Friday

Did not read a single page of 12 rules of life. Felt like I wanted to prioritize my poker work as much as possible and now it is 2:30am and i am tired af

Crushed gym. Crushed poker work for today. Reviewed my 1on1 with Apo. Made a lot of notes on how to use Pio, how to approach studying in Pio, what to start with, how to proceed. Why did I get to review it so late? No problem, though. Since monday I will get on Pio grind and start working on postflop. I will start slowly and create some sort of Pio routine on weekly basis that will contain a certain topic like
a) what boards are the one's IP wants to check the most on?
b) what boards are the one's IP wants to bet big on?
c) what boards are the one's IP wants to deviate his sizing/frequency strategy based on stacksize? and which on opening frequency?
d)....
e) flip the script and look for Big Blind or for whatever else...you can go on forever like this lol


I CAN'T FUKCIN WAIT. Just watching that video of Chris showing me stuff has made me so pumped. I was like "Yeah, I did not do fukcing nothing in this program for such a long time. Shame on me. Won't let that happen again. We start tomorrow, baby!"


I have really good schedule now. Getting to bed 60-90mins sooner in comparison to few weeks ago which means I get to be more productive before my sessions and waste less time after my sessions which is WIN WIN. In the future will definetely use 60min Pio warmup before session or marked hands. I have so many things on my mind how I would like to change schedule, implement things, work on things...I really feel bad for people that don't have passion for poker and are forced to grind it because that just feels so miserable. I can't imagine how hard it actually can be for people to grind and just don't love it. Makes you think about people who actually do jobs they don't love just to put the food on the table. That sounds so miserable. Fukc that life. And sometimes even tell you to give up on yours because they were not brave enough or not willing to make as many sacrifices for theirs...What a bunch of pussies. Seriously, if you ever have such people in your life and you have an opportunity to cut them off, just do it. I have done it and I have never been happier.

Tomorrow will grind. Will get some nice meditation in, do my best in Sat/Sun, try to not play many tables, mark as many hands as possible and have fun. I have wanted to play today but if I get my "daily dose" of my poker dope (via Pio, videos, analysis, coachings) I can get through the day lol


Quote of the day: "No amount of suffering can create purpose. But any amount of suffering can be endured when purpose exists."

Sean is onto something with his show. Don't sleep on this guy.

Saturday/Sunday

Did not enjoy the grind, really. Pushed through it. It's not easy to enjoy sessions when it's shietstorm 24/7. Not many stacks, nada. I am really trying to look at positive things from every negative event but sometimes you just have to suck it up and say "Yeah, it was a bad day. It fukcing sucked." There's nothing wrong in acknowleding it and being honest with yourself. You just can't get lost in the negativity.

got to play with nephew for a few minutes before playing today. We are starting to get together really well. Everytime I come in he gives me all of his attention and completely ignores everybody lol. How can you not love him after doing that

managed to get through 62/87 hands before playing today which is huuuuuge. Big progress on habits, we got the snowball rolling!

Plans for tomorrow:
I will have to come up with one more topic for 1on1 with Apo
Go through all marked hands (25+all sunday)
prepare everything for Pio script grind. Try to run as many scripts as possible, if you feel like it arrange sheets and start forming weekly/monthly homework for pio group
create all player alias im hm2 so I can get population tendencies on certain spot on our 1on1 with Romeo (hopefully it will not be so hard to do)
get some ribs. get a welness session in. Relax. You deserve it.

Quote of the day: "Sometimes the process is the only outcome that matters"

seen a bunch of interviews with Term. This guy is the definition of a grinder. You can feel his hunger from this song similar to Em's Infinite and many many other

Monday-Wednesday

I am on the Pio grind at the moment for the last few days. Grinding it out completely and I have to say that nobody plays even close to correct postflop strategies for deeper stacks IP vs BB. Maybe guys at Probirs level. 20 is somewhat easy, 40 becomes little more complex but 70? That's next level. Very interesting stuff is happening and I can't wait to understand the strategies better. In the next month I am going to learn so much that I will be shocked if my winrate will not be over 10bb/100 which should be doable with while having a finger stuck in my ass (I have to say that makes more sense and sounds better in my native language lol)

PC is running scripts nonstop and while it's running sims I am creating sheets for postflop strategies and try to find patterns. For 20 and 40 it's somewhat comprehendable but deeper there is a lot of stuff that nobody is doing and i would say almost everybody is completely misunderstanding how ranges work in majority of spots on the flop (outside of people who have done the work in Pio, obviously)

This month I am going to go very light on playing and hard on studying. There is just too much edge to be gained by grinding pio for a month and diving into strategies. I also did not enjoy playing lately so I think it's understandable. But I will fire a session with low amount of tables and try to apply things I have learnt from Pio. Not caring about the amount of tables I play (and the fact I probably leave some money on the table by not firing enough comps) but rather applying new stuff and slowly incorporating it into game will be name of the game for next 2 weeks.

After going through most frequent stacksizes for postflop IPvsBB from theory perspective I will dive into node-locking and adjusting frequencies and try to find how these patterns change if we apply some pool tendencies. And then you can change the script and look at it from the perspective of BBvsIP.

There is basically no way that after grinding Pio for the next 2 weeks my overall winrate is not going to go up at least by 2bb/100. Will have session with Sam this week. Towards the end of the month with Chris and Romeo. That should be enough to spark my motivation for the upcoming weeks


I still did not get to do global alias because I don't want to fukc up my database and I don't know how to do some steps in the fkn guide. Will give it a shot today and hopefully I will not mess up my database. If I don't a lot of good things will happen.

As I was running scripts I was deleting/saving stuff from my PC on external HDD. Managed to find my word document that I sent to James that I had to send him soon after I got into BitB for our 1on1 mental game session. It was nice to read that.

plan for today is grind scripts, create sheets, dig into BB vs IP play using new sheets and possibly putting both sheets together to see the big picture. Then do my best to create global alias, crush gym, welness, filter 100 marked hands, get a meditation in a read a few pages of JBP book if I feel like it.

Quote of the day: " The mindset flip is not seeing the masses as a role model but rather as an anti role model"

Thursday

Mission Fukcin Accomplished! Script for BUvBB deeper stacks have ran out in the morning. Grinded 6 hours to create Global Alias to come up with population tendencies for 1on1 coaching. Crushed gym. Did not meditated / Read a book yet but I will jump into that right after this blogpost.

Plan for tomorrow is to run a fukcton of filters / Analysis over this global alias so I can get a good grip on how population deviates in certain spots (and more importantly, which player types) . After getting to know these frequencies I will have to run some preflop sims to see how equilibriums shift, change my gameplans and crush. Literally can't wait to wake up tomorrow and get on the grind. I am loving this shiet

Gym grind is going great, although the change in the workouts is really big. Going from more strength / lift heavy oriented workouts to high intensity FML workouts is humongous. Hopefully in 1-2 weeks I will already get used to it because so far it is going really poorly. I am basically trying to not pass out at certain moments but I am giving a lot of feedback to my coach so he knows how the adjustments in the next days should look like etc

Saturday I will fire a session probably. Honestly, I don't even want to. But after 5 days of grinding theory it seems like a good time to play so I can have some situations to improve in my "logic" too.

Quote of the day: "The only person you can depend on is YOU. You are your best friend or your worst enemy"

even if you are from goddamn Azerbaijan and do not understand a single word you can feel a good vibe coming from this song

Friday and Saturday

Gym is really tough. My stamina/capacity is really low and my biggest weakness. Read today an interesting information about fat loss that the way a body gets rid of fat is via breathing (around 80%) and then the rest is pee and w/e. So if your stamina / breathing capacity (can't find a word for this term at 3:45am) is weak, the ability of your body to get rid of fat and burn it is going to be that much lower. Knowing this I will at least enjoy these workouts little more. With words back in my mind "you are going to unfat yourself if you don't give up you phat phuck"

the grind is going great. I am running gazilion scripts and everyday I go from one situation to another and try to understand patterns and slowly switch situations, look for exploits etc. Created a habit of always running a script at night. Not sure for how long I am going to be able to keep it (at some point i have to run out of scripts, right? ) but it creates great momentum because I can always study and I don't have an excuse to not study. I am basically creating an unlimited library to study any type of spots. I have started with IP vs BB SRP, will continue with the SRP stuff between UTG-BU positions vs each other and then we will see what else is going to make me curious. Pio is the shiet lol. It's like the book of poker. You just have to open it and know how to read in it.


Had coaching with Sam (€uro), learnt a lot. I love to get "naked" with my thoughts with coaches on 1on1's. The more I sound silly, the better. I should probably create "scale of stupidity" for coachings and rate them based on how many times I have been stupid to remind me that ego is great, but you have to have it under control. Will get through it in near future, looking forward to it already

Todays' session was great. I did not really look forward to it but I kept table count low and I enjoyed it. Decided that today I am going to concentrate on 2 certain aspects of the game and it made me enjoy the game more. Then I managed to find a few spots for xraise or spot some information that would make me solve the puzzle better that I would normally miss because I would not be "as concentrated". Had a bunch of F2Ts and FT of b44. Came as 1/9 table was very very weak but somehow I just can't take these comps down. Will go through it and see if I could have done some things better and what not.

new script is already running. I have created an intersting warm-up before session (after meditating) that I pick very concrete spot with board/cbetting pattern and I dig into it deeper with nodelocks and stuff. It's a lot of fun but it consumes a lot of time but anything is better than procrastinating

I am not looking forward to tomorrow because Sundays are always hectic and there are too many good comps to fire and it is way too easy to play too many tables. Will not play more than 10 tables at any point. I have done that today and it was great. Enjoyed playing more, did not miss a lot of spots and thinking about spots and owning people is always more fun than clicking buttons

Quote of the day: "People often get basic psychological questions backwards. Why do people take drugs? Not a mystery. It's why they don't take them all the time that's the mystery. "

Joga Bonito, baby. 3 weeks left

Sunday

got rekt. again. made at least 3 very questionable plays that I can think of. one deep in b109 calldown in 3bet pot for 2 averages, one calldown deep in 109 warmup on ACR and the next one somewhat close before ITM in some 100 on .es where i should be opening 30% tighter and forgotten about the ICM effects. Probably spews, but if I would have to sort them it would be biggest .eu/acr/.es....Will look them up today and see if they have been spews or just me being result oriented

after session with Sam I gained a lot of confidence (as I always do after 1on1). After "finding balls" in some spots I have acquired more balls in other spots and I played very well in certain aspects of the game. Bluffed my ass off in many spots I would usually not and I got majority of them through. Very happy in this regard. But also kind of poorly in other aspects which were pretty late in the session after me wanting to quit for 5 hours which is pretty meh given these mistakes are going to be the most expensive

I will keep it simple today. welness, go through marked hands, run script and go through some node-locks on certain boards that I think are worthy digging deeper into. I may as well get ribs today. I probably will as I am thinking about it..Why wouldn't I get ribs if I can lol

I am not going to play more than 2 sessions at least this week. If I could just play for 5-6 hours and then quit then I would love that. Because I see that whenever I start hating it I just stop being interested in anything that is happening on tables (sizings, timings, etc). Maybe I should do some smaller night sessions but I am not doing my std 8-10hr sessions outside of sundays anytime soon. It is not beneficial for my mental health, nor results.

Start to this day has been really slow. it is almost 3pm and I did not do anything. But today is the day I am not going to be so hard on myself. For the next 1-2 days I am going to take the foot off the pedal and give myself some room to be lazy and unproductive. Not making it an excuse to eat like shiet and procrastinate, but rather doing 75% of work I would usually do.

I have hard time reading JBP's book lately. The chapter I am reading is quite boring and sometimes it is not easiest book to read because of the vocabulary author uses in conjunction with explaining things via Bible. I thought really high IQ + religious person do not go together but it's interesting dynamic to witness between the lines/pages as I move on. Maybe I will read a few more pages today


Quote of the day: "If you really dedicate yourself to a vision, you have to accept that you will be alone in many ways..When you become acquainted with yourself, you have no choice but to keep moving on, away from the crowds that stagnate..You grow, but don't expect sympathy."

As you can see I have similar struggles and I am trying to find a solution for that for some time now. Would like to hear more detailed about what triggers that as I put a lot of thoughts into this and it seems like nothing is helping. For the first time right now I see someone speaking about these types of issues so I think that going a lil bit more in depth might be beneficial for both. You can PM me if you mind sharing any of this itt

The main thing we have in common (at least from viewing your blog from time to time) is that we both think we should have way better results that we have right now. It may be some sort of entitlement of us to results.

Maybe we misunderstand variance (and it's not our mistake). Maybe we are playing games we should not be playing (and it's our mistake). Or we think that we deserve "to run better" after putting so much time into this game (which is tricky because you don't know if you actually are not playing well and adjusting to pool enough or just run bad)

I think the only thing one can do at this moment (after acknowledging that something like this is happening) is to play less tables and be more observant of the overall mood when playing and take notes when these things happen (maybe it is at the end of sessions where you are tired OR when you play too many tables) OR you play a huge pot deep that was very close and you don't know if you have made a mistake or not and it is haunting you because you really thought "this is going to be the one" and after busting 5 of these in a session and you have been able to get through busting 4 of them but you put all your (mental) eggs into this one basket and then you are like "ok, i guess no bueno today gg"


Monday


after having review with €uro I have seen certain flaws in my thinking process which I will try to address in next sessions. There are certain datapoints that I am missing that influence one's decisions heavily to the point of strategies being -EV / +EV and not +EV and slightly more +EV. The way I am going to tackle it is to flash 30sec exercises for all hands that I send into my channel AND by playing max 9 tables. Sometimes I will leave money on the floor and will not get to play some comps or late reg them with a certain amount of bbs. SO FUKCIN WHAT.

Did not do much today. Outside of me going through marked hands (80/108) and getting ribs with chocolate fondant

watched all Nick Howard's short videos on his YouTube channel and I have made a bunch of notes. I am going to do certain things in the near future and try to apply them in my approach. Will see how that will align with everything. A lot of good stuff in there

did not get a chance to read a book. I don't mind that. It's not on the level of "Rational Male curiosity" and right now I have to tackle more important things so it's completely understandable. Reading is not a task. It's a form of relaxation / a tool to feed my curiosity. I think some people just misunderstand the utility of such things and set goals like "I have to read 10 pages of this book per day" or w/e and end up not happy when they don't achieve that goal and create bad outputs on this given feedback.

Quote of the day: "If someone believes you are honest at the start of your relationship it takes a lot to convince them otherwise"

Relapse is the shiet. I'm really digging this album

food for thought


in regards to what I have learnt from my 1on1 with Sam....The same thing I have learnt from 1on1 with Tomi but for some reason I have chosen not to dig deeper into it and work on it. It's like I did not value his opinion as high as some other coaches/investors opinion. I would not say because of my laziness because I don't think I am a lazy person. I think it may be more because of a fact that I thought that in my mind I did not think Tomi is as good of a player as some other guys/coaches which was correlated in the way he expresses his thoughts. I looked at it the way that it was too simple and "not advanced enough" for me to consider that type of thought process to be "the right approach" AND I have completely neglected the fact that what if that is the right thinking process OR what if the things he is saying hold more ground than some sound theory. Instead of me being somewhat ignorant I could say "what if he has mastered the thinking process in regards to how to approach it, what datapoints to grab and how they influence our overall decision making process" Obviously Tomi is a sicko and my "prejudice" of an "ideal thinking process" is my fault. But I wanted to get that off my chest because I think that is a thing that many people who think they are really good but don't have results struggle with. Just because somebody's thought process does not sound so advanced OR "does not match our standards for the ideal way to approach thought process" does not mean it's not viable / better than ours.

As a result of me not learning and being somewhat ignorant in a way or thinking that "there is a certain way to think about poker and if other person thinks differently it's probably not so good" has probably cost me some money. But that's fine. I don't mind that. Better learn later than never.

So a thing to take from this is probably that you can always learn from everybody. If we use this on poker that means that you can learn from better players than u but u also can learn from weaker players. It's the moment when you think "I don't think I can learn anything from this guy" that you stop learning. If you want to get better at ANYTHING you should not be doing that. There is nothing to lose but so much to gain from every debate.

Whatever day up to Thursday

Outside of primary needs like sleeping, eating and working out I am grinding Pio like a madman. I have managed to come up with very very efficient way to approach creating strategies and gameplans. I am learning extremely valuable things and in a month of doing this I will be highly surprised if my EV bb/100 will not be over 10bb after putting some volume in. Hopefully in the 12bb region.

I am just really pumped to analyse right now. Managed to find a very good regime of approaching things. Big things are going to happen in near future. BIG BIG BIG. I think I am doing things nobody is doing and this is only a start. I can't wait to see how my overall winrates and approaches of opponents change. But for now I don't even feel like playing a single hand of NLHE. I just want to have open as many pioSOLVERs as I can and while one is running I nodelock and do stuff in the second one and vice versa so I can manage my time really well and get the most out of the time I put in.

I don't know if I have ever felt such an opportunity like this. And I am not going to miss it. I may not even play sunday just to do this. Fukc sunday. Fukc everyday.

It's 5:30am here and I don't even care how long I have been digging in Pio for last week. I know only one thing. It's gonna be MORE THIS WEEK

Workouts are going great. The capacity of my lungs / me being able to breath and get through workouts is vastly superior in comparison to 2 weeks ago. I feel like I am hitting on all cylinders right now and I just don't want to stop doing that. It's such an emotional high that not hitting on all cylinders starts feeling like I'm failing. It's like you notice all your flaws, they just pop-up themselves and all you have to do is just pop them like small bubbles. Erase them. Substitute with good habits, repeat, crush

Can't wait to wake up tomorrow, grind as many hours in Pio as my body will allow me, then go workout and do that shiet again until I pass out. NO PRISONERS BOYS

Quote of the day: "Unapologetically judge people for who they are. Note their flaws and give them credit where credit's due. Don't let anyone shame you into not doing this"

remember listening to this song when I was playing 100NL trying to make it. I kinda did it but not on a scale I would like to. Now I feel like it's time to listen to this one again. To reassess certain things. And destroy everybody

Friday

It was quite an exhausting day. I have done huge amount of sims today. Managed to simplify already simplified postflop strategies for certain types of boards XXvsIP for 2 out of 3 preffered stack sizes. The plan is to do it for all 3, then move to another position. The amount of positions I am going to do this for is going to be 3. Unfortunately, this was the most easy stuff as strategies were not as mixed. The next 2 positions will be tougher to simplify but there is not a chalelnge I am not willing to accept.

The plan while doing these is to find certain textures where can I create good exploits based on range vs range interactions and tendencies. There are already a bunch of adepts, although BB vs IP stuff will be analysed after I go through all of these 3 positions for 3 preffered stacksizes.

It's going kind of slowly but I don't mind that. Before going to bed I will prepare report for last (biggest) effective stack so I will save some work before digging into it in Monday again.

I will take a few days off analysing and will play sat/sun. Will try to concentrate on small amount of tables and applying my simplified strategies and seeing how population responses to certain exploits.

also will play a few less $215s on Sunday and reg only the must play ones. With that I should be able to keep the count towards the numbers I like. Before session will make a review of what I have learnt in last few days of simplifying strategies and quickly rewind other simplified strategies for different positions to refresh my memory. It's not hard, I just need to apply focus and repetition to these things and it will be alright

went to gym today. Crushed it. I was kind of worried that my stamina is going to be low for our football in bootcamp but with these workouts I will be like an ironman lol.

Quote of the day: "Good judgment comes from experience. Getting a lot of experience comes from bad judgment."

Saturday

Did not hate it too much today. There was one really good spot where I "spewed" my balls off and got catched with top range but it was only for 25bbs in very nice spot so I don't mind. it was a type of spot that I would miss if I would not be as concentrated so that's probably the highlight of today's session. I am trying to focus more on these solid fundamental gameplans/exploits whenever they let me know what range they have and give me a ticket to spew city.

Outside of that I kind of got rekt. The best thing about today was that I really kept the table count low. There were only a few moments when I was 10 tabling. One was when I had 3-5tbls with sub20bbs and there was some really important comp that I had to reg. Outside of that I can't remember that I played 10 tables. Just made sure to late reg with enough BBs throughout session. Focus levels were much better across the session for sure.

Overall there were more positive moments. But there were at least 2 moments where I sort of lost it but made sure to immediately get back into moment and make a note of it. It's kind of sad that I get these moments but let's not make fool of ourselves and acknowledge the fact that at some point you can't just ignore not winning comps Managed to ship some small-ish $22 on Party for small 4 digits on most rofling FT ever. It was pretty easy and HU w fish was not a tough cookie either. Definetely a moral boost because you can't really talk about anything else when you ship some small-ish 22 lol

Schedule for tomorrow is already put down. Decided to prepare everything before going to bed so I can maximise time for preparation and analysis before firing Sunday.

The pio trees for deeper stacks even for tight-ish ranges take kinda lot of time to run. Did not manage to create as many simplified strategies as I would like to but monday latest I would like them to be done so I can move towards later positions vs BB where is a lot more room for exploits and understanding range vs range is more valuable given the width of ranges, complexity of strategies.

Quote of the day: "Excuses = elaborate actions of self-sabotage consisting of irrationality and laziness."

the multi-syllable rhyming scheme is strong with this one.

Sunday

enjoyed playing. It was not a bad session. Probably lost decent amount but had a run here and there and it made me happy going deep. It's just fun when you are deep, you play well, you get to FT and so on

Also I am trying to work on my in-game pattern recognition and I am doing a good job. In the past I was quite ignorant but nowadays I think I am starting to really get into the head of my opponents (be 1 level above). So as a next thing in my channel I will create a sub-channel called "pattern recognition".

before firing sunday I have managed to find a very interesting thing in how Pio approaches certain board textures as defender that population approaches completely differently. Also before firing a session I have managed to simplify one more strategy for IPvBB deep. Slowly, but surely I am going to make all of them. It will take a lot of time but the beared fruit will be sweet.

after analysing as much as I did my confidence has gone up. As I have known how to approach more situations "the right way" I had more time for making exploitative decisions, paying attentions to patterns etc. Pretty good feeling!

plan for monday is to go through my FT run, review marked hands, watch video from library, make at least 1-2 simplified strategies for XXvIP deep and watch some dota here and there. There are a lot of good matches here. Will continue with LiquidvVG. There are so many good games from these majors have to make sure to not watch too many of them. But it's fine since I can't watch more than 5 games so in 2-3 days it should be over

Quote of the day: "Wealth is a mentality in which value is not scarcely extracted and fearfully spent, but wonderfully multiplied and can always grow."

Ain't nothing to it

Monday

I don't know if I have ever watched any more DotA in a single day. That was too much DotA today but I wanted to watch it all so I can be focused again on the mission, grind and things that matter the most. Overall pretty happy with VP taking it down, big fan of theirs.

I took today as a "day off" where I have done my work (gone through FT, gone through 90 marked hands, simplified last part of simplifying strategies for IPvBB for 1st position)

The plan tomorrow will be to simplify 1 whole stacksize for the next position IP vs BB. It won't be easy since there will be a bunch of mixed strategies and approaches but hopefully I will come up with the most efficient way to tackle it.

Before I dip into it I will get workout in swimming pool, welness, get some ribs in and then nothing should stop me from doing it. In between I will try to make the most out of Winamax d2 ME and then come straight back to work.

with this pace I should be able to "master" flop strategies IP vs BB in 2 weeks. Next 2 weeks I would like to concentrate on BB vs IP flop strategies, although studying one goes hand in hand with second one. Since you are creating certain strategies you should know about ~MES vs it and a lot of times it already gives you "weapons" to fight BB vs IP on certain boards. The next one will be playing turns/rivers after simplifying BB vs IP.

Overall pretty happy with the studying. I have definetely found a lot of spots for simplifying, exploiting and overall just creating EV where in past I was potentionally missing. There is so much room to get better.

Will have to get back on video library grind, too. I am little bit behind of that schedule so I will have to find a way to watch them. maybe downloading them and playing them on my way to Barcelona seems like a good thing to do. That's actually pretty smart.

outside of that I will just keep playing 2d/week for at least next 2 weeks unless I will feel that I am not productive enough / am wasting time using "i want to analyse" as an excuse to not do enough stuff. Gym schedule is certainly helpful in that manner too

Quote of the day: "Every disappointment you have had in your life is the result of you not making the sale"

I have to get better at fckn sales apparently. Come at me

Tuesday-Thursday

Just me grinding Pio all day. As I have come to running sims for late positions, creating strategies for sims is taking longer and longer so I have to be efficient even more. So I have came up with the system that every representative board of certain board texture I run simultaneously for 3 different stacksizes. While other sims are running at least 2 trees are left for me to node-lock and prepare to be ran. If I have both sims prepared to be ran and tree is still not solved I have videos opened from libarary and going through one after another. This is efficiency at it's best lol.

I also have to say that I am really enjoying this. I just love discovering anything related to poker and learning about how strategies change with different stacksizes and how ranges influence those things too is just beautiful. I don't understand many things but sometimes you just don't have to know everything to understand it is better than your previous approach/gamplan. Also with this approach things are going to be way better and I can't want to start testing them in environment in Sat/Sunday.

I wish I would have started sooner. This stuff is just so gooooooood. Makes me so happy, also great for my EV but more importantly makes me improve with such agility that I don't think many things would. If I would say that I have big expectations it would be an understatement.

Outside of me grinding Pio all day I have just been going to gym. Workouts are not easy but somehow I don't like things when they are easy. I like challenges. I like the feeling after you defeat the challenge and new ones pop up themselves. All these obstacles. Just waiting for you to destroy them and overcome them.

I think that my strategies for this position that I am doing right now should be done by tomorrow. I have only took 1 biggest representative of certain board texture (which creates room for error) but if you are able to simplify strategy for the board from certain array of boards that has biggest loserate if you deviate from optimum that should be pretty good signal that for the rest of the boards in that array you are good with that strategy. Haha I may have fukced that up but who cares

I have had similar feeling when I was programming in school. It was fun creating something from just a simple thing as input is. Creating something like postflop strategies may be quite boring for some people but there are certain things attached to that process that make me so happy doing it. Maybe it's just the process of "suffering towards a certain goal" that can not be achieved without some form of suffering in the first place. When I think about it I have never been good at anything. But when I put my mind into doing it I crushed almost everybody. It's like I understand that I have to sacrifice so much to achieve certain things in my life and instead of running away from it I embrace it. It's like a drug. A good kind of drug

after reading a tweet from Ed Latimore about fasting. He said something in the lines of that when he has fasted last time he has tried to be observant of moods/things he has been doing. And he has came to the conclussion that lot of times he has been eating because he did not have much to do with his time. So for last few days I have started fasting again, I basically don't eat anything for the first ~2hours after I wake up. Just drink kangen water and if I feel little hungry I just throw in a little magnesium. If I still feel hungry after drinking I just make high-protein breakfast but usually drinking a liter-1.5 of water is more than enough to get me through the morning with ease. By doing that I get to eat only 2 "big meals" per day with some snacks towards the end of the day where I start to be little hungry. So far so good. I also have had to come up with a way to reduce calorie intake because I want to loose weight so that's a sort of win-win. Have big expectations in this regard too!

plan for tomorrow is simple. Workout, grind Pio and treat myself for all this hard work that I have put in this week with welness and pork ribs. Fukc it I may even get a chocolate fondant with vanilla ice cream.

Quote of the day: "Most people's dreams can be bought. There is always a price for which they would accept selling themselves out. For winners, there is no price worth selling their dreams for.

Big Daddy Kane still has it! These Tiny Desk Concerts are soooooo dope. Made me think about Jay-Z's unplugged performance..May have to buy Spotify just to listen to it..Rap with live instruments has such a different vibe to everything else..

Friday

Worked really hard today to finalise the IP vs BB flop stuff. I have already put all those sheets into one which looks very comprehensive and beautiful. I don't even want to know how many hours it took me to do it. Before firing session tomorrow I would like to finalise the first position vs BB and consider it done so I can finally move to different topics. I have already few on my mind but many of them are not in my power since I have to gather up some information from coaches before dipping my feet in them again (mainly preflop stuff). So I will prolly just continue with playing turns IP vs BB and defending BB on the F/T/R vs most freq strategies and try to find some new patterns OR OOP vs IP stuff outside blinds.

Gym grind going great. I had 3K row today which was pretty meh, I paced it poorly and since I have set up the "strength" of rower between 8-9 which is not smart when you are doing some long distance rowing it has quite backfired. But lesson has been learnt, I have whethered the storm. I have to say that the storm was fckn huge since after 1st km I wanted it to end already..But as you may know me from few posts, I just can't give up.

Finally Sat/Sun is here and I will get an opportunity to use my strats in practise. To get to know them better, play turns a bit, see how population reacts. Can't wait!

Quote of the day: " You need to know when to talk and when to stay silent. Saying the wrong things to the wrong people can cost you a lot. Saying the right things to the right people can offer you a lot."

Saturday-Friday

this week was pretty good. Played reasonably, did not get convert to any runs but it did not bother me that much. I know how much stuff I am doing well and even if I am doing some things not well it's just a matter of time until I do less mistakes there in comparison to 90% of the field.

after coming from successful trip from Barcelona there is just so much positive energy you are filled with. Spending a week with like-minded people. That share the same goal, same vision and have the same hunger is something different. Now it's time to convert that positive energy and enthusiasm towards something great. Will not talk anymore about it because I could go on for ages lol.

Yday it was the first day after I came home and I was ready to get back to the grind. Managed to make notes from 1 presentation from Barca, set up 1on1 topic with Graffy, after 2.5h call with Romeo managed to prepare everything for our 1on1 too. The next step is to dig in my 6 scripts and come up with enough questions for Apotheosis in regards to my simplified strategies, how equilibriums change and all good stuff. I am going to give it 3hours and will see how it goes. Would be nice to not miss 1on1 with him. Will do my best!

outside of this preparation for 1on1's the plan is simple. Just make notes from every presentation there was in Barcelona. There was a lot of good stuff. Also Pio group is starting to have almost ideal amount of members and we will blast it off tmrw/sun.

after I am done doing that I will try to come up with set of rules for our Pio group, resume reading a book from JBP OR Cryptoassets by Burniske and prepare myself for reading 2 more books (or summaries of them) that I found interesting and most helpful in my current situation.

I will start walking on days I don't work out. I will just pair it with habits that I do in everyday life like watching Twitter (unless I come up with something better). I can probably go through all the new and interesting stuff in 15 minutes and that should be reasonable time for a small walk. If it's longer no problemo

yday it felt so good to get back to the gym grind. I almost shed a tear on my way. I was having this huge smile similar to when doggo sits in your lap and wants you to cuddle him. I can't get enough of this.

also I have been thinking about any of my "very" long-term goals and I would like to have $1mil winnings. I think it is doable, reasonable and somewhat "in distance" goal that is little bit optimistic but if I wake up everyday and ask myself what is my goal and what I have to do to achieve it..I think there is nothing that can stop me

Quote of the day: " You don't need to be a genius. You just need to be a learning machine"

Saturday-Sunday

Saturday grind did not go well. I still did not manage to fully recover from Barcelona and I was quite tired. I was quite drowsy towards the midst of a session and I may have actually fallen asleep for quick 3-5s a few times. Played well, tested a bunch of new stuff that I have learnt and population has been responding to it beautifully. Outside of that I just got rekt but enjoyed the grind

Sunday grind was something else. Had to start pretty soon because of Stars being 1hr earlier so I have just started way sooner than I usually do. There was not much stuff to reg so I regged every fukcing 11+ comp (lol). That's how much I love this shiet

Throughout the session I was playing mostly 11-12 tables (something that I was trying to strictly stray away from in the recent past) but I was super confident, made very good decisions, was really in the zone. It seems like the grind in the lab for past 3 weeks has been worth it. Did not have many tough decisions. I always seemed to have an answer. Board with two broadways? Vamos. T32tt? Vamos 975tt? Vamos. 887r? Vamos. Deepstack? Shortstack? OOP? IP? I just knew how everything was supposed to be played out and it felt so good....I have also done more "intuition/gut decisions" instead of trying to go against my intuition in some very concrete spots where population may not have high enough bluffing frequencies etc..Played way better in areas I was underperforming in. Very very very happy with how it went. I don't know if it was confidence from analysing, mental energy from Barcelona trip or me just being eager to get my hands dirty in the streets but I have played with such a passion yesterday. I got completely rekt in the high stakes stuff like 4-5 times 10% before bubble or bubbles for 2.X avgs in very unfortunate coolers but I did not seem to care. I just regged another comp with the mindset of "There is no time to think about this right now. Focus". I could name a few but who cares. I showed up. I crushed. And I will not stop (hopefully ) until my winnings will show that nice 7 digit figure.

Managed to ship bigger 27 for little above $5k. I was in charge the whole time. Played really well. Managed to recognize table dynamics and adjusted very well. Then there was some 3-handed action where CL to my left 1/3 was always raising 5x vs my limps so I had to get creative sometimes and show him that that's not the strategy you want to implement vs me. Out of things I was able to influence with my decisions I think I played 9/10 or 9.5/10 on FT. Made a lot of good "icm preflop opens" and folds too. I may have played a few hands too tight in HU where I did not recognise that low abi weak regular from Brasil is ghosted with high probability and I played some spots too passively potentionally overestimating my edge in HU. Outside of that I was very happy with my performance. And I have managed to do all of this while 10-tabling. Funny thing is I did not even get to meditate (which is quite essential to approach sessions with clear(er) mind) before session because I was so eager to lr $109 kickoff. I will not make the same mistake twice, though.

plan for monday is to play again. I just loved it so much yesterday and with sites approaching mtts proactively (Party, Winamax etc) you can basically play mid-215 stakes everyday in the week I think.

In regards to walking I will make sure to get a quick one before my session. I should probably make it a habit right after I wake up. The order should be 1. Write a blog before going to bed 2. wake up, make bed, glass of water and go for a walk. 3. Visualise what has to be done and how I want to do it, in what order etc. Is it a task that has to be done now? 4. Come back home. Execute

there is going to be scoop on spanish Stars soon and it has exactly the buy-in range of my taste. I would love to play all high series / hs series Stars events that are now going on but I just don't think it's the highest EV for my current situation. Have to remember Felix's words "It's all about making money" and atm I would not be making more money playing those 530-1k events. Which is unfortunate because I think my ROI in them would be pretty good but playing small amount of tables and sacrificing EV in fields which I crush just because I can say to myself "yeah buddy you play 1k lfg" is just a bad thought process. Also it is smart to have a bunch of swaps in your 530+ events if your roll is not very very safe and for majority of people in this industry it is not by far (including me). So right now I guess I just have to accept this fact so I can get to this point asap.

Today I stood up on a scale and it showed 84kg. It's pretty sick that after giving myself a break from all "nutrition rules" for a week in Barcelona I came back with a weight loss. Also I think my "new" approach just fits me very well. I would love to eat in the morning but I can feel like it's not my body that needs nutrition to work, it's my dopamine receptors that need that dopamine hit. Now I just have to cut out the porn in the morning which should be doable with the early "morning walk" because I have to get up to do that task and once I am not in the bed it feels less appealing..I am loving this process of acknowledging my poor habits, finding out how to eradicate them and replacing them with ones that will be actually helpful towards my ambitions and goals.

Quote of the day: "He who endures te most pain, wins"

Monday

Got destroyed today. Played decently I think. Kind of makes you sad that you come with such an enthusiasm and all there is to do is regging nonstop and telling yourself that you have to not focus on things you can't influence. It is what is is, though. Another day in the office. Onto the next one

started new meditation pack called "Focus". Will meditate everyday. The old one "creativity" was boring af.

plan for tomorrow is to crush gym. analyse marked hands. Go through another type of boards in my pio studies BB vs IP. Wellness. Business meeting. Ribs in the restaurant. Analyse big27 FT. Watch video from BitB library. Resume reading a book written by JBP. Start reading summaries about book recommendations from Barcelona. Meditation. Make notes from another presentation from Barcelona Bootcamp. Watch recommended TED talks. Not sure in what order but it will probably need some in order to maximise efficiency

Quote of the day: "A good conference is a vacation that you take with really smart friends"

Tuesday

What I managed to do today from my to-do list:

analyse marked hands [x]
wellness [x]
business meeting [x]
analyse big27 FT [x]
watch video from BitB library [x]
meditation [x]

What I did not manage to do today from my to-do list:

crush gym
go through another type of boards in my pio studies BB vs IP
ribs in the restaurant - they did not have ribs..
resume reading a book written by JBP
start reading summaries about book recommendations from Barcelona.
make notes from another presentation from Barcelona Bootcamp
watch recommended TED talks

it is hard to do stuff after 2 hours of wellness and 2 course first meal of the day with dessert. But I tried. I think I have made the most out of this day that was possible. Did not expect the meeting to take so long + I was quite tired after welnessing. Probably overestimated my energy levels after..not a big deal, though. The things with highest priority have been done and that's what matters. Next time will have to do a better time scheduling since I think I could have done at least 1-2 more things.

I would like to do more but unfortunately had no energy and doing things half-assely just to take them off the check list is not how I do things. I will play tomorrow. I already know what approach our Pio group wants to go with. Tomorrow I will allocate work for everybody and start analysing myself. Have some real life stuff to do but if I plan it well I should be able to do everything I need

Quote of the day: "It's all about money"

Wednesday

Did not manage to do much outside of real life stuff and grind. The schedule starts too soon with stars being 1hr sooner. So I play at least 1hr longer sessions but I don't mind really. I get to reg more comps which is always fine

Lately I enjoy playing a lot. Even though I am getting completely destroyed by variance which is super demoralising I still keep playing very solid (imo). Most of my analysis have helped me a ton. I play more focused. Need less time to make easy flop decisions. I understand textures super well that I can go crazy on, how population deviates and what may be their thinking process behind doing so. So the only thing there is left to it is just to grind it out..

Made a nice run in 50€ PSKO on ps.es and had very easy FT but did not manage to convert. short-handed I was the best player on the table by far. Understood table dynamics and had very good reads on 2 bad ego regs I was playing against. There was one guy, reg who has won almost 100k on the site and he had only 1 sizing in his arsenal and that was 1/2 and 85-90% F cbet freq. You can imagine on what textures I have been completely fukcing him over (MANY). But in the big pots I did not run too well and since you can't win comps with winning only small pots I had to accept the fact of not taking it down.

Plan for today is: Pick up my repaired phone. Gym. Pio analysis of textures I picked in our Pio group. Go through PSKO FT. Meditation. Go through marked hands from yday session. Watch video from library.

Quote of the day: "I am going to win"

Thursday

crushed today like a boss. In first 2 hours got half of the job done. At 9pm everything was done. So after 9pm I was only running pio trees and comparing gto strats to how pop plays strats and how do equilibriums change for situations we are looking in our Pio group. I don't think my game has been ever evolving so fast. Such a good feeling

Pretty happy with my work ethic after I came from Barca. A lot of good vibes and positive energy. Soon stars.es series start and then Winamax series I may just play (almost) everyday. I kinda feel like it tbh. I kinda want to. We will see how things go.

In regards to plan for tomorrow it is simple. Gym. Continue digging in the rest of the subset of boards that I have started digging in to finalise my findings so I can move to another subset of flops. Watch a video from library. Stop watching Family Guy and rather find some podcasts to listen to. Don't eat ribs for breakfast. Learn how to put baby on my lap in the way he will not want to leave me. Either resume reading JBP or start reading a new book.

Quote of the day: "Live below your means until you become rich, and then you are free to buy anything you want"

prolly put this one in here already....but who cares. i certainly don't

Friday

crushed gym. Crushed pio analysis. Did not read a book (don't seem interested in that stuff atm). Baby was not here tmrw so did not get to learn that either^^

plan for today is to grind. With Stars starting 1hr earlier I am quite close to 50comps/session which is very nice. Yday wanted to play sooo much but sacrificing gym and my analysis is not worth in the long term.

Still unsure how many days I will grind these es+wina series. Have some 1on1s with Apo and Graffy so probably will take these days as days off and play majority if I feel great. On series it's time to grind. Outside of series it's time to take it little easier. Prolly a reasonable approach to things.

Saturday

played something in range of 53-56mtts yday. Gives you an idea how do I run (my turbo ratio is 1-2%) since I don't play more than 12 tables. Playing pretty well imo. Still did not learn how to not get fukced in high stakes comps but seeing my opponents play poorly in those hs stuff keeps my hopes up. It is the same story everyday but it is what it is

managed to get deep in 50€ psko on .es again. This time did not manage to beat fish in HU. I just got completely rekt which does not happen a lot. My nizzles have not been paid, his were, then I lost a big pot 2P < 2P and that was that..Card distribution was poor and then I potentionally tilt-called his 20bb openshove w KJo and that was it (short handed he was going all-in a lot but I did not have any SD on his shoves but his frequencies were just way too off for me to fold imo). I don't have a lot of charts / have not done a lot of work in shortstack HU but my postflop abilities are usually enough to beat majority of opponents. Will have to look deeper in that HU and see if I could have done some things better since it's quite important to close out these PSKOs

Just made sunday schedule, prepared everything for todays grind and can't wait to fire it up. Schedules are beautiful, a lot of 215's, scoop on .es, series on wina next week, can't wait to get my feet wet.

Not sure how I will approach the rest of the week in regards to grinding. I will have to adjust it to the gym schedule but that window "in the morning" will be too small and I can't afford to give up gym. Will have to give it a few thoughts after today's session.

I don't read any books atm. Which is kind of unfortunate but I am just kinda busy / not interested in reading anything. It seems like I can only read books when I really want to find out something. Otherwise it is a forced habit and not enjoyable time spent

Overall I have to say that I am in a great state of mind. Last week managed to ship bigger27, last 2 sessions got 2 runs which I did not manage to close out but 2x TOP3 is enough momentum to keep me going and I can feel something this sunday too but I will have to make a better job of picking a comp that I am going to take down

Sunday-Monday

High stakes I am getting rekt. It kind of makes me sad since I can do whatever I want on 108- if I get fukced in 109-215 stuff but I am trying my best..Sunday did not go well. Fired 46 comps. Better just forget about that day and not think about it too much.

Monday was way better, though. Fired 44 comps. Managed to get into HU of 50€ on stars.es but did not close out. Ran pretty hot in FT but I lost HU quite convincingly. Then I managed to get to FT of $55 PSKO on stars with a single bounty lol. The whole table was nuts. Super easy, bad regs, 2 huge fish, we were deep, i was in a great situation. Unfortunately I lost QQ<KK for CL but somehow managed to bounce back but in the end it was not enough and I was out in 5th place. There were like 12-15 situations when a guy was all-in but nobody busted lol. Then I got some semiFT of €10 markovitsus on Wina...aaaand I managed to make d2 in wina ME. I had 1.5x avg towards the last hand until I lost KK<KQs postflop on 653r29ss vs KQs vs some swedish reg whom decided to get creative for fukcing heaps. Luckily I still have like 25bbs for d2 which should be enough to make something happen. Today was a great day. I fukcing loved it.

plan for tomorrow is simple. Go through my FTs. Go through marked semiFT openshove/calls and see if I fukced up. Go through all marked hands from sat-mon (this will be so many...i hate this but it has to be done). Gym. Watch a video from library. Meditation. Play late night session with my d2 on Wina and do my best to take it down.

Quote of the day: "make yourself the mental point of origin. You come first. You can't help anybody until you help yourself first"