation to grid. It's hard to get myself to grind when I'm making one profit day in a week. Guess I'm just not used to variance in these things and really don't like it tbh.

Haven't had 2 days off in a row since June and starting to feel pretty tired sometimes. Obviously it's pretty easy to just grind 12h everyday when you're running good and making progress but just breakingeven for 30 days straight with 2 days off is starting to mess with my head pretty hard. Decided to take this weekend off and go see some friends and just relax. Haven't really had any social life since moving to new city in June so this is definitely something that I think is going to help me get over this massive mental block I'm having at the moment.

Went to get some drinks yesterday with my friend and his girlfriend. Listened few hours both of 'em to just whine about how much working sucks, and started to feel much more motivated instantly. Just listening how co-workers, bosses, schedules and customers all suck I realised how awesome it is that I don't really have any of those horrible things. Few more days of listening more of that and I think I'm ready to ****ing crush it at Monday.

Next week I'm going to start grinding 180s again ("yes one more reg to those!") and just going to do insane amount of grinding for the rest of the month. Going to grind MTT's propably sundays and some other days when I feel like it but 95% of my games are going to 180s for next 2 months at least. I have been doing few coaching sessions with couple of guys from stable and I realised that mostly I knew what I was talking about. I actually know how to play those games. Kinda awesome realization after going "Wtf am I doing here" for 10h everyday while playing MTTs. Really excited to get back just grinding steady profit with huge volume.

Think thats enough whining for today. Cya guys at the tables after Monday. In the meanwhile I'm gonna go show my new dance moves to the club:



Its going to be epic.

fortunately for u it seems that u play better then u dance .

Not quite sure. Think its pretty close. Tbh I'm quite awful at both.

So grinded only 2s at Monday. Most relaxing thing ever. Made small profit but couldn't care less about results and thats what made it fun. Just laughing to bad beats and snap jamming atc like a boss. Fun times idd.

But pokerstars.eu had update yesterday. This obv ****ed up tableninja like it always does so and SNG sensei didn't work at all. Thought about manually regging for like 0.5 seconds before deciding to play MTTs instead. Ended up losing bit, kinda std session. Back at the depression with it thou. Same thing today. Usually tableninja fix these bugs pretty fast and props to them but seems like they weren't able to fix it for today so I pretty quickly decided to grind MTTs once again.



Woop! Bit ****ty to get so close but money feels great at this point. Think I'm gonna go with MTT grind tomorrow and hope the TN gets fixed so I can start grinding 180s more. Hoping things are getting better from this point. Wish me luck guys.

Why did you move down to the 2s?? Confidence issue?! Cuz even with ur swing youre probably still well rolled the the 3r's?!

LOl didnt move down to the 2s. Guess he played 1 day of them again, just to chill and jam ez games